I already pre-wrote out a bunch of letters to people, all individually addressed in terms of what I wanted to say to each person.
My parents got one, my ex got another, my good childhood friends all got one (3 in total) and my current g/f got one.
I even wrote out my own obituary too because I wanted it to come from me in my own words and I didn't want any of that generic crap you usually see. It's a mixture of humour, sadness, poetic and apologetic but certainly not boring. I absolutely deserve to have my own life summed up by the only person who could do it justice… me.
I also wrote out my very specific plans for my cremation and how I wanted my ashes to be mixed with my dog's (who passed a few years ago) and exactly where I want us to be spread out. I said no to any type of religious ceremonies or memorials, I really don't want that kind of thing at all. I detailed how I want my possessions to be donated to certain places (clothes) and how I'd want the inheritance I would've eventually gotten (if I had survived both of my parents passing away) to be used (it's going to my ex, who absolutely deserves it).
I found writing out all these things pretty therapeutic and it made my decision easier (in the case if I was ever wavering to actually change my mind about CTB).
In the end, I'd want to tell specific people how I felt so they don't carry about a burden for the rest of their lives thinking they could've done something different to stop me from doing it. Just because my life has been full of sadness and torment, I wouldn't want anyone else to feel the same sadness or pain because I didn't express how I felt to them.
My parents got one, my ex got another, my good childhood friends all got one (3 in total) and my current g/f got one.
I even wrote out my own obituary too because I wanted it to come from me in my own words and I didn't want any of that generic crap you usually see. It's a mixture of humour, sadness, poetic and apologetic but certainly not boring. I absolutely deserve to have my own life summed up by the only person who could do it justice… me.
I also wrote out my very specific plans for my cremation and how I wanted my ashes to be mixed with my dog's (who passed a few years ago) and exactly where I want us to be spread out. I said no to any type of religious ceremonies or memorials, I really don't want that kind of thing at all. I detailed how I want my possessions to be donated to certain places (clothes) and how I'd want the inheritance I would've eventually gotten (if I had survived both of my parents passing away) to be used (it's going to my ex, who absolutely deserves it).
I found writing out all these things pretty therapeutic and it made my decision easier (in the case if I was ever wavering to actually change my mind about CTB).
In the end, I'd want to tell specific people how I felt so they don't carry about a burden for the rest of their lives thinking they could've done something different to stop me from doing it. Just because my life has been full of sadness and torment, I wouldn't want anyone else to feel the same sadness or pain because I didn't express how I felt to them.
