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Sadbanana

God doesn't care
Aug 20, 2024
53
The fact that I have nobody like that is probably the main reason I have problems with my self worth and am suicidal. But hard to say if I'm not too far gone to recover even then, either way it won't happen anyways.
 
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Dark Moon

Dark Moon

Warlock
Sep 21, 2022
789
I don't know if it's enough to prevent my death but it would definitely help and that's one of my reasons for suicide, for instance if I found someone that genuinely loved/cared about me then it would cure my touch starvation, loneliness, sexlessness and isolation since I'm autistic I've heard that the only way to get out of isolation is by having a partner that would help to get me out of it.
 
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Stan Swiftie

Stan Swiftie

Student
Apr 3, 2025
102
Just a 3 AM thought, a mental exercise. I know most of us on here are terribly lonely. I know it is a horrible idea living for someone but I was wondering if, let's say, a beautiful person comes into your life, basically your dream man/woman, would that lessen your chances of CTB or at least cure some part of your depression?
Yes
That is all I've ever wanted
But it never happened & never will
And it's too late now anyways
 
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unworthy_

Member
Mar 19, 2021
89
Delusion/Cope : Was discarded in Dec 2024
Reality : Broke up in Dec 2024

Thought I would be with my person since 2022. He made me so happy. I never felt connected and attracted to someone before him. Then all gone.. All hopes and dreams... Back to where I was before meeting him. I have ntg before meeting him. I have ntg too after meeting him. Thing is I am getting older. Society and biology don't favour old people. Ageism, deteriorating health and infertility. I am in my .late 30, F. I really have ntg to offer at this point in my life. I made a lot of mistakes and I deeply regret it because they all lead to where I am now... Insignificant person..
 
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Avril

Avril

Unlovable.
Aug 8, 2020
543
I'm sorry to hear about all your experiences, it seems that 50/50 yes and no. And some of us could pull through if we were genuinely loved. Fucking cruel world.
 
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Bootleg Astolfo

Bootleg Astolfo

Glorious Bean Plushie
Oct 12, 2020
828
Throw in basically any amount of help whatsoever with my health issues, and that would be all my problems solved lol.
 
Cinnamorolls

Cinnamorolls

Student
Apr 28, 2024
163
Yes. I have been in relationships before but they were all physically and emotionally abusive. Having someone in my life who actually loves me and cares about me would make a huge difference in my mental state.
 
aiyuxhan

aiyuxhan

Experienced
Mar 28, 2025
294
My husband is my caregiver. I love him so much, but I feel like his life will be way better off without me in it :(
 
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Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

Arcanist
Apr 21, 2025
482
Does a loving partner exist for the broken? probably not. lets be honest.
 
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Defenestrator

Defenestrator

Experienced
Jan 17, 2020
284
Maybe, but then you have to realise that the problem is you and so another person won't change that.

Let's say, hypothetically, I meet someone and fall in love with them and they me - my annoyingly suicidal brain starts to convince me they would be so much better off without me. I start pushing them away, which hurts them and me - how is this better than me just staying alone? At least then I'm just hurting myself and not another person.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
3,313
No nothing could stop me from suicide. Plus I could never want a romantic partner anyway even if I
Didn't have any problems .The only thing I could ever want from another human is help with my suicide. But they made that a crime to keep us slaves and prisoners in the evil prison .

Even if I didn't have any problems why do I I have to get a partner or romantic partner? That crap is subjective to me.

Why do I have to get a gf?

So is life. Why do I have to live another minute?

To hell with all that garbage they repeatedly glorify like a romantic relationship and life and fighting to live.What i want us to avoid extreme torture . I want to avoid bad suffering and old age diseases pain problems.

A relationship with my shotgun that might help me get out of this hell. Glorifying my shotgun might help me

I will never want to exist for anything under any circumstances
 
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FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotional unstable like and IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
356
Maybe? Im not sure since I've never been in one so can't really say.

