Venting Wish I could die in an accident rather than suicide

[Mljonzy]

i often wish i could wake up and everyone has gone . my favorite film genre are end of world/last man on earth lol

The ultimate peace and quiet without being dead, no expectations, anxiety or worrying about money.

 

[Mn1245]

The ultimate peace and quiet without being dead, no expectations, anxiety or worrying about money.

Or just most people gone, except my partner and child, and some friends or people I like. Or many can stay except, anyone that has more money than me, needs to go. Or anyone that has a nicer house than me. That means around 99% of the worlds population. So me and other dirt poor people can stay. That way no ones jealous of anyone, and we can just live without worrying about powerful people coming to take all our food and kill us. I believe people can live in peace together as long as there isn't someone evil who just wants to steal from others instead of growing their own food.

 

[mutagen]

I feel the same way, I wish I could get robbed at gunpoint. Die in a freak car accident or even have cancer with only a couple of months to live.

 

[Allpainnogain]

Read this: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/last-three-months.8689/post-315440

Ugh no way

 

[deathenvoy]

I would love to have some terminal disease like cancer. Than I would be able to CTB without hurting my family.
Somehow they understand that escaping physical pain is OK, but escaping mental pain is a no-no.

 

[ExitTheDay]

I feel the same way a lot, sometimes I wish it would just happen rather than me just getting it over with myself

 

[Vegrau]

I think cancer is better.

 

[Rex2019]

I'm not saying I don't want to handle CTBing myself. I certainly can and chances are I certainly will. But so desperately I wish I would die in an accident. It seems I'm always at the right place at the wrong time. Recently there was an accident on a freeway I travel on often, a guy on drugs was driving outrageously fast and killed a woman on her way to work. That accident happened two days after I was driving down it around that same time.

Or like, idk, I know it sounds grotesque but a mugging or something. Or a random event where I get shot or stabbed and left to die.

I say this primarily because I feel like it would bring more peace to the people I love if I died in an accident as opposed to suicide. Accidents happen far too often to people who have so much ahead of them. And yet here I am, desperate to die, and nothing.

This makes it sound like I'm lazy and don't wanna CTB myself. Untrue. Failed more times than I could count, so it's not for a lack of trying. I just know it would bring more closure for my family if it were this way.

Well technically....you could plan an "accident"... maybe take up hiking/rock climbing where you have an "accident" or visit the grand canyon/ a cliff and take a "careless selfie"

 

[not_a_robot]

I've always read about peoples' deaths to reassure myself that if I just wait long enough, something will surely kill me too. Never thought it would take so long. Birthdays make me so mad All I'm ever thinking is "still here? how???"
I think tons of "accidents" are suicides.

 

[justanotherday]

I'm not saying I don't want to handle CTBing myself. I certainly can and chances are I certainly will. But so desperately I wish I would die in an accident. It seems I'm always at the right place at the wrong time. Recently there was an accident on a freeway I travel on often, a guy on drugs was driving outrageously fast and killed a woman on her way to work. That accident happened two days after I was driving down it around that same time.

Or like, idk, I know it sounds grotesque but a mugging or something. Or a random event where I get shot or stabbed and left to die.

I say this primarily because I feel like it would bring more peace to the people I love if I died in an accident as opposed to suicide. Accidents happen far too often to people who have so much ahead of them. And yet here I am, desperate to die, and nothing.

This makes it sound like I'm lazy and don't wanna CTB myself. Untrue. Failed more times than I could count, so it's not for a lack of trying. I just know it would bring more closure for my family if it were this way.

I can relate to everything you say, 100 percent!

I think a lot of people think this way and that is why, they live life on the edge, all the time(fighting in wars, doing drugs, committing crimes, making enemies, doing risky things to show off)... Deep down inside, they just want to die.

Yes, one of my things is that I ride in the car without a seatbelt, hoping to have a car accident and die.

 

[scorpiooo2]

I think about this quite often.

In my mind it would be much simpler if it could be an accident rather than me having to CTB. I feel like it would be simpler for my mother to grasp than having to wonder everyday why her daughter killed herself.

 

[oxymoron]

I'm not saying I don't want to handle CTBing myself. I certainly can and chances are I certainly will. But so desperately I wish I would die in an accident. It seems I'm always at the right place at the wrong time. Recently there was an accident on a freeway I travel on often, a guy on drugs was driving outrageously fast and killed a woman on her way to work. That accident happened two days after I was driving down it around that same time.

