It's hard for me to know. I have body dysmorphia that's really centred on my face and though it isn't too bad anymore, I still know I can't see myself accurately. People tell me I'm attractive, but I've always had terrible luck with the opposite sex -- I've never gotten a lot of interest. That could be due to a number of factors though, especially around personality and I'm often told I'm "intimidating," which I don't really understand. And being now in my late 30s doesn't help either, even if I do know I look a fair bit younger than my age. My body is conventionally attractive, I am and have always been quite slender but with nice curves where they are needed, but frankly that doesn't seem to count for much.
The Abyss
Why're we still here, just to suffer?
- Dec 19, 2019
- 259
Same here! In my case, the overweight is the thing that has affected my body the most and I'm struggling day by day to say "okay, today we start to get in shape"
Mentalmick
IMHOTEP!!!
- Nov 30, 2020
- 2,050
adam&eve
Student
- Dec 16, 2020
- 191
I am average looking, to some I'm pretty, not to myself, though.
jrums
Student
- Apr 14, 2019
- 134
I was but antidepressants and drugs have prematurately aged me. And I never had confidence anyway. Probably why I took all the antidepressants and drugs.
MrBlue
Arcanist
- Jul 1, 2020
- 416
I've had no interest from women since I hit puberty and I'm now 22, so I'm most likely utterly repulsive.
TowerUpright
Disillusioned
- May 26, 2019
- 602
I never saw myself attractive or handsome and never saw myself that way either. The first time anyone actually told me I was nice-looking was when I was 19 and I told my therapist that I saw myself as ugly teenage guy. She said that,"That is not what I see at all." (It was not said inappropriately or anything like that). By then, I had multiple suicide attempts, including one that should have killed me.
I couldn't ever bring myself to date anyone except women who I didn't find physically attractive at all. As long as they paid attention to me, that was all I needed.
Now, fast forward 25 years or so, and a few more suicide attempts that no one knows about, I'm married to someone I'm not attracted to with a couple of children. I wake up every morning wishing I was dead, because I never had the nerve to stand up and say what I felt or had any self-esteem. I can't bring these feelings up to my therapist now: I mean, what is she going to say? LOL..
It's ultimately my own fault. I'm just torn back and forth as to CTB or not.
I couldn't ever bring myself to date anyone except women who I didn't find physically attractive at all. As long as they paid attention to me, that was all I needed.
Now, fast forward 25 years or so, and a few more suicide attempts that no one knows about, I'm married to someone I'm not attracted to with a couple of children. I wake up every morning wishing I was dead, because I never had the nerve to stand up and say what I felt or had any self-esteem. I can't bring these feelings up to my therapist now: I mean, what is she going to say? LOL..
It's ultimately my own fault. I'm just torn back and forth as to CTB or not.
Sprite_Geist
NULL
- May 27, 2020
- 1,593
If your definition of "good looking" is a living trainwreck then yes.
Ender
..
- Dec 29, 2020
- 269
I don't really see myself as good looking because I know what's on the inside and that's all pretty grim I have always gotten attention and friends have always expressed how they are jealous of me etc but none of it means anything to me
awfullife
Arcanist
- Nov 16, 2019
- 435
i'm about a 5 or a 6 from the side.
More like a 7 or 8 from front on and I have a decent ass.
My only ways to get laid was to be edgy and make her laugh. Plus alcohol helped.
More like a 7 or 8 from front on and I have a decent ass.
My only ways to get laid was to be edgy and make her laugh. Plus alcohol helped.
Deleted member 17949
Visionary
- May 9, 2020
- 2,238
Quite the opposite, I hate my body. Been bullied for my looks and have developed deep hatred and disgust towards my body over time. Part of my reason for choosing such a violent suicide method is expression of this hatred.
As a rating, I'd say 3/10 or 4/10
As a rating, I'd say 3/10 or 4/10
Nymph
he/him
- Jul 15, 2020
- 2,565
I fucking hate how I look, one of the reasons I wanna ctb. I was born in the wrong body
nicelookinhills
boxedin
- Jan 1, 2021
- 8
not in the slightest. i occasionally have moments of maybe im not too bad but then quickly go back to hating myself
adam&eve
Student
- Dec 16, 2020
- 191
Which method?
Lizzie Velasquez , anyone? She doesn't want to kill herself, an inspiration I would say and a beautiful human being...
BluesRunTheGame
Blackpilled
- Dec 15, 2020
- 1,715
I'm nothing much to look at but weirdly think I always have a shot. Was with an attractive partner for a time so may have gained some confidence there.
Can't imagine being with someone at this late stage.
Can't imagine being with someone at this late stage.
Deleted member 17949
Visionary
- May 9, 2020
- 2,238
CrazyMary
Student
- Sep 20, 2020
- 135
I think so, I had good luck with the opposite sex. And in my country I do stand out a lot, in others not that much.
adam&eve
Student
- Dec 16, 2020
- 191
She's stll alive, or do you want to say that it would be better that she does that? That is kinda rude to say because she loves living... that being said I pray for a quick and painless natural death for her to end her suffering if she's had enough. But she is very strong.
It's a hard question you could be attractive to one person and weird looking to another ... I guess average would be the honest answer
ScaredGirl
Mimi Ruru- 21 ~ she/her soft, death craving nerd
- Dec 20, 2020
- 71
I'm ugly and trans female I'm two years on hrt and 4 years on vocid therapy and I can't stand my face body and voice. I'm really unattractive and nobody showed interest in me my whole life unless it was to abuse of the S variety...
My whole life is abuse dysphoria dysmorphia and isolation. I'm not pretty enough for anyone especially not myself.
I don't want to die but I can't live...
My whole life is abuse dysphoria dysmorphia and isolation. I'm not pretty enough for anyone especially not myself.
I don't want to die but I can't live...
Deleted member 15256
Member
- Feb 18, 2020
- 55
Yes... And people always tells me that I look 15 years younger. There were moments when it made things easier to me. But now, it doesn't really matter
Romeo
Member
- Sep 4, 2020
- 31
No, I have a malocclusion that has completely ruined my chin and made me unattractive.
why is the world so hung up on good looks? it's what's on the inside that counts.
i never thought i was good looking and frankly didn't care.
enjoy the beauty of your youth, it don't last forever.
if you want to see what you'll look like when you get older, look at your aunts & uncles, and older cousins. it's not a pretty sight, is it?
i never thought i was good looking and frankly didn't care.
enjoy the beauty of your youth, it don't last forever.
if you want to see what you'll look like when you get older, look at your aunts & uncles, and older cousins. it's not a pretty sight, is it?
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I'd give myself a strong 2 out of 10 !
im the definition of ugly Mac fat fu@k I'm not documentary fat but I feel like it sometimes.
but my self loathing is a part of why I no longer want to be here
im the definition of ugly Mac fat fu@k I'm not documentary fat but I feel like it sometimes.
but my self loathing is a part of why I no longer want to be here
that_guy2611
Student
- Mar 17, 2018
- 188
nope, one ugly son of a bitch making the rest of y'all look good 
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