Discussion Why do you frequent Sasu?

[Idealrope]

I made a really good friend here, so I always log in and I check my inbox.

Also I frequent the threads of my chosen method.

And.. I have a bad habit of getting attached to everything, so I'm here at least once a day.

I don't want to sound weird (I'm not a stalker either lol), but I like reading some users' posts, I have learned a lot here.

so true-no better place to learn than here

 

[Sad_Autistic_boy_101]

My reasons for using this site has changed over time. I actually accidentally discovered this site in answer of my father figures suicide. I have always been suicidal myself and he unfortunately saved me a few times. I use this site to be able to hopefully one day be successful in CTB whenever that will be but there has been times where I've used the recovery part of the site with the intention of getting better. Then I just realised that it's never going to so I come back here to get information and more ideas.

 

[kvorumese]

I have no other place where I could talk unfilteredly without my actual feelings. And this forum helps me amplify them, which is what I want, because I find comfort in my ideation.

 

[Anonymousa]

This place feels like the only place I feel like I am not a complete burden on others for venting and having mental problems as well as that I feel like I am of use here with being able to comfort others or maybe give advice with whatever they are wanting and with my responsibilities as a mod.

 

[Pale_Rider]

View attachment 173713Damn you all have really poetic motives. I just like to make shitty drawings under posts about suicide. It keeps my sanity, having a place not to worry about people getting too concerned for my well being. I can be as edgy as I like and also fuck up my sleep schedule because sasu just his different at 3:30 am with the lights off.

Pictures, and poetry. Both art.

 

[SilentSadness]

I visit this website as a safe space when I am uncomfortable or upset, since no one else would want to listen to my emotions I can at least put them here. Even though my life often changes (for the worse) this website pretty much stays the same which means I can keep using it as a safe space even when outside.

 

[Broken@25]

This is gonna sound kinda lame but I come on here to feel like I belong to something.

I don't think that's a bad thing, this is like the only place we can be honest without being ostracized or lied too. It's lame that we can't belong until we produce tools & communities ike sasu.

 

[SchizoPolyGymnast]

I came here initially because I was living in my car and I wanted to speak my mind without 911 being called. These days I'm just a sucker for the taboo. Also, I hate reddit.

 

[orpheus_]

I originally came here to find CTB methods. Found it through searching up stuff about partial hanging on google. I spent a lot of time here, mostly because I didn't have anything to do besides sleeping and reading stuff about ctb methods. Ir was my way to pass the time as death was my only hope in that boring af numb life.

Then I decided to at least try to recover since I regained any ability to feel good. I still consider CTB and come here to research methods sometimes but I mostly spend time in recovery section. This place is actually one of the most helpful recovery online spaces I've been to, like you can talk about stuff here freely and without censorship. Also it has really good recovery resources. People here understand that the answer for everything is not just "go to therapy" or "trust your psychiatrist". Like.the recovery advice I found here is actually helpful.

I also come here in hopes of comforting some people in their pain. I know I can't do much with my words, but maybe sometimes there's a chance? Maybe my advice/suggestions may help someone. Or at least they can feel less alone. Idk also just reading stories of people here, whether those who want to die or recover, I feel like it gives me a better understanding of people in general. I want to understand others' suffering.

 

[waistcoat]

xenforo webforums were my childhood, they helped me through some very tough times, it's cozy, and i can be honest here.

 

[INYGTRMTFMO]

The people around me, thankfully for their own sake, don't understand. A lot of the other support-group-esque places that I venture on the internet either don't allow discussions of suicidality at all or heavily censor it. And it's comforting to know that I'm not alone in having these thoughts and feelings (and that other people do sometimes survive lifelong suicidality), even though I don't wish these thoughts and feelings on anyone.

 

[BlockHammer]

At first, This site is a assurances for me it provide an suicide methode that i can used if my life has turn into pile of dogshit (rirght now my life is a mess but i still want to make it better), then when i saw people who had the same strugle as i do, i felt relief cause i found like minded group of people

I'm not often participate/comment at someone else post cause i still want to fight for my life but if things go bad, i can just turn to suicide

 

[sweetcreep]

it's been so nice reading everyone's reasons, especially because i relate to so many of them. i think most of us feel very isolated in our lives and our struggles, like we have no people to connect to or a community to fall back on. i myself feel forgotten and brushed aside, and during those rare times where i'm trying to be open i'm dismissed or lectured. for many of us this place started off as a resource for methods, but it's become more of a safe space for us to share everything that would push people away. no one is telling anyone that they have it worse or to get a hobby or to touch grass. i wouldn't call this place my community, but it's where i feel safe when expressing myself.

