Venting Why me…

[s3xygirlnae18]

I sometimes wonder what did I do to anyone to deserve the things I got in life and ask why am I being treated this way. No one appreciates me and honestly I look back and think maybe I deserved this. And that maybe I deserved the things I went through and that maybe I should ctb because I have nothing to live for nobody has loved me ever and just manipulated me and took advantage of me and used me for my body and groomed me when I was younger and more. The more I wake up everyday the more I start to think nothing is real anymore. All of this feels like a simulation or a movie. It's like I'm watching my life events go down in a story. My life is deadass a lifetime movie. I always wished to stop breathing at night and peacefully leave the world but I don't know what method to try but when guys reject me or something like that or they hurt me it makes me go numb and be fucked by multiple guys until the feeling goes away or be a pornstar or stripper or something idk I'm just not okay at all rn and I need some advice or something.

 

[ikadasui]

Don't have anything to say really other than I'm sorry things are this bad. I feel like mental static today and can't even bring myself to reply to friends at the moment as that would require mental investment which just isn't possible

 

[vulkann]

im so sorry you are dealing with all of this, people can be extremely selfish and cruel. I would recommend trying not to base your self worth on how others perceive or treat you. I'm sure you will find someone that truly loves you and treats you well in the future :)

 

[Ampsvx123]

Life is brief and all live their life in haste. Stop expecting anything from anyone, all are overwhelmed, tired., yearn to rest. Slow and steady wins the race, thus, do all by yourself, and in a brief of a blink, the sun too, will grow tired of rising.