Discussion Why do you still live?

[Ch92921]

Because theres is (irrational) hope.

 

[In2TheVoid]

I owe it to those close to me to try deep brain stimulation, everything else hasn't worked. I don't know how long I can stay alive though, the Nembutal in my fridge is really tempting. Every day I think about renting a hotel room and ending it.

I'm in same boat, I don't think anything will help because my depression is specific to a traumatic event...

I don't want to hurt my family but I'm in so much pain

 

[motel rooms]

Because of porn

 

[Wakawaka]

guess im just bad at killing myself

 

[FuneralCry]

I live as in I am conscious and breathing, but I do not live anything resembling a life. I know that death is the right answer for me, the only way to make peace with myself but I fear most CTB methods and I am denied an peaceful exit.

 

[newave3]

Because I can't get pentobarbital.

 

[S like Siren]

Because my suicide attemps failed

 

[verloren]

I cant hang myself, because I have not found the right part of my neck to put the rope at to get unconscious while hanging

 

[Bitterman1996]

It sounds disastrous when I say it like this, but I genuinely want to know.

For me, I just hope to start a new life after college. Start fresh, that's what people say. I don't have a family or anything even remotely close to relationship and I never had. I was never loved as a child. I want to change my name and never speak to anyone from my life ever again.

I just want to find out how love feels like. I was wondering how wonderful it must be to sleep with someone's arms around you or just simply holding hands with another human?

OP I feel you on that last part...

I dropped out of college after stupidly wasting my youth on it for 6 years.. Honestly I think I might have unmanaged adhd, but other than that I'm still alive probably because I'm still trying to make it. If I could earn enough by drawing I think I would be happy enough to stay alive.

Also too scared/not prepared to kill myself now.

 

[Roberto]

It sounds disastrous when I say it like this, but I genuinely want to know.

For me, I just hope to start a new life after college. Start fresh, that's what people say. I don't have a family or anything even remotely close to relationship and I never had. I was never loved as a child. I want to change my name and never speak to anyone from my life ever again.

I just want to find out how love feels like. I was wondering how wonderful it must be to sleep with someone's arms around you or just simply holding hands with another human?

The help of the public health service, my cats and because the government helps me paying the mortgage, food, and the basics to survive.

 

[MyOwnWorstEnemy]

I have a good job. It pays extremely well. I have my own apartment. I have friends. I still have family. And I guess I still have stuff I like doing.

Yet neither of these things are why I'm still alive.

The only reason I'm still alive is because suicide is a really hard thing to pull off. And even the "best methods" have some form of risk to them.

If any of us here could just swallow a pill and die peacefully, I think a lot of people wouldn't be here anymore.

This, except the pays extremely well part

 

[lonerclown666]

For nothing everyday is worse for me

 

[nakoy3]

Because I'm too scared to ctb

 

[Luna88]

Because the instinct for self-preservation is a huge asshole

 

[ConfusedAndWeird]

Well I think this guy says why I'm alive in the best way.

 

[nopointofliving]

I'm waiting to find a painless and accessible method .. thats it

 

[gu1klh]

i got a boyfriend and i cant kill myself because he would kill himself too and that scares me. and i have strict parents so its kinda hard to find a method that i can do without my parents finding out.