Will people think Im a coward?

[lessthanzero]

Im scared people will remember me as being a coward for choosing to ctb

 

[Gaga786]

My own father said this to me, and I remember a psychiatrist telling me this. Apparently to them: it's the easy way out. I disagree because I wish they could understand how difficult of a decision it is.

 

[jessisme]

It's impossible to know what people will think after you ctb.
Most will probably be overcome with shock, grief and sadness.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

You can always leave a note explaining why you did what you did. If they can't understand it then, that's on them. Let them think what they want.

 

[lessthanzero]

My own father said this to me, and I remember a psychiatrist telling me this. Apparently to them: it's the easy way out. I disagree because I wish they could understand how difficult of a decision it is.

Im so sorry your father said that, my mother said that too and I know older generations think so of it too
It is so hard to ctb, how can someone think its the easy way out?

It's impossible to know what people will think after you ctb.
Most will probably be overcome with shock, grief and sadness.

Do you think they will be mad?

You can always leave a note explaining why you did what you did. If they can't understand it then, that's on them. Let them think what they want.

I just want to feel love and peace

 

[Gaga786]

Im so sorry your father said that, my mother said that too and I know older generations think so of it too
It is so hard to ctb, how can someone think its the easy way out?

Do you think they will be mad?

I just want to feel love and peace

Yeah, they just can't understand.

 

[Death is my goal]

why would you care?

 

[lessthanzero]

Yeah, they just can't understand.

I just really want to experience love

why would you care?

good question, I don't really know
All I've ever done in my life is care about what other people might think

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

Its literally the hardest thing to do because of human nature

 

[Brown-Jacket Revy]

The "coward" thing has become such a cliché.

It's like people use it as an insult that they think will shame you out of suicidal ideation.

A therapist who would co-opt this same term and leverage it against a patient, has no business being a therapist, because it proves they can't empathize.

They can't fathom any reasons why anyone would kill themselves other than "they were too weak to stick around and suffer like the rest of us" when it has nothing to do with being weak or resilient, but using one's freedom of will and choice to leave a life they had no consent in entering in the first place.

 

[SarRy]

It seems that there are people that see taking one's own life as cowardly. It seems that their lack of understanding in life carries over to death.

 

[lessthanzero]

Its literally the hardest thing to do because of human nature

exactly

 

[brokeandbroken]

Im scared people will remember me as being a coward for choosing to ctb

To be honest this is the same people and society to where your situation may be different I concede but likely do nothing to help you. So who cares what they think. Most people just say that because they are scared anyways.

 

[lessthanzero]

To be honest this is the same people and society to where your situation may be different I concede but likely do nothing to help you. So who cares what they think. Most people just say that because they are scared anyways.

people can help all they want but nothing helps, it will always be my mind and me in the end

people can help all they want but nothing helps, it will always be my mind and me in the end

no one can 'save' me

 

[brokeandbroken]

people can help all they want but nothing helps, it will always be my mind and me in the end

I guess I'm not sure what to say. It's obviously heartbreaking you feel that way. Would speak to it being physiological rather then situational... That said I hope you find peace.

 

[lessthanzero]

I guess I'm not sure what to say. It's obviously heartbreaking you feel that way. Would speak to it being physiological rather then situational... That said I hope you find peace.

thank you <3

I guess I'm not sure what to say. It's obviously heartbreaking you feel that way. Would speak to it being physiological rather then situational... That said I hope you find peace.

I've always had mental issues, but the last drop is when I lost everything

 

[brokeandbroken]

thank you <3

I've always had mental issues, but the last drop is when I lost everything

Anytime. I know what that is like to lose everything it's horrendous.

 

[saddestbunny]

maybe they might but it won't matter after your universe ends

I don't think others can properly understand suffering, most humans just aren't aware enough

 

[Amidaa]

Some will some might not it doesn't matter anyways, after all it is still your feeling. most people just say that because they can't accept or deny that you want to choose this path to find peace or want to get rid of this suffering.

 

[lessthanzero]

Anytime. I know what that is like to lose everything it's horrendous.

hugs to you
Do you think that the people that hurt you will be aware that they hurt you?