Or like, idk, I know it sounds grotesque but a mugging or something. Or a random event where I get shot or stabbed and left to die.

I say this primarily because I feel like it would bring more peace to the people I love if I died in an accident as opposed to suicide. Accidents happen far too often to people who have so much ahead of them. And yet here I am, desperate to die, and nothing.

This makes it sound like I'm lazy and don't wanna CTB myself. Untrue. Failed more times than I could count, so it's not for a lack of trying. I just know it would bring more closure for my family if it were this way.

Yeah I feel you. That's the only reason I live. Hopping I'd get killed in an accident or get hit by a stray bullet. It's been 8 months I've been like that. I wish the world was a better place and none of us had to suffer at all.

I can relate to everything you say, 100 percent!

Yes, one of my things is that I ride in the car without a seatbelt, hoping to have a car accident and die.

I don't wear seatbelts either. But nothing happens to us. People who don't deserve to die are dying and we are not.

I'm not saying I don't want to handle CTBing myself. I certainly can and chances are I certainly will. But so desperately I wish I would die in an accident. It seems I'm always at the right place at the wrong time. Recently there was an accident on a freeway I travel on often, a guy on drugs was driving outrageously fast and killed a woman on her way to work. That accident happened two days after I was driving down it around that same time.

Or like, idk, I know it sounds grotesque but a mugging or something. Or a random event where I get shot or stabbed and left to die.

I say this primarily because I feel like it would bring more peace to the people I love if I died in an accident as opposed to suicide. Accidents happen far too often to people who have so much ahead of them. And yet here I am, desperate to die, and nothing.

This makes it sound like I'm lazy and don't wanna CTB myself. Untrue. Failed more times than I could count, so it's not for a lack of trying. I just know it would bring more closure for my family if it were this way.

Sometimes I wish I never woke up from my sleep. When I cannot get my mind to rest and cannot fall asleep due to depression and anxiety and tinnitus I say to myself that maybe this is my last sleep ever and that makes me fall asleep.

 

[pole]

i always envisioned myself dying in a car accident. iv had like dreams about it for years, and always at times get these wierd deja vu feelings when im about to step into a car.

id honestly love to die in an accident. just quick and easy, not expected. the only thing would be if others are involved. i dont wanna die in an accident where theres potential for others to die or be severely hurt. i wish id die in just like a wierd freak accident with just myself involved only.

 

[oxymoron]

i always envisioned myself dying in a car accident. iv had like dreams about it for years, and always at times get these wierd deja vu feelings when im about to step into a car.

id honestly love to die in an accident. just quick and easy, not expected. the only thing would be if others are involved. i dont wanna die in an accident where theres potential for others to die or be severely hurt. i wish id die in just like a wierd freak accident with just myself involved only.

I like it too. Maybe we can plan one?

 

[pole]

I like it too. Maybe we can plan one?

i would, but im actively TRYING atleast to get better and recover, especially with school around the corner.

and also, iv long wanted a peaceful death with just no methodical planning, and nothing that ensures any chance of survival. thus, im probably gonna buy N if i dont get better.

 

[oxymoron]

i would, but im actively TRYING atleast to get better and recover, especially with school around the corner.

and also, iv long wanted a peaceful death with just no methodical planning, and nothing that ensures any chance of survival. thus, im probably gonna buy N if i dont get better.

Good luck to you.

 

[hadenough]

I always feel sad when I hear someone has died accidentally or from an illness when they had so much to live for and wish I could take their place.

 

[oxymoron]

I always feel sad when I hear someone has died accidentally or from an illness when they had so much to live for and wish I could take their place.

Yeah my 27 year friend drowned back in October 2018 and I always wish I should've died.

 

[LogicalThinker-527]

i always wish that i get cancer, refuse chemo and die surrounded by my family and friends in a bed, i dont care if it was painful just the thought of dying around people i care about and have them accept my departure is wholesome to me.

 

[Baskol1]

I wish i would get striked by a lightning, or another natural catastrophe and die.

 

[Wayfaerer]

I'd rather it be suicide because in an accident, the chances of it being a clean and (relatively) painless death is much smaller.

 

[Numbtopain97]

I feel the same