Discussion People living with parents and planning to CTB, where do you plan to do it?

[Pulse9477]

Hello, SaSu.

The title says it all. I am worried about my body being found and it being traumatic.
-Pulse9477

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Hello, SaSu.


The title says it all. I am worried about my body being found and it being traumatic.

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[Set Real Goul]

I have a few suitable trees and abandoned buildings where i could do FSH, but I'm not completely sure

 

[here_for_now]

Motel or hotel

 

[Exhausted546]

Now I'm feeling guilt again for planning to do it at the house. I've looked for trees and woods around for quite some time, I couldn't find shit and ultimately gave up yesterday.

Maybe I just have to try harder and see if there's abandoned buildings around my area

 

[Lucifer’s Son]

At home. I love my dad, but he already knows I'm chronically suicidal and that I have multiple attempts. And hearing the news will be traumatic anyway, no matter where I do it.

 

[Pulse9477]

I have been thinking that my death shouldn't be received as "news," or by the paramedics arriving while my parents think everything is fine.
I also want to seem "peaceful" when found, and that extends to the environment in which I am going to be found.

I was thinking of my garden, though the risk of being found before I am actually gone is decently high, as it is in a fairly visible location.
I think that I would prepare to CTB around sunrise, as my parents would be asleep. That being said, it would force them to wake up to my death, though I am not sure if that's the best time of day to be found.

I also need to consider the "day before" scenario, and how I want to leave everything. I don't have as many issues with my parents as some do, and I want to leave things on a good note. I have a general idea of how I want to spend it, though I need to work some things out.
-Pulse9477

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I have been thinking that my death shouldn't be received as "news," or by the paramedics arriving while my parents think everything is fine.
I also want to seem "peaceful" when found, and that extends to the environment in which I am going to be found.


I was thinking of my garden, though the risk of being found before I am actually gone is decently high, as it is in a fairly visible location.

I think that I would prepare to CTB around sunrise, as my parents would be asleep. That being said, it would force them to wake up to my death, though I am not sure if that's the best time of day to be found.


I also need to consider the "day before" scenario, and how I want to leave everything. I don't have as many issues with my parents as some do, and I want to leave things on a good note. I have a general idea of how I want to spend it, though I need to work some things out.
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[TAW122]

I don't have the best relations with my family, though I would still try to find a suitable location, maybe remote place further away. However, I would not risk operational jeopardy if it comes to compromising my CTB plan and/or attempts, and if desperate enough I'll just do what I can to minimize the fallout, but not at the cost suffering greatly and ending up risking failure (which also makes things much worse for me).

 

[chuuni]

I feel like it will be traumatic no matter what, even if your parents are not the ones finding your body, they would probably feel guilty for not being there to stop you, even if your body is never found they would look for you probably forever.
You have to come in terms that you are going to hurt them no matter what.

 

[aspenjrojas]

In my neighborhood there is a lake with a large deep forest behind it and thats one of my favorite places, so I was thinking to watch the sunset there and just stay for half of the night until I'm ready, then go deep into the forest and hang on a tree. I'm worried if one of my neighbors come, but I'm not sure how likely that is. But also my parents may not know where I am and it'll take longer to find me, which may make it more traumatic, but I don't know if I care. They've hurt me my whole life so I don't care if I make them suffer, I care more about my friends. I don't really know what other locations there are other than my house. Everywhere else I know is quite 'commercial' or not good for suicide. The only other option is running away, like getting a train or something to a certain location, I'm just worried they'll notice I'm missing before then, so I'd have to leave my phone and all devices at home and probably do it in the middle of the night.