Venting Main reason why i'm still here is me not wanting people to know me and my past

[evrlastingsea]

unfortunately in where i live, people who took their own life will usually get viral and people will dig everything up about people who ctb. it will be a viral insta reels or twt post. and i'm not ready for that. i don't want people that i care about dealing with that. or dealing the truth about me.

It's kinda stupid because i know i'll be dead anyways and that shouldn't be my problem. but i have an issue where i can't even understand which part of my words are lies and which one are not. sometimes it took me a while that something that i said, or believed i did is not actually true i am just bad at knowing which one actually hallened and not. i don't even know if half my life is just me making stuff up.... and that has been going since at least more than 5 years ago. i know i'm a bad person, for sure. but i'm really really worried about it

ive been wondering if there's any kind of ctb method that won't give me too much spotlight. getting into an accident will be more natural. but then i don't like the thought of me not dying bc of ctb. such weird thing to worry about

 

[urgent]

unfortunately in where i live, people who took their own life will usually get viral and people will dig everything up about people who ctb. it will be a viral insta reels or twt post. and i'm not ready for that. i don't want people that i care about dealing with that. or dealing the truth about me.

It's kinda stupid because i know i'll be dead anyways and that shouldn't be my problem. but i have an issue where i can't even understand which part of my words are lies and which one are not. sometimes it took me a while that something that i said, or believed i did is not actually true i am just bad at knowing which one actually hallened and not. i don't even know if half my life is just me making stuff up.... and that has been going since at least more than 5 years ago. i know i'm a bad person, for sure. but i'm really really worried about it

ive been wondering if there's any kind of ctb method that won't give me too much spotlight. getting into an accident will be more natural. but then i don't like the thought of me not dying bc of ctb. such weird thing to worry about

I know everything is all over social media now I just want to go quietly now I wish someone could just get rid of me and my body I don't want any attention

 

[Dawnfang11]

Idk how realistic or helpful this is, but you could try to ctb in a very remote place? If it takes some time for people to find you, it might reduce the "media" exposure. When you're first declared "missing," it would make a big fuss, but people wouldn't know you've ctb. By the time you're found, people may have moved on somewhat. It would be "old news".

 

[evrlastingsea]

Idk how realistic or helpful this is, but you could try to ctb in a very remote place? If it takes some time for people to find you, it might reduce the "media" exposure. When you're first declared "missing," it would make a big fuss, but people wouldn't know you've ctb. By the time you're found, people may have moved on somewhat. It would be "old news".

oh, this might work somehow.. if no one actually make too much fuss about it. it's def still risky, but then there's much more chance. thanks, i'll see if this'll work for me^_^

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

oh, this might work somehow.. if no one actually make too much fuss about it. it's def still risky, but then there's much more chance. thanks, i'll see if this'll work for me^_^

I think it increases media exposure EXPONENTIALLY. All that attention while they're out searching, and you wasting everyone's time. And idk if you care about your family & friends or not, but that's the cruelest thing you could possibly do to them, because they'd be worried sick 24/7 about what may be happening to you until you are found. If you want to destroy their lives as much as you can, this is the way.