Will your suicide be a surprise?

[Jumping_realms]

Yup.

Surprise bitches!!!

Don't act like you care now...

 

[Sra_TZ]

I don't care whether it will be a surprise to my family or colleagues. They never cared anyway and I can imagine them crying crocodile tears for a while and forgetting me just as quick.

To the only person who knows me and loves me, no, it won't be a surprise. Nevertheless, it will hurt her all the same (hardly anything I can do about that). Living for others isn't easy, is it?
~S

 

[doesntevenmatter]

Nope, I very seriously doubt it will surprise anyone at all lol.

 

[Zvov]

I don't think it will be a total surprise. I have come to a few close friends before about the way I feel and think. I do believe more will be surprised than not, but more of a casual surprise like when you hear about some media icon passing away

 

[Dear Agony]

It won't be a surprise to my family, no. Of course they will be shocked, but I have insinuated suicide multiple times, they know I'm suicidal and we've talked about it a lot, they even forced me inpatient once, so. Surprise? No. Shock? Yes. Suicide is always shocking tho.
My friends/known ones? It will be a surprise to them. I mean I have SH scars and they know I'm mentally ill, but I do not think they know how serious I am about it, since I never had an actual conversation about it with them.

 

[Sprite_Geist]

I really hope not. The last thing that I want is acquaintances and strangers who never bothered with me dancing over my grave.

 

[BreakTheCycle]

Definitely not.
Been to psych ward because of attempts twice now. All my friends and family know I'm suicidal. They know about the attempts. There`s no way anyone will be surprised.

 

[destiny]

My partner (I think? we're going through a difficult time) know, has always known about my struggle. I can talk openly about it. She would never try to stop me. Her feelings are not more important than my suffering, as she puts it. I feel like I'm draining her though. Might have been better if she didn't know about my plans.

My therapist also knows. I called him crying while in crisis and he told me he doesn't know how to help me. Guess I'm fucked.

Family doesn't know, although they know about my depression and trauma.

 

[whenlavaflows]

No, probably not. Although when it does happen I bet a bunch of people will post their bawwws about me and how it was "such a surprise" that it happened.
Yet, i've been quite vocal about my attempts in the past on instagram (deleted all my posts now) and have only received support from one person.

 

[TriggerHappy]

My partner (I think? we're going through a difficult time) know, has always known about my struggle. I can talk openly about it. She would never try to stop me. Her feelings are not more important than my suffering, as she puts it. I feel like I'm draining her though. Might have been better if she didn't know about my plans.

My therapist also knows. I called him crying while in crisis and he told me he doesn't know how to help me. Guess I'm fucked.

Family doesn't know, although they know about my depression and trauma.

I so relate :: I don't know how u manage to negotiate a relationship!
u deserve an award.
when suicide ideation grabs hold of me/ my self destruction develops a psycho personality of its own! / I tend to alienate myself, feeling guilty for getting emotionally heavy rather than hostage taking.
☆ Guns / Shooting / Stars ☆
I ask for help, but inevitably I find therapy insatiable.
So I try keep honest, open-minded and willing (fail miserably with the last of those most of the time) cos "only you can save yourself" (i'm repetitively lectured)
I'm a master manipulator, so I try steer clear of unconsciously turning the people I love into enablers or even worse, fixers.
thanks for your post, a reminder of my madness and how much work I still have to do :: it really hit home.

 

[Bleunoir]

I attempted in 2018. Not much as change since then except I'm older. My eventual suicide will not be a surprise. I'll be quickly forgotten

 

[seeking2learn]

For me is will be a Sur Prise. For others a surprise, but not a good one.

 

[bunnies]

when the actual shock of me having passed away is gone, no, nobody will be surprised lol. i have had mental health problems my whole life and was never normal.

 

[keyakizaka]

it shouldn't be a surprise. i've told my family plenty of times that i'll do it. but i know they're still gonna be surprised. because they don't take me seriously at all.

 

[Bleunoir]

Won't be much of a surprise for those that know me. I reached out so often for help but was ignored even by my close family.

 

[m9q2As2$IG]

It may come as a surprise to some for me. I've been very vocal in saying I have these thoughts, but nobody seems to really fathom the realness of it for me.

 

[WaterHemlock]

I don't know.
I've spoken about suicide, tried to be open about it. Those friends might be shocked but not surprised.
Then my family, I try to imagine what they'd feel. I don't think that I'm really on their radar. I think they'd miss being able to call me for a ride. And they'd say, if only we had known. But I can't imagine them doing anything different if they really had.
I wonder, what could someone do that would stop you from catching the bus?

 

[RedPanda]

100% yes, nobody knows I'm suicidal. I'm, very good at hiding my feelings.

 

[threadbythread]

Probably not for my partner and some friends, I feel the worst thinking about the potential guilt it might cause him. But I also feel sick thinking about the consequences if I continue to live, and how I'll just continue to ruin his life and mental health. My family might be surprised, but they'll probably just make it about themselves somehow.

 

[Versailles]

Probably. I don't think they believe that I will. Hopefully, it won't be a complete surprise.
But the worst thing about it is that they're probably going to blame me or something. Maybe not. Or maybe they're just gonna have another proof of how weak I was.

Have your loved ones constantly pointed out your weaknesses? in my case it bothers them

 

[Luonis]

I had an attempt already 1 year and 3 months ago, but my family think that this was just a one-time outbreak and that I don't have recurring suicidal thoughts, so I guess it would be a surprise to them.

 

[A_miStake_of_NATURE]

Have your loved ones constantly pointed out your weaknesses? in my case it bothers them

No, thankfully they don't. They're not bad people. Just can't help me I guess

 

[disasterplant]

Yes. I think so.

I was a bit more open with my suicidal thoughts a few years ago with my mother, but she never took them seriously enough because I was a teenager.

When I was 13 and began having more serious suicidal thoughts, I would constantly joke about it with my friends, y'know the typical "I'm gonna kill myself" type of jokes. I think only a few of my friends actually became concerned, but most of them just went along with it.

Now I've hidden everything quite well. I do exhibit symptoms of depression and anxiety that are noticeable to others, but I never express my suicidal plans or thoughts. I've made most people in my life foolishly think that I have my future planned, that I'm gonna move out and go to college, when the truth is the only thing that's certain in the next year or two is the deathbed I've made for myself.

 

[seeker]

I'm not sure. My family will be surprised, probably, since I don't talk to them too much. My friends, I guess they'll be a little surprised, but will forgot it soon later.

 

[END21_22]

50/50
My families completely oblivious to the fact that I've despised my life for years, but at the same time I feel they know the isolated lifestyle I lead can in no way be sustainable, so in the end they'll probably piece it all together.

 

[Lmd]

No, and considering how people treats me I feel bad for tell them.