Plus I can be ok then later not be ok and wanna cbt. It really depends really

For I just daydream about a loving partner which maybe can me stay for a bit longer?

Love is confusing
 
Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

Arcanist
Apr 21, 2025
482
Its really a worthless question isnt it? rhetorical?
 
broth0100

broth0100

i’m not in the tide i be under it, Jaws
Oct 23, 2023
170
I have a loving partner. Unfortunately this won't stop me, no
 
kitia973

kitia973

Member
Dec 24, 2024
99
Personally no, I think trying to keep with with the "loving relationship" could be a really big emotional burden, especially if I have very little energy. It's impossible to find someone with the exact same values and thoughts as you anyway
 
voidangel

voidangel

perfect girl
Nov 29, 2024
12
i think love is complicated and can come in so many different forms. for me though, i don't think it would change anything. i feel too numb to believe i'm lovable anyways
 
Carrot

Carrot

Student
Feb 25, 2025
137
I have that. And it doesn't help.
I had that. And it helped. The lack of her definitely makes it much worse.

Of course I don't know your situation and am projecting, but I hope you don't lose that person and then realise how helpful it was.
 
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ExitPark

Member
Mar 17, 2025
20
I have never had a partner so if one were to magically appear I would at least try to see how it feels, so yes at least initially it would stop me
 
leandra

leandra

Maaaaaaaaaaaaan wth is thiis
Feb 10, 2025
122
i think love is complicated and can come in so many different forms. for me though, i don't think it would change anything. i feel too numb to believe i'm lovable anyways
Why would u say your not lovable voidangel
 
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RosieRed71

Member
Apr 15, 2025
20
The only person who stopped me from CTB was my dad. He never knew my struggles but I knew that it would literally destroy him and I couldn't do that to him.

Yet I always knew that after he died, my desire to CTB would be stronger than ever. And it most definitely was. Minutes after his death I tried the window on the 4th floor of the hospital. Sadly it didn't open more than a few inches, although it maybe would not have been enough of a drop to be an effective method
 
sleepy_redcar

sleepy_redcar

Hard to decipher this path
May 12, 2024
34
Just a 3 AM thought, a mental exercise. I know most of us on here are terribly lonely. I know it is a horrible idea living for someone but I was wondering if, let's say, a beautiful person comes into your life, basically your dream man/woman, would that lessen your chances of CTB or at least cure some part of your depression?
It's more of a barrier to act upon it, i've been in relationships in a row for 6 years now and I would say being in a relationship doesn't take the mindset away fully, for one of my relationship it did since that one made me truly happy and look forward to a future, and it became very evident that my mind wasn't in the right place when that one ended, and in my current one, not really? Since i've grown to care for that person less and less considering they found me in a bad spot before
 
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PlutonianRooster

PlutonianRooster

Member
Dec 16, 2024
27
Yes.

I thought my first relationship would be my turning point. I thought that they would help me get help, and that, for the first time in my life, someone saw me for who I truly am. I did my best to not put the onus of 'saving' me on them, and I didn't think our relationship would fix everything - just that I would get a fighting chance, with someone finally in my corner.

They, in fact, didn't follow through on promises of help, nor did they see me for who I am. All that happened was losing crucial time and gaining painful memories.
I've been slowly realizing how much it fucked me up, and how different it could have been if their love was what I thought it was.

If I had any other solid relationship in life - family or friend-wise - it might have also put the thought out of my mind.
 
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LostLily

LostLily

Why do I exist?
Nov 18, 2024
643
That the part of the reason why I never dated. I don't want any more roots tying me down to existing on this plane of existence
Also there is so much drama in relationships. A friend a mine recently got married. And her ex-boyfriend from 10 years ago made a fake Facebook page with her picture in order to insult her.
 
humantool

humantool

Member
Apr 20, 2025
38
No. I don't think there's such thing as "loving partner"
 

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