will you be writing a note when you ctb?

[bound]

what the title says, basically

for me, i don't exactly want to as i have basically nothing to say but also i want to mention not having a funeral/closed casket but only having a demand as my last words seems like an asshole move </3

 

[ilovecats1]

im definitely writing a note to friends and family to make them more comfortable and to assure that there was nothing they could do and not to feel guilty. also i dont think thats an asshole move tbh...

 

[Die.A.Ria]

I will not be writing one to my family because they are abusive and narcissistic but i would write one to whoever finds me or something idk and say the reason why i wanted to ctb or i will just send a scheduled message to my old school because they are a huge part of why i want to ctb its crazy what the teachers there have done to me so i want them to know what they caused i want them to feel guilty

Tbh im still figuring it out

 

[Ben 111]

Couldn't care less

 

[balladeer]

I'd like to think I would if I had access to a good method otherwise it's just very embarrassing and humiliating to think about, wasting so much time and effort for nothing.

 

[Die.A.Ria]

I'd like to think I would if I had access to a good method otherwise it's just very embarrassing and humiliating to think about, wasting so much time and effort for nothing.

Yess this is what i thought about like imagine you have your note just laying there but you survived

 

[Crumblin'Castles]

I will. I'm planning to record a farewell video actually Mainly because I wanna ask for creamation and further scattering my ashes somewhere near beautiful lake in a peaceful place. Yeah, I know I'm too romantic and all soft ass, never mind. Also just briefly explain my decision to those caring.

 

[ScarletTanager]

Was going to, but seeing how no one cares when someone dies after a few weeks, I might not.

 

[Macedonian1987]

I will not write a note, and I will go thru quite a bit of trouble to mask my suicide and make it look as another junkie who died of overdose. I will do this because my parents will suffer less knowing that I died as a drug addict not as a suicide.

Even if i didn't wanted to mask my suicide I would still not write them a note as they are narcissistic , abusive and with multiple mental issues. AHDH, OCD, tourette's syndrome, mysophobia, hyperverbalia.

 

[limenlux]

I won't be leaving a note because there's no one to whom I owe an explanation. They know why. They're shoveling the dirt over me now and I'm not even dead yet.

 

[lightningwallcloud]

Yes, I think I'm decided on leaving a physical note to affected family explaining my reasoning, as well as scheduling an email to send post-CTB of a different note to a specific person who most messed up my life. I'm planning on having a digital copy of the note to family on the notes app on my phone to be found when it is gone through as well, just in case something happens to the physical note that makes it not reach them (I will be going on a trip to CTB in a location not near family members so that they don't discover anything themselves).

 

[YourLocalEdgelord]

I wrote a 3 page letter to my mom answering any questuons she might have and recounting my favorite memories with her. I just hope the cops won't confiscate it. That would break my heart.

 

[darksouls]

people treated me like garbage my entire life,
that vile scum does not deserve a note,
I will say goodbye to sasu,
in real life I will just disappear

 

[Mgelanie]

what the title says, basically

for me, i don't exactly want to as i have basically nothing to say but also i want to mention not having a funeral/closed casket but only having a demand as my last words seems like an asshole move </3

I tried but it made me feel cringey for some reasons

 

[TheEndof]

Probably not. I feel like I should write something, especially to certain people, like my mom. I just don't think it would make that much of a difference.

 

[Blurry_Buildings]

No, just a normal phone call to each of them beforehand. I am afraid they will obsess over the note, and putting the reasons in will make it seem like its their fault, even if it either wasn't to begin with or I already forgave them. I'd like for them to think it was impulsive, and even if I don't explain everything they will have a rough idea for a part of it.

 

[F@#$]

I'm conflicted about that. I want to leave a nasty hurtful letter, but I also don't really give a fuck.Leaving people wondering doesn't bother me either. As long as I'm dead.

 

[1000memoryleaks]

what the title says, basically

for me, i don't exactly want to as i have basically nothing to say but also i want to mention not having a funeral/closed casket but only having a demand as my last words seems like an asshole move </3

i can't imagine that being an asshole move. you're essentially ridding them of any unexpected accountability and expenses. you've done your best in my eyes :)

 

[Lucifer’s Son]

I'm sending a delayed email to my former psychologist (the only MH professional that has ever helped me) and a delayed Twitter post. I won't write one for my dad because there's nothing I can say to make up for him finding my dead body, and he's read previous notes of mine anyway.

 

[Kokonoe]

i won't be writing anything. no one really deserves to know anything, and no one would even really care anyways. and i feel like suicide is something for me, not for others.

 

[decadance]

ill be writing one physical note to my parents and one to my sibling, and then have a scheduled email send to my best friends with a link to their note. i couldn't imagine not leaving everyone a note, id feel terrible

 

[imitoto]

Yes and I plan to call out anyone who has bothered me in life.

 

[sotomie]

Yes. I have written notes for my partner and my sibling. I'm not sure if I wanna leave one for my parents because I resent them so much. Maybe short ones for few of my friends.

 

[BirdWatcher]

I won't write a real "suicide note", because I don't have anything to say to anyone. But I'm working on a little note right now that's basically just a list of people and institutions that need to be informed of my death (banking, insurance, etc.). No idea who will actually call those (the police perhaps?), but I don't want the GEZ to leech off of my money until my account is dry lol.

EDIT: And I'll also send a timed email to the local police, explaining the situation to them and telling them where they can find my body.

 

[DeadManLiving]

Yes.

 

[walsun]

Yes, to remove any doubts or any attempts at interpretation. Already writing the drafts a month or two before ctb-ing.
I don't think I want it to be sort of a vent, I don't think people will understand and I wouldn't be there to see how they care, but oh well.

 

[EmployedHikikomori]

It'll be a short note.

Sorry to all of you. Know it's none of your fault.
I just wasn't strong enough.

And than I'd write it again in the language my parents speak.

 

[suncide10]

yes. when my friend killed himself he didn't leave a note, I'd like to know why he did it. I want people to know why I killed myself. I also have a journal and there's a ton of pages filled with stuff I don't tell to anyone in my life.

 

[ceriseange♡]

I should. There are so many people in my life, both currently and formerly, who deserve closure and acknowledgement. There's so much I would want to say to all of them if I could manage to find the words. The love I have for them, the way they've always been there for me - but at the point I'm at now I'm too tired. I think all I could muster would be an 'I'm sorry' note & one warning not to enter and call emergency services so they don't have to see it (and an apology note to the paramedics, it's not fair to them either)

 

[sacrilegeofsouls]

what the title says, basically

for me, i don't exactly want to as i have basically nothing to say but also i want to mention not having a funeral/closed casket but only having a demand as my last words seems like an asshole move </3

Perhaps so but I won't tell why I did it or anything related to it ill just be throwing curses and list down my favourite animes or games as recommendations. At the end of the day if the people around me were too inept to hear my thoughts when I was alive they don't deserve to read them when I'm dead. It's funny how it takes a person to die for them to be taken seriously sometimes or how even if a person is mediocre or pathetic people praise and treat them like some angelic presence just because they died so imbecilic