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noname223

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Aug 18, 2020
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Well actually killing yourself is so horrible with all the SI. How would it actually feel to hire a hitman? There are people out there who did that. But it feels so unsafe. First, it is illegal.
Then who knows whether you won't get scammed. It seems to be a business where scamming is pretty easy. But my bigger issue is who knows whether the hitman is no psychopath who tortures you beforehand. When I read about insane people who exploit suicidal people online I have read so often they claim to support people in dying who want to die. Especially, when there are meetings in real life rapings, torture etc. are not seldom. I would never meet with a stranger online who offered me help in dying. There are way too sick psychopaths out there who enjoy that. Who get sexually aroused by that.

I think I would hire shooting me in my head from behind without noticing it. Lol. But for that I would have to leave my room from time to time. I am not sure which time span I would choose. Maybe within 1 or 2 years. Practically to avoid scams the time span had to be shorter though. I would be fine if someone blew off my head. But wouldn't people be a little bit disturbed who had to witness it? I think my family would be shocked.

I know the whole scenario is unrealistic. But I simply don't want to go through the stages of acute suicidality again. Yes I want to die. But planning your suicide is a hell ride. It is in itself hell on earth at least for me. I want to take a break of consciousness without that.
 
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Anonymousa

Get me Out
Sep 21, 2024
2,395
If a hitman was all those things then I would 100% get one to kill me. No SI can stop you nor the attempt of dying failing can happen against a professional killer.

Tho if I could at least know a hitman isn't a scam and I have whatever amount of money needed for it, I would probably take the risk of them torturing me before they kill me as I would say getting through that torture would be worth dying for me instead of living the rest of my life.
 
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wham311

Enlightened
Mar 1, 2025
1,201
Yes.

Id run away when they got here though
 
patheticparasite

patheticparasite

sorry
Feb 21, 2025
94
No, I want to push the button myself.

However, if it was legal, safe and reliable, why a hitman? Seems kind of excessive compared to a doctor who just gives me a shot. For the benefit of not seeing it coming? I'd constantly have to worry about how my dead body would look in this very moment. That'd fuck up my daily routine. Thanks, but no.
 
Doll Steak

Doll Steak

Student
May 31, 2025
176
I'd like to say yes but probably not. I'd be way to paranoid and it wouldn't be a peaceful final moment of living.

I'd rather I just pull the trigger myself, skip the suspense and the looming thought that I will die any second and it might be painful or they might mess up, the trauma I may cause...
 
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HarryCobean

Student
Apr 12, 2024
140
It would have to be really cheap. I do wonder whether any of the people who hate me have tried taking out a hit on me and then realised that you can't exactly complain to the authorities if the hitman takes your money and doesn't deliver.
 
darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,267
I prefer a cozy atmosphere with a familiar person
 
FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotionally unstable like an IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
1,248
Nah I'm not having my final days living in absolute anxiety thank you
 
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Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
6,735
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TBONTB

Enlightened
May 31, 2025
1,114
Well actually killing yourself is so horrible with all the SI. How would it actually feel to hire a hitman? There are people out there who did that. But it feels so unsafe. First, it is illegal.
Then who knows whether you won't get scammed. It seems to be a business where scamming is pretty easy. But my bigger issue is who knows whether the hitman is no psychopath who tortures you beforehand. When I read about insane people who exploit suicidal people online I have read so often they claim to support people in dying who want to die. Especially, when there are meetings in real life rapings, torture etc. are not seldom. I would never meet with a stranger online who offered me help in dying. There are way too sick psychopaths out there who enjoy that. Who get sexually aroused by that.

I think I would hire shooting me in my head from behind without noticing it. Lol. But for that I would have to leave my room from time to time. I am not sure which time span I would choose. Maybe within 1 or 2 years. Practically to avoid scams the time span had to be shorter though. I would be fine if someone blew off my head. But wouldn't people be a little bit disturbed who had to witness it? I think my family would be shocked.

I know the whole scenario is unrealistic. But I simply don't want to go through the stages of acute suicidality again. Yes I want to die. But planning your suicide is a hell ride. It is in itself hell on earth at least for me. I want to take a break of consciousness without that.
This is a delightful fantasy. Like so many fantasies it does the job of getting us out of the challenges of reality. Theres a lot of other "quick exit" fantasies too...a car accident, a heart attack. So if I could make a fantasy come real I would first choose winning 100 million in the lottery. I think I could make enough of my problems go away with that But I also like the fantasy of a hired hitman making the way out easy for me.
 
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tanshakti

Absurdity of life
Jul 2, 2025
106
This is a delightful fantasy. Like so many fantasies it does the job of getting us out of the challenges of reality. Theres a lot of other "quick exit" fantasies too...a car accident, a heart attack. So if I could make a fantasy come real I would first choose winning 100 million in the lottery. I think I could make enough of my problems go away with that But I also like the fantasy of a hired hitman making the way out easy for me.
for me more like cardiac arrest in my sleep is my wish/fantasy, dont want stroke and be paralyzed:'(
 
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dontwakemeup

Paragon
Nov 11, 2024
910
Well actually killing yourself is so horrible with all the SI. How would it actually feel to hire a hitman? There are people out there who did that. But it feels so unsafe. First, it is illegal.
Then who knows whether you won't get scammed. It seems to be a business where scamming is pretty easy. But my bigger issue is who knows whether the hitman is no psychopath who tortures you beforehand. When I read about insane people who exploit suicidal people online I have read so often they claim to support people in dying who want to die. Especially, when there are meetings in real life rapings, torture etc. are not seldom. I would never meet with a stranger online who offered me help in dying. There are way too sick psychopaths out there who enjoy that. Who get sexually aroused by that.

