Working, people, and society make me wanna die

[MiMif]

Sometimes I have a random gush of passion for life it happens randomly. But then once I think about getting up for work or my parents or friends talk to me or anyone that I Stanley fades and I want to kill myself. It's strange.

I recently survived an attempt that landed me in the hospital and honestly I never knew it was tht easy I realized after that my attempts before were half assed. All I did was swallow about 60-70 prescription pills and I almost died but my parents took me to the hospital....the doctors kept telling me I could've died and all I felt was shock because before I tried hanging slitting and over the counter pills and it barely did anything but that was so easy. I just took the pills and eent to sleep then woke up due to throwing up. I mean it did hurt but I was so close. It sucks

 

[sorrowfullyliving]

I'm so sorry that you failed your attempt, I hope you're not getting sent to an asylum. I also feel the same way, I wish there's a world where I could just do my passion without interacting with people or worrying about anything, but sadly that's just a fantasy, that's why I chose my second best option non existence

 

[58Alice85]

i would be so pissed off if someone brought me back against my will!

 

[SoulCage]

I can relate. Over the past 15 years, I tried different jobs and every single one was draining me so much, that I wanted to stop existing. Now I don't even want passions, because they need resources that I have to work for.
The suffering is just not worth it. Fucking hell.

 

[davidtorez]

I can relate. Over the past 15 years, I tried different jobs and every single one was draining me so much, that I wanted to stop existing. Now I don't even want passions, because they need resources that I have to work for.
The suffering is just not worth it. Fucking hell.

So true. It really isn't worth it at all!