liber4animavestra
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- Aug 21, 2025
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I like hurting myself. I think my bruises and scars are pretty when they're fresh and they hurt. I feel sick but I feel so pretty. I take pictures of me bleeding or with my bruises and post them online on chat forums and sites and blogs and imagine someone getting off to my hurt. I feel pretty and desirable when I show how badly I want to end it.
For a long time at one point I found it physically impossible to cry. Now I've learned to do it and I love crying. I cry and cry and cry until I touch myself and cry until I cum just so I can cry some more. I feel the prettiest when I cry.
It's my secret. That I like my pain and I think my pain makes me pretty. I feel like an angel with broken wings. I feel dumb and lost and I wait for someone to take advantage of me so I can show how sick I am and be thrown away and used again and again and again. I like being a bait. I like that I'm never good enough. Or not. I don't like it. But I like it when I'm hit and punched and insulted and assaulted for it.
Why? Why do I romanticize it? In the end, I've understood that it is harmful to me and I am hurting. So why? Why have I almost made it into a dumb aesthetic? Please let me hear your experiences. I really need to know how others have coped with this.
For a long time at one point I found it physically impossible to cry. Now I've learned to do it and I love crying. I cry and cry and cry until I touch myself and cry until I cum just so I can cry some more. I feel the prettiest when I cry.
It's my secret. That I like my pain and I think my pain makes me pretty. I feel like an angel with broken wings. I feel dumb and lost and I wait for someone to take advantage of me so I can show how sick I am and be thrown away and used again and again and again. I like being a bait. I like that I'm never good enough. Or not. I don't like it. But I like it when I'm hit and punched and insulted and assaulted for it.
Why? Why do I romanticize it? In the end, I've understood that it is harmful to me and I am hurting. So why? Why have I almost made it into a dumb aesthetic? Please let me hear your experiences. I really need to know how others have coped with this.
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