Sims3losertrait
weed addict, antinatalist, loser
- Jan 8, 2021
- 40
I literally went into septic shock. I should have died. Why why why why why couldn't some nurse have fucked up at the last second and accidentally let me die? I bet everything would be perfect if I had died. I bet me not dying caused Trump to become president due to butterfly effect. How much more harm am I causing just by continuing to exist? I look at tweakers and homeless addicts and people who neglect their kids and all the kinds of people who are basically useless, the dregs of society, and I wonder if they are like me and were all supposed to die too. Like a useless life is just what happens to people who were supposed to be on the bus but were pulled off of it by modern medicine. Earth's (natural selection's) punishment to humanity for disobeying her will and saving people who weren't meant to be saved is that now everyone else has to put up with our bullshit and pretend they aren't completely fucking sick of it and don't resent us and don't regret keeping us alive because they don't want to look like assholes. They should all just stop virtue signaling, say what they really mean, and start killing us like they know they want to. Like we deserve.
And now I'm 28 goddamn years old. Too old to be acting like this. Forever ineligible for the 27 club because I can't do one single fucking thing without procrastinating. "The 27 club is for famous people" Yeah I procrastinated getting famous. Now it's never gonna happen. I've changed into a much more shitty and useless … it feels wrong to call myself a person. I am just some sort of disgusting rotten thing or perhaps abomination.
Anyway. Wow. Half my life, gone. It was all pointless. It was already going downhill and it's all downhill from here. It's felt so embarrassing to celebrate my birthday after about 25. It's no longer something to be proud of. All the cool and socially acceptable ages are behind me. Why bother even turning this around at this point. I don't have a resumé and I can't make one, I've only ever had one real job, why bother trying to get a degree when everyone else in the 101 level classes is a decade younger than me and has better work ethic (and theyre all fucking catholic tradwives in training to boot!!!! I LOVE MY COUNTRY!!!!!
) when I'm never even gonna be able to use the degree to get a job because you need a fucking REAL RESUMÉ TO GET A REAL JOB. IM NOT EVEN A REAL PERSON IM NEVER GETTING A REAL JOB. I genuinely might stop going to class and start death cleaning my room.
My brother just slammed the door so fucking loud for no reason I hate him so much it's unreal. I wish my hands had been in that door frame. Or his. Able bodies are wasted on those without able minds.
Nobody even cares about me enough to rape me. I'm the only person on earth from my particular demographic who hasn't been raped, doesn't have EDS or POTS or MCAS, doesn't have DID or schizophrenia or a personality disorder, hasn't had eight million spinal fusions… I have no fucking excuse. I need someone to give me something to cry about.
And now I'm 28 goddamn years old. Too old to be acting like this. Forever ineligible for the 27 club because I can't do one single fucking thing without procrastinating. "The 27 club is for famous people" Yeah I procrastinated getting famous. Now it's never gonna happen. I've changed into a much more shitty and useless … it feels wrong to call myself a person. I am just some sort of disgusting rotten thing or perhaps abomination.
Anyway. Wow. Half my life, gone. It was all pointless. It was already going downhill and it's all downhill from here. It's felt so embarrassing to celebrate my birthday after about 25. It's no longer something to be proud of. All the cool and socially acceptable ages are behind me. Why bother even turning this around at this point. I don't have a resumé and I can't make one, I've only ever had one real job, why bother trying to get a degree when everyone else in the 101 level classes is a decade younger than me and has better work ethic (and theyre all fucking catholic tradwives in training to boot!!!! I LOVE MY COUNTRY!!!!!
) when I'm never even gonna be able to use the degree to get a job because you need a fucking REAL RESUMÉ TO GET A REAL JOB. IM NOT EVEN A REAL PERSON IM NEVER GETTING A REAL JOB. I genuinely might stop going to class and start death cleaning my room. My brother just slammed the door so fucking loud for no reason I hate him so much it's unreal. I wish my hands had been in that door frame. Or his. Able bodies are wasted on those without able minds.
Nobody even cares about me enough to rape me. I'm the only person on earth from my particular demographic who hasn't been raped, doesn't have EDS or POTS or MCAS, doesn't have DID or schizophrenia or a personality disorder, hasn't had eight million spinal fusions… I have no fucking excuse. I need someone to give me something to cry about.
