why do so many of you hate yourself. for me the problem is the exact opposite. i like myself but i hate this world

[Friend_A]

i deserve better than what this world is giving me. i dont deserve to be abused, mistreated, looked down upon, etc when all i have ever wanted and asked for is to give love and be loved. therefore i dont hate myself. i hate this world and the pain the diseases and the suffering that plague the many lives in this world.

so why do u all hate urself. you all deserve better than what this world gives yall

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Because I was born the wrong sex at birth.

 

[Suicidebydeath]

I hate being broken and my family/etc made me always feel bad so it would be a predeposition but I don't really hate myself at all ~ that would just be a mistaken presumption people make. There's been times I hated myself but its because I was already in stressful situations, and I've only relatively recently got on mirtazapine meds.

 

[Lone_Traveler90]

I hate myself cause the world was actually always good to me but I always found a way to absolutely destroy anything good happening to me.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I don't hate myself exactly but my mind is defective. I can't think clearly and have no energy. I just want to sleep. Without antidepressants, I have no desire to do anything. I don't know why I'm like this exactly – I think it had to do with neglect during infancy. I think as a baby, I was overwhelmed with fear, and never soothed. My fight or flight kicked in to overdrive and fried my brain. I don't have enough money to survive indefinitely. So now I just try to keep my expenses to a bare minimum. I am by far the biggest failure of anybody I know.

 

[Inferno]

I don't necessarily hate myself, I hate the person I've become. I'm not the same person I used to be, I miss my old self.

 

[AnonymousS]

i deserve better than what this world is giving me. i dont deserve to be abused, mistreated, looked down upon, etc when all i have ever wanted and asked for is to give love and be loved. therefore i dont hate myself. i hate this world and the pain the diseases and the suffering that plague the many lives in this world.

so why do u all hate urself. you all deserve better than what this world gives yall

I swing back and forth, at times i have self-loathing due to low self esteem. Deep down i like myself though, i just have had enough of suffering. Like yourself just think this world is getting worse, i just have had too much stress, chaos, and illness.

 

[botanormal]

I'm really glad that you don't hate yourself! I think most people here do not deserve that feeling, even if so many people feel it.
For me personally, I hate that everything I am reminds me of the people who abused me. Even just similar traits to those people make me feel sick, even when it isn't necessarily even a bad trait. I just can't help but be disgusted in myself I guess!

 

[Forever Sleep]

I don't absolutely hate myself. I'm really disappointed in myself though. I know I ought to try harder to overcome my various issues- social anxiety, self doubt. I think I'm probably too forgiving of myself in a way. I feel like there are reasons why I've turned out like I have- which weren't all my fault. Still, I know other people have issues too- which they work at overcoming. I guess I do feel bad about being lazy.

 

[eternapeace]

i deserve better than what this world is giving me. i dont deserve to be abused, mistreated, looked down upon, etc when all i have ever wanted and asked for is to give love and be loved. therefore i dont hate myself. i hate this world and the pain the diseases and the suffering that plague the many lives in this world.

so why do u all hate urself. you all deserve better than what this world gives yall

I'm fairly average in most ways. Which is not terrible on its own/in a vacuum.
Problem is that I believe not being special (in talents nor in character) is why I had been invisible to someone I valued for a very long time, and at this point in life I have no chance of ever being good enough. And that feeling of invisibility just straight up kills.
I've also just never been an asset to the people I care about in the way I should have. Been a terrible son, brother, and friend.

But I'm not just considering ctb because of self-hate, but also because of hate towards the world/state of the world, hate of human behaviors, bitterness towards God (who I had grown up to believe in).

 

[SamTam33]

I'd probably turn it around and ask you why I should love myself. That list would be way shorter.

Lives and bodies and brains that we didn't choose and can't change... And we should love them.

How? Why?

 

[lionetta12]

i deserve better than what this world is giving me. i dont deserve to be abused, mistreated, looked down upon, etc when all i have ever wanted and asked for is to give love and be loved. therefore i dont hate myself. i hate this world and the pain the diseases and the suffering that plague the many lives in this world.

so why do u all hate urself. you all deserve better than what this world gives yall

I like myself as a person as well, I just think most people and this world is not for me. It never will be, I dislike it so strongly.

 

[Friend_A]

i feel so much for you all i am crying. i am so sorry that you are in so much pain. i really wish everyone to not be in pain it really sucks and hurts a lot to know so many of you out there are suffering

 

[asterisk3]

i deserve better than what this world is giving me. i dont deserve to be abused, mistreated, looked down upon, etc when all i have ever wanted and asked for is to give love and be loved. therefore i dont hate myself. i hate this world and the pain the diseases and the suffering that plague the many lives in this world.

so why do u all hate urself. you all deserve better than what this world gives yall

The world is more pain than it is love, objectively speaking. Human pain, animal pain... just "pain" is simply an evolutionary strategy for "safety".
I'm saying this not because I don't agree with you (I do), but I ask myself if it isn't us that are in the wrong for not being more.... resilient? Strong? I don't even know.

Maybe violent? I don't know what it is this world asks of or needs of us nowadays. Maybe it's just "intellect" to earn more money and absolute pristine self-regulation of our instincts and emotions not to fall ill. But if that's true, then I have certainly failed. And so have my parents (not like they cared).

I would hate myself less I think if I could be more "normal", but I was never that, and I don't like being ostracized. Lately I've been trying to cope with it and accept it... Maybe with that problems I have with myself such as my appearance and neediness will go away. Or not, and I'll die because I find little to no joy in being here.

