Why did you survive your attempt?

[jorheslen428]

Just read a post asking how many times people have failed attempts and I'm genuinely shocked by the high numbers some people listed.

How could you survive an attempt so many times unless you didn't properly research, SI kicked in, or you were found before completion?

Personally I'm planning to use the DDMAPH protocol and making sure to test everything to so that everything goes according to plan. I don't really see how failure could happen using this method unless by some extremely small chance my body survives.

 

[endofafoxtwo]

I was using a knife on my arm and was too emotionally and mentally distressed to remember how to cut prooerly. And my knife was dull. These two things made me very angry so I redirected my violence towards the envitonment and went feral on the walls with my knife. You should have seen it lmaoooo

 

[kaixxnai]

I was young, I didn't think much about it... I just wanted to get things done quickly. So I took all my meds in my mother's face. Called an ambulance, and boom! saved. Then SI stopped me from jumping, drowning and from cutting myself too deep.

 

[KrowaKovsky]

I didn't do enough research when I was younger other than extremely surface level "acetaminophen overdose will eventually kill you" and took a whole bottle, threw up because of the dry swallowing pills feeling. Next I very hastily bought a rope and didn't plan how much weight it could hold and it snapped.

 

[anywhere_else]

First time I stopped through pain/discomfort and second time the pole in my wardrobe was a lot flimsier than I thought and broke. Neither time I researched because, naively, I didn't think I had to. Life seems so fragile yet when you want to end it, it almost seems indestructible.

 

[Roseate]

I honestly didn't do enough research and also I was young so I didn't have the money or resources.

 

[Body bobi]

Incidentley survived after vomiting the pills... Or complete luck... I hate this so much lmao

 

[spooky_kxtty]

I didn't take enough Ritalin and didn't combine it with a stimulant for my first time, my second time I didn't cut deep enough to cut the radial artery and the third was because before I jumped off my friends held me back. Thankfully I never got caught but if I ever do attempt to CTB again I'd definitely be smarter about it

 

[Walpurgisnacht]

or you were found before completion?

I was grabbed by a random woman, and then picked up by a random dude and dragged over the railing of the bridge.
My balance was failing, a minute max and it would've worked if not for these "hero"s thinking it's fine to just pick a girl you've never met up without her consent and then call the cops...

I'm really bitter about that, but I guess it was a very un-planned attempt honestly. It was broad daylight, I just couldn't wait any longer I needed to die immediately. Thinking about it now, it's pretty obvious that I was stopped, but I still that hate people think it's okay to just interfere without even asking. My consent has never been respected ever and I hate that.

Whatever I guess... The method I have planned now is pretty infallible, and if there's any issues I'd know about them beforehand and can re-arrange it, which would suck but isn't likely and is better than getting maimed instead. There's absolutely no way I survive that and as long as we go when it's dark there's no way we'd get seen and forcefully stopped or have the cops called or anything like that either (at least not in time for them to stop it.)

 

[squirley]

Just read a post asking how many times people have failed attempts and I'm genuinely shocked by the high numbers some people listed.

How could you survive an attempt so many times unless you didn't properly research, SI kicked in, or you were found before completion?

Personally I'm planning to use the DDMAPH protocol and making sure to test everything to so that everything goes according to plan. I don't really see how failure could happen using this method unless by some extremely small chance my body survives.

Have you been able to find everything? I know it's a few items , but a couple only by "prescription". Just been doing some reading.
I understand all the items work together.
Is it possible to have the same outcome with any tweaking?
only the
Phenobarbital + Diazepam. + vodka.
Replace the Morphine with Fent? (not pure)

My first attempt was spontaneous without any research. Just a thought and action.
not exactly sure how much. But alot.
Quetiapine
Venlafaxine
Mirtazipine
Pregabalin
Vodka / Water

Interesting results but not the desired outcome.
good luck with yours.

 

[storeboughtisfine]

I was 14 and didn't know how medication overdoses worked. I ended up sick as a dog for 3 days instead of dead.

 

[Lilythefenfen]

First time, the rope snapped.
Second time, I threw up.
Third time, the Revolver misfired twice. (How???)
Fourth time, friend convinced me to put the knife down before Police tasered me.

Fifth time won't fail.

 

[Kerrtu]

It was close, I almost had it, but I was found about a day after I ran away.