 

[Merocero]

I can feel like i belong here, seeing people with similar struggles and issues, i dont feel like im weird when im here

 

[JimBobX]

I'm so grateful to be able to share and be heard here. I'm not alone here. There's many of us that very very reasonably would happily pass on.

I'm very much transitioning from passive suicide to active. Passive suicide for me is, and for the last 10 years, having opted out of life. But the demons stay. They are here. They come from emotional narc family scapegoating. It's my mind. I'm ready. I pray many many times to have a heart attack in my sleep.

 

[milkcarton]

I found the forum when searching for methods, but stayed because it was the only place I could discuss my thoughts on suicide and how I was feeling freely without judgement. I felt that people understood me. I speak in past tense as I do not really come here often anymore as I am in a different place right now.

 

[thepiecessatup]

It's a GENUINE support forum, not just full of meaningless platitudes like most of them.

Exactly!

 

[letmeoff]

Because the people who know me in real life would bludgeon me with platitudes, scripture, theological arguments and say I'm destined for damnation and hellfire.

Else, they'd pathologize my misery and call it "a chemical imbalance" without taking trauma or structural factors into account.

I have an ACE score of 9. I'm 42.

I don't want to hear "it gets better" and that I need "to look on the bright side".

 

[spoiledberry]

I'm often ignored or talked over or belittled in off and online spaces. I feel crazy when trying to express my feelings to family members, and even though i have friends who will listen, i feel bad venting to them since im constantly in a state of despair, and its not fair to them. Sasu is nice because it feels like everyone is on the same page of just wanting to be heard and understood. i see myself in a lot of these responses. i dont have to pretend to be okay here. ily sasu community<3

 

[troubledM]

i've never been understood by anyone in this lifetime.. i dont say much on here either but just reading threads and knowing other people out there feel like me too is comforting

 

[purplesky9]

Looking fora method and advice.

 

[TwoQuarks]

because I belong here

 

[dinahdinah]

I want to cease to exist but i'm too scared to CTB. Being here and fantasizing about it until i gather up the courage gives me a little bit of comfort.

 

[CicisDoingUnwell]

☆ ──꒰ ✉ (𝑪 𝒊𝒔 𝒕𝒚𝒑𝒊𝒏𝒈...)

First - I've been a quiet/anonymous SaSu Reader for Almost 2 years without signing in (for personal and safety reasons) and its crazy to see how many people are actually here. :0

I am often here because it eases my mind. I dont feel alone anymore. I have NO ONE irl who shares the same stuff as I do, makes it incredibly hard to talk about/to be understood. I feel… everyone just understands someone in some way.

Also some Taboos are being broken - makes it much easier to reflect and understand whats happening in someones own life. :)

☆ ── 𝑩𝒚𝒆; 𝑪! ꒱

 

[Lost Dreamer]

Because of the kind of understanding you will not find anywhere else.

 

[nakagawadestroy]

It gives me hope towards dying and that feels nice, hopefully this monday is the day!! from the bottom of my heart I thank everyone here that makes people like me feel full of hope because we will finally rest ^_^ I hope this sounded okay, my first language isnt english! ​

 

[fedup1982]

I've been lurking for a long time and finally felt like I could be myself here. When I saw posts saying that it's not Pro death I felt more comfortable integrating myself here. Lots of familiar stories, viewpoints, arguments, fears, desires...

 

[sy46]

For the first time I felt accepted by someone, it's good being here with people that have the same feelings as you and that can trluy understand you without judging or hurting you..so I'm glad that I discovered sasu! at the beginning I was so shy and just read others' threads, but the last year I chose to create an account, I did the right thing, I think.

 

[BigBang1]

I'll take your word, and ask you. Whats from your experience the best way to ctb? and why did you fail? cant see your profile

 

[fatty44]

It's comforting to be able to be so honest here. Although my ideations grow stronger with how much I use this site, unfortunately.