hoppybunny
Fearer of the Future
- Jun 26, 2024
- 303
I've noticed everytime I read self help resources or anti suicide resources they always make the assumption suicide comes from a place of worthlessness.
Like "omg I'm trash and i deserve to die" when for me, while i do hate myself my reason for wanting to commit suicide is because i simply don't find value in the world and believe as a human being, with all the current technology we have, i should be living a better life.
Like i believe in the innate worth of all life and believe that society right now treats all humans as less than they deserve. And that's why i want to die.
When i had my first therapist she would make me do affirmations and such but they don't work cause at the end of the day my suicide is because of external factors. No amount of self talk or self love will get me a job or independence.
So it's just so annoying whenever i open up or try to get help and all i hear is "just know you're loved"
Like omg that's nice and all but I'm still unemployed. I have a very loving family. Even my parents that are terrible and the cause of most of my sadness are still good abd responsible parents for the most part and are just verbally and emotionally abusive on occasion. So like i definitely am not lacking in love and self worth.
I just don't like being alive.
Like "omg I'm trash and i deserve to die" when for me, while i do hate myself my reason for wanting to commit suicide is because i simply don't find value in the world and believe as a human being, with all the current technology we have, i should be living a better life.
Like i believe in the innate worth of all life and believe that society right now treats all humans as less than they deserve. And that's why i want to die.
When i had my first therapist she would make me do affirmations and such but they don't work cause at the end of the day my suicide is because of external factors. No amount of self talk or self love will get me a job or independence.
So it's just so annoying whenever i open up or try to get help and all i hear is "just know you're loved"
Like omg that's nice and all but I'm still unemployed. I have a very loving family. Even my parents that are terrible and the cause of most of my sadness are still good abd responsible parents for the most part and are just verbally and emotionally abusive on occasion. So like i definitely am not lacking in love and self worth.
I just don't like being alive.