Would being able to go back in time and undo certain things stop your wish to cbt?

[ZoloftSüchtig]

If you could go back in time and undo certain mistakes you made, would this improve your life and make you not want to cbt anymore? Or is your reason for why you want to cbt not even solvable through being able to go back in time and redo some stuff?

 

[Praestat_Mori]

If I could go back in time and do a few certain things the other way I actually did I wouldn't be suicidal at all, my life would be just great.

 

[stage4johnny]

Yes I'd like to go back and do things differently. Yep.

 

[Griffith_NPD]

Even though my disorder + mental disabilities would stay the same. I would definitely no longer be Suicidal, I would be happy with my Love, that's all I need...

 

[Hollowman]

Yep that would fix everything.

 

[FuneralCry]

No, I know that I would always wish for non-existence no matter what happens, I don't really see anything desirable about existence at all, the ability to exist was just what I was unfortunately burdened with and I could never wish to decay from age in this world where there is unlimited potential to suffer endlessly, existence repulses me.
I would never want to go back in time, I only wish for permanent nothingness as that's only what is ideal, existing fills me with dread.

 

[who doesn't matter]

Unfortunately no. As one member once said, "the game was rigged from the start."

 

[Alltheywanted]

For me, it's not about the mistakes that I've definitely made. I just hate living, I hate everything about this world and the society. Sometimes I'm disgusted by simply being a human. You know, it's so fcking hard to hold on this life knowing damn well that I'm just built this way. No mistakes made me like this. Everything is unnecessarily difficult, especially suicide itself.

 

[savoytruffle]

i have no idea. most of what im dealing with is inside my faulty brain

 

[RichardFirst]

In my case, yes. In truth, there is a single mistake that, if I could undo it, would at lease make life tolerable for me today. That said, if we're allowing time travel, I'd probably just go back to 1982 and slash the tiers on my grandfather's car so that he couldn't give my mom a ride to the disco where she met my dad. It would have saved her, him and me a whole lot of trouble in the long run....

 

[busybee]

If I could go back I would rather tell myself the lottery numbers and get a job I enjoy without worry for money. Then I would have way less ctb-reasons.

 

[NeedSomething]

No, it wouldn't. My life is amazing and it literally could not have gone any better. But that doesn't stop my thoughts of killing myself. I hate myself, I hate the way I think, the way I act, how im riddled with anxiety, how there is a voice that won't stop telling me to kill myself. Even if I had won the lottery, id still would of ended up in the same mental state I am now.

 

[boom.shaka.laka]

For me there's nothing other than my existence I could erase that would change anything. I've wanted to ctb for as long as I can remember. Nothing makes those constant thoughts and urges go away.

 

[Starry✧･ﾟDaze]

Part of me wants to hope and believe that it would have been better, yes.
I'd have to change my whole life tho, since so many really bad and f*cked up things happened over the years.
Much of what happened was completely out of my personal control, so idk.

It's hard to say if things would be better for me now, but I would have become a different version of me.

 

[Kikoo]

Hell yes. That would fix a lot.

 

[ANONYMOUSM]

why wouldn't anybody

 

[enough of this]

Knowing what to avoid, if I could go back just 20 years, I could fix so much to the point of not wanting to CTB.
I would do it in a heartbeat. (I'm 74)

 

[EndoftheTunnel3339]

No, the main problems making me want to ctb are external. I guess if i could go back in time and get myself aborted as a fetus, that would count as something I'd go back in time to do.

 

[annointed_towers]

Yes. I cursed God in a moment of rage and He is now punishing me with the feeling of worms all over my body. I would go back and never curse Him.

 

[ChantDuCygne]

Not in a single trip. Actually, there are things I could not have prevented even if I had known that they would happen. Even if I could change the past, there would be too many destinations on my list.

 

[MrSpaghetti]

Honestly don't know, the only memory I really have from a point in time where I didnt want to ctb is meeting my best friend and I was probably around 5 or so. I'd like to think that if certain things in my life played out differently, or If I didnt make as many mistakes then I'd be in a better spot mentally.

 

[Anon7b8]

It will probably just push my date a few years further than what it is now. Even if i change something just 16 years ago. At a different milestone down the line would still make me want to ctb. But probably with less regrets.

 

[ChantDuCygne]

No, the main problems making me want to ctb are external. I guess if i could go back in time and get myself aborted as a fetus, that would count as something I'd go back in time to do.

I hadn't thought about that. A single trip that solves everything in a way that remains ethical.

 

[oneeyed]

I would still have my mental disorders but I would at least try to educate my younger self and get myself to game the stock market and become wealthy. At least I would be comfortable.

 

[caraphernelia]

My life would probably be better than it is today if I could go back and change some things but I think wanting to ctb is somewhat inevitable for me and changing things in my past would only push back the date a few years at most.

 

[CheekyPhobia]

In large part yeah. Having to raise myself set me back a lot and it wouldnt hurt to go back knowing to invest in Bitcoin haha. But it would be so lonely, everyone you know would be dead essentially. Theyd still be there, in a younger form, but it wouldn't be the person you know. Perhaps there's a meditation on consciousness to be had there - I'm no longer the person I was a year ago and for all intents and purposes given that he now has no form, he's dead. So what's the harm in ending this form now? He'll be replaced in a year as well.

 

[8daysperweek]

Complete control of time would

 

[Forever Sleep]

No. I gave it my best shot. The decisions I made made sense at the time. Each time I left a job or moved- it was because I was unhappy. Simply staying put wouldn't have made me happier. I kind of wish I'd made the right decision with my first degree but who knows? I may not have got on the course at that stage. Either way, I would have struggled. The entire world would have to change for me to have a better chance! Really- being born a few decades ago would have been better for me but no- most of the shitty stuff that happened in my life I had no control over- deaths, suspected narcissist in childhood that I had no clue how to deal with, my particular job industry dying. Nah- I'd prefer to quit than restart somewhere.

 

[underscore_nine]

If you could go back in time and undo certain mistakes you made, would this improve your life and make you not want to cbt anymore? Or is your reason for why you want to cbt not even solvable through being able to go back in time and redo some stuff?

i don't think i could be fixed, just not being born would be ideal

 

[WeDontKnowTheFuture]

There are things to change that could definitely make me less suicidal but certainly not happy or free from suicidal thoughts.