How to stay motivated when you plan on CTB soon?

[TimeTraveling4]

I already have SN and propranolol all I need to do is get a Metoclopramide and I'll be set to CTB. I don't plan on using benzos, I have Hydroxyzine available for use instead. I plan on CTB asap but I don't have a specific date for my first and hopefully last ever attempt.

It's nearing September and my college classes are beginning this coming Monday. For people with prior or upcoming CTB dates, how do you stay motivated to do anything? I honestly don't feel like going to my classes because I've given up on life and am just waiting for the medication to arrive so I can take my life.

In the meantime it's not like I can just stop living. My parents would get worried.

 

[Sicherung231]

Best advice is to delude yourself that it's like the last month or week of school right before vacation, just gotta push that little bit as the "vacation" is right around the corner

Tbf I feel moderately lucky as I'm a freelancer and I can do my CTB schedule however the fuck I want lol

 

[TimeTraveling4]

Best advice is to delude yourself that it's like the last month or week of school right before vacation, just gotta push that little bit as the "vacation" is right around the corner

Tbf I feel moderately lucky as I'm a freelancer and I can do my CTB schedule however the fuck I want lol

That's interesting advice, thank you! I honestly just wanted to rot away while waiting but that would raise red flags.

 

[valar_morghulis21]

Enjoy those class like your last day on Earth. I'm sure the afterlife won't have stupid ass college classes no more so just take in everything while you can, good and bad