 

[nozomu]

i deserve better than what this world is giving me. i dont deserve to be abused, mistreated, looked down upon, etc when all i have ever wanted and asked for is to give love and be loved. therefore i dont hate myself. i hate this world and the pain the diseases and the suffering that plague the many lives in this world.

so why do u all hate urself. you all deserve better than what this world gives yall

This is how I feel too! I am a wonderful person who receives nothing but garbage from the world. I shouldn't have to live like this

 

[BBBB]

I don't hate myself. I think I'm a kind, caring, good person but I have no family or friends and no one who cares about me. It's debilitatingly lonely; not one person would really care if I was gone so why stay.

This is how I feel too! I am a wonderful person who receives nothing but garbage from the world. I shouldn't have to live like this

Yes!!!!!

 

[Sadgirldaisy]

I just think I'm a relatively useless person. I don't care about myself or anyone else. I give so little back to this world and feel like I'm kind of just taking up space. I'm dull and brainless and boring. I have no real purpose for being here other than to waste resources.

 

[jessisme]

I love myself intrinsically as a person. I hate the way that I struggle with the world and my likely future life. That is what I desire to ctb for. Not for hatred of self.

 

[BBBB]

I just think I'm a relatively useless person. I don't care about myself or anyone else. I give so little back to this world and feel like I'm kind of just taking up space. I'm dull and brainless and boring. I have no real purpose for being here other than to waste resources.

Ditto on feeling like you're just taking up space, wasting resources and no real purpose!!

 

[another@]

The problem in my opinion, is that guilt is supposed to serve a purpose. When we feel pain within the bounds of a normal and healthy human tribe / habitus we naturally look to diagnose and resolve the issue. However when these issues are caused by an abuser (many of us have been abused our entire lives !) A trauma bond is developed. Please read more about trauma bonds and the cycle of abuse if you wish to proceed constructively in this conversation. Simply being surprised about any of this won't solve anything, only action (i.e. assisted CTB or better life quality) will help.

 

[FuneralCry]

I don't really hate myself at all really, I don't really have strong feelings towards myself, I just see myself as someone who was so unfairly forced into this hellish world, why would I hate myself as I'm not responsible for any of this, I had no say in being brought here. I very strongly despise existing and I hate feeling so trapped here in this world that is filled with endless torture. Of course life itself really is the true problem as it's the source of all suffering and it's a tragedy how life was even able to evolve in the first place.

 

[Rainy_days]

Because I see a selfish, ungrateful, cowardly monster when I look within. I wasn't always this way so I didn't used to hate myself. I've not been as abused and mistreated as most of the people here so it's harder for me to blame the world.

 

[LadyApple]

i deserve better than what this world is giving me. i dont deserve to be abused, mistreated, looked down upon, etc when all i have ever wanted and asked for is to give love and be loved. therefore i dont hate myself. i hate this world and the pain the diseases and the suffering that plague the many lives in this world.

so why do u all hate urself. you all deserve better than what this world gives yall

omg I feel the same way! Finally! I love myself and I think I'm awesome. I fought so much to be where I am today but this world is just a shithole it's never ending. I love, I give, I work hard in school, work, relationships, but life's a bitch and it will find a way to get you. Fuck this world I'm out. This world doesn't deserve me. I'm CTB out of self love.

 

[FrozenMango]

I don't hate myself at all. I just dislike most people and life itself. I like animals and plants though

 

[Wannagonow]

I don't hate myself. Actually I don't even like the word "hate". One of the few good things my mom shared with me was not to use that word. I dislike things that have happened to me throughout most of my life. I'm frustrated with the bio-chemical crap that has left me with a myriad of mental health issues I can't control. I have wicked low self-esteem. But I don't hate myself.

 

[rifle]

I have many reasons to hate myself, but one of them is that I had everything I needed to do well. yeah, the world is terrible, but I was privileged enough to not even know that for a very long time. it's one thing to be born on the losing side, it's another when you have all the opportunities given to you on a silver platter and you fail. can I really blame the world for my misery when I am myself equally inadequate?

 

[Krieger]

I feel the same. I don't hate myself at all, well I hate how I look because I have body dysmorphia and I hate the fact that I have OCD but that's all. I really just don't like my country, the area I live, my day-to-day life, and the people around me.

 

[Sadgirldaisy]

I have many reasons to hate myself, but one of them is that I had everything I needed to do well. yeah, the world is terrible, but I was privileged enough to not even know that for a very long time. it's one thing to be born on the losing side, it's another when you have all the opportunities given to you on a silver platter and you fail. can I really blame the world for my misery when I am myself equally inadequate?

I completely understand this. I was given so many opportunities to do better for myself, but I feel like I've just squandered them all. I'm just too mediocre a person to make use of the opportunities I've been given.

 

[NotHuman]

It's like trying to function in a world of clockwork precision while drunk; everyone follows the meticulous design except those so deficient that they only can stumble about and cause disruption. You feel guilty to detract from the pristine order of things, but you have no choice because your brain is "special" or "neurodivergent" or just "works differently". Everyone else's hardware sends the correct signals while yours generates pure gibberish that others then have to take time and energy out of their day to parse. You realize the correct things to say and do, but your actual behavior is so far removed from what is correct that you have to constantly police yourself to ensure you aren't making 2+2=3 levels of mistakes.

It would be very difficult to try and convince myself that it's everybody else who is wrong when their functioning produces desirable results while mine just puts me deeper in the same hole.

 

[theboy]

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