(attempted once I had secured an odd location or hiding spot more like - didn't want to risk early discovery but yeah…sad trombone)

 

[StolenLife]

At 16 I survived because this forum didn't exist yet and I had no access to reliable methods and just swallowed random pills. At 22 I survived because I was a SI-stricken coward who couldn't get her legs to climb over the bridge rail.

 

[SVEN]

A passing off duty police officer saw me attempting to jump from the Erskine Bridge in Scotland and stopped me. That bridge has now had very high "Jumper Screens" installed over its entire length, as leaps from it invariably proved fatal.

 

[timetodie24]

Various reasons. Being young and stupid, not researching properly, thinking paracetamol overdoses would kill me. Other times couldn't keep enough pills down. Being a coward, SI kicking in and stupidly texting helpline who sent police around. Always chose slow methods before finding this forum which gave me too much time to chicken out and get treatment.

 

[kwho]

Just read a post asking how many times people have failed attempts and I'm genuinely shocked by the high numbers some people listed.

How could you survive an attempt so many times unless you didn't properly research, SI kicked in, or you were found before completion?

Life seems so fragile yet when you want to end it, it almost seems indestructible.

 

[cherrysquick]

SI when i tried to put my head on the rails, as soon as i heard the train i got away in panic
also being dumb and drunk enough to think i could bleed out easily when i didn't even hit any veins or arteries lol

 

[deadlynx]

The first time I was a teen and didnt know anything about how to OD so I took a bunch of ibuprofren. All it did was hurt my stomach for a few days (Im sure it damaged my organs but whatever). I think the second time I would consider an attempt, I swallowed a bunch of various pills was drinking alcohol while I talked to the crisis text line. Apparently they sent the police to my old address and I got a call from my best friend's fiance and I panicked and drove myself to the ER, despite being intoxicated.

 

[Unhumanly.]

I was naive and don't do any research for an effective method, at the very moment I fail I'm convinced enough that I don't matter knowing I was the only one who rescue myself and knowing how everyone take my act

before that moment I actually already have the small awareness that I don't matter but I kind of brush it off sometimes

 

[SHpr0]

OD , parents resuscitated me called an ambulance

 

[ultrasharpy123456]

I was using night-night. I tried doing it while standing up. Big mistake, you're supposed to do it while lying down. Also night-night is unreliable. Trying to compress the carotid arteries doesn't work unless you're doing full hanging with a particular rope.

 

[girlsboysthems]

first time i tried hanging myself, it put me out of consciousness really fast, but the belt slipped from between the door and wall and i woke up on the floor like a dog with a leash on. the second time i tried overdosing on a stimulant and failed (im guessing because of tolerance and not taking it into account).

 

[Stormy Raine]

I tried so many times but I think my next attempt Will definitely work. My last attempt I took a bottle of Tylenol pm and was miserable all night, I didn't vomit or anything. After hours of misery, I eventually fell asleep. I'm so tired of waking up alive, it's definitely very difficult to off yourself!

 

[sheleftme1]

I survived most attempts because of SI… the closest I came was because the belt I used popped and I woke up a while after in pain… I tried visine and it just wasn't enough or something I don't know it made me pass out…non scared that it might be worse after I die so I don't know. I wish I just knew what the right things to do were because I'd do them. I truly don't want to die but I wanted my life to just be better

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

Partial hanging failed because of my SI and thinking of my mom finding me like that. I was about to black out but stood up, ever since I haven't gotten as close as I was then and I haven't had an attempt since last year so I'm pretty content with life currently.

 

[unnormal9]

Overdosing is unreliable.

 

[suicidalcatlady]

I woke up after being knocked out for hours and I think my blacked out self felt my body shutting down because I screamed for an ambulance and then was taken to the ICU

 

[quietly_gone]

Survival instinct I think? I used a blanket as a rope and tied it to a wood piece in my garage's roof, was partially suspended but when it started "kicking in" I desperately pulled it off my neck. It hurt like hell afterwards for a whole week lol

 

[Saudade]

Police got to me before I had the time to complete my overdose. Plan was to knock myself out with allergy pills and then officially kill myself with pills for high blood pressure (I have low blood pressure) from someone ik. Only managed to swallow 12 antihistamines pills.