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Some will. The current thinking in fashion nowadays is to consider the suicidee as having essentially been out of their mind. Which absolves them to a degree of the traditional stigmata of cowardice and selfishness, but probably isn't necessarily how you want to be remembered as either.

I know I'll be viewed with a lot of pity and scorn. But hey, that's nothing different than life. But at least I won't have to be affected by it then.

 

[CW36]

The genuine will be sad and sorry.
The cold ones will call people cowards.

 

[Holu]

Maybe, but maybe not. In truth, it really won't matter as inevitably those who remember you will pass on. As such, it ultimately becomes meaningless whether you're held as a coward or not. If it means finding peace from your suffering, and you believe you cannot continue on, then do what you can to calm and accept yourself, as to not allow the fear of your reputation post death perpetuate your misery.

 

[lessthanzero]

Maybe, but maybe not. In truth, it really won't matter as inevitably those who remember you will pass on. As such, it ultimately becomes meaningless whether you're held as a coward or not. If it means finding peace from your suffering, and you believe you cannot continue on, then do what you can to calm and accept yourself, as to not allow the fear of your reputation post death perpetuate your misery.

thank you, my reputation is already ruined so it actually doesn't matter
But I really don't want people to use my death as an excuse for their pity party, people that I hardly knew to be sad about me or my ex boyfriend telling everyone I was crazy anyway, that makes me mad

 

[Holu]

thank you, my reputation is already ruined so it actually doesn't matter
But I really don't want people to use my death as an excuse for their pity party, people that I hardly knew to be sad about me or my ex boyfriend telling everyone I was crazy anyway, that makes me mad

Humans are horrible, horrible, creatures, and in this age, people who really don't care will absolutely use your death for pity or clout. But, regardless of what you do they would do it anyways.

Aside from SaSu I scarcely talk about either of my dead friend. I msg them occasionally, and think about them, but I honestly would feel like shit using them for pity or clout.

I don't know your situation, but it's possible there is someone like this in your life, and you should do your best to only think about and care about what they will say to you.

I'm sorry for how you're feeling. Suicide is definitely a big decision lmao, so don't beat yourself too much over the guilt and bitterness of being perceived as cowardly. You have suffered enough.

 

[lessthanzero]

Humans are horrible, horrible, creatures, and in this age, people who really don't care will absolutely use your death for pity or clout. But, regardless of what you do they would do it anyways.

Aside from SaSu I scarcely talk about either of my dead friend. I msg them occasionally, and think about them, but I honestly would feel like shit using them for pity or clout.

I don't know your situation, but it's possible there is someone like this in your life, and you should do your best to only think about and care about what they will say to you.

I'm sorry for how you're feeling. Suicide is definitely a big decision lmao, so don't beat yourself too much over the guilt and bitterness of being perceived as cowardly. You have suffered enough.

thank you so much, should I leave it in my note to not use me for clout?haha

 

[Holu]

thank you so much, should I leave it in my note to not use me for clout?haha

Personally I'm a no note kinda guy, but if you're leaving one then absolutely. Won't stop people tbh, especially an ex who might already hold you in negative disregard. Might bite at their conscience a bit tho lmao

 

[bruin20]

Even if they did they'd be wrong. For them to think that shows that they dont understand what its like, to not only feel the way we do but to also try to go through with CTB

 

[lessthanzero]

Personally I'm a no note kinda guy, but if you're leaving one then absolutely. Won't stop people tbh, especially an ex who might already hold you in negative disregard. Might bite at their conscience a bit tho lmao

what do you mean?
Im not going to write that he was one of the reasons (although he is)
It just makes me so mad to think about all the people that will use my death as something to talk about when no one is here for me now

 

[Holu]

what do you mean?
Im not going to write that he was one of the reasons (although he is)
It just makes me so mad to think about all the people that will use my death as something to talk about when no one is here for me now

Writing a note which says something along the lines of, "please don't use my death for social points" isn't actually gonna stop someone who either doesn't really care about you, or is narcissistic in nature from using your death. People simply suck.