I think I would hire shooting me in my head from behind without noticing it. Lol. But for that I would have to leave my room from time to time. I am not sure which time span I would choose. Maybe within 1 or 2 years. Practically to avoid scams the time span had to be shorter though. I would be fine if someone blew off my head. But wouldn't people be a little bit disturbed who had to witness it? I think my family would be shocked.

I know the whole scenario is unrealistic. But I simply don't want to go through the stages of acute suicidality again. Yes I want to die. But planning your suicide is a hell ride. It is in itself hell on earth at least for me. I want to take a break of consciousness without that.
There was a movie about this same scenario. I can't remember the name, I'll try to google it. It was definitely a great movie. Also, since I love documentaires, there was one about this also. If anyone is interested just search YouTube. I believe his name is Armon Meis. I won't give the ending away but of course this is a true story. To answer your question, no I wouldn't hire a hitman because these situations have been proven not to go well.
 
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Docdj

Member
Jun 9, 2025
35
Why not just buy a gun and do it yourself. Cut out the middle man
 
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locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,598
No. That would really be relinquishing control of my own autonomy. I think ctb is really something that has to be done yourself.
 
Wolf Girl

Wolf Girl

"This place made me feel worthless"
Jun 12, 2024
651
No, that sounds terrifying, waiting for it to happen and hoping they keep the deal to make it quick.
 
VoidButterfly

VoidButterfly

Flitterby
May 17, 2025
146
I wouldn't just because I want to be certain when I do it, and not just have it spring on me at some opportunistic moment. I think that'd make every moment SI induced, and you'd more than likely die in fear.
 
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TBONTB

Enlightened
May 31, 2025
1,114
for me more like cardiac arrest in my sleep is my wish/fantasy, dont want stroke and be paralyzed:'(
Ah perfect, yes dying in sleep is perfect! I know one person that happened to. (But he suffered a lot of health problems before hand so probably wasn't that easy after all). Still...if I go tonight!!!
 
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wham311

Enlightened
Mar 1, 2025
1,201
Why not just buy a gun and do it yourself. Cut out the middle man
Hard to pull the trigger.

Yes I want it to be done when I don't see it coming, and for it to be quick.
 
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lamy's sacred sleep

what's a way to just be competent
Nov 22, 2024
1,512
yes
 
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Cauliflour

Cauliflour

The masochist who doodles.
Mar 24, 2025
681
I Wikipedia often dream about getting a girlfriend who's just as fucked in the head as me, and then we kill each other by stabbing. Suppose that counts and I really wanna do that. Sounds hot. But like a professional shooting me in the head with a sniper?...nah. Don't feel like it. Wanna go out in style, y'know?
 
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Anura

Anura

Member
Dec 8, 2024
33
Yes, as long it's quick and happens at during a specified timeframe/on a certain day
 
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eupdplishlp

Please share with me what you are bearing
Jul 15, 2025
232
I'm so sorry for your suffering. I would hire hitman personally as this is easy for si. the scams of course is the biggest issue how do you get verification for that stuff? videos of sucessful clients maybe? kinda dark but if it was a legit buissness I'd definatly sign up
 
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Carrot

Carrot

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Feb 25, 2025
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If a hitman was all those things then I would 100% get one to kill me. No SI can stop you nor the attempt of dying failing can happen against a professional killer.

Tho if I could at least know a hitman isn't a scam and I have whatever amount of money needed for it, I would probably take the risk of them torturing me before they kill me as I would say getting through that torture would be worth dying for me instead of living the rest of my life.
If it was legal, I suppose the amount of scams would be lower. But you'd think if hiring somebody to kill you was legal, assisted suicide would be as well.

If I could chose the method.. sure. The idea of this being legal is so absurd to me though.
 
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Anonymousa

Get me Out
Sep 21, 2024
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If it was legal, I suppose the amount of scams would be lower. But you'd think if hiring somebody to kill you was legal, assisted suicide would be as well.

If I could chose the method.. sure. The idea of this being legal is so absurd to me though.
In a world where this was legal, assisted suicide should be legal too definitely as them killing you would be considered assisted suicide as you consented to it.

I think we all know this is absurd but this is an hypothetical if question so the absurd can happen.
 
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deathisapanacea

Student
Mar 10, 2025
197
In a heartbeat. But I ain,t going to his place. He has to come to my place.
 
SomewhereAlongThe

SomewhereAlongThe

Goodbye everyone <3
May 17, 2024
466
Tbh I wanna say yes, but then I realize how anxiety provoking that situation would be. So I'll just stick to the exit bag around my head, thank you.
 
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JealousOfTheElderly

In death, life echoes. In life, death calls.
Aug 28, 2020
311
Walk into a really rough neighborhood, go to a crack house and say you are a cop or something. Someone will pew pew you..
 
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Pale_Rider

Enlightened
Apr 21, 2025
1,471
Im just gonna say that if taking a human life was legal; I bet there would be suicide shops with fancy whatever gas you want to go by chairs. In case nobody else did.
 
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Ghostinplainsight

Living the nightmare
Jul 17, 2025
34
Im just gonna say that if taking a human life was legal; I bet there would be suicide shops with fancy whatever gas you want to go by chairs. In case nobody else did.
I got to 'suicide shops' and thought of walking in, placing cash down on the counter and getting shot in the head immediately, then on to the next customer. Big pile of people in the corner.

Then i read 'gas' and yeah, that's probably a better idea..
 
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