Did u loose friends from your last attempt too?

[LilGhost]

Finally feel not as shitty to post again. So I failed my last attempt like a month ago and well…. I got no friends now. I've pushed everybody away so they won't feel as sad and guilty after I pass. But I unfortunately survived. Attempt to reconnect failed (so far with everyone. I texted my closest friend soon after fail and they didn't even read the message). Which is like, fair. Dunno. I am just sad af and a bit missing them all. On the bright side? I cut off people that didn't care about me anyway in the first place. Like, literally I left the friend group and explained it as "yall are ghosting me all the time anyway" and after coming out clean I was left unread. It's just sad that I'll have to go through "finding my own person" shit again. Oh and it's also make me feel so worthless. And like…. I've been putting my friends through much bullshit cause… knowing a dead person is weird. And I wasn't as attentive. And I was to honest when seeking help. Idk. Do yall have feeling like no one gonna like you the way you are?

 

[whorror]

I've been there. I disappeared for 8 months. Apart from 2 friends, nobody knew about me anymore. Lost 3 friends after I resurfaced. I thought I'm going to attempt and I'm good for nothing so i'd do everyone a favor by just going away on my own.

Yeah, I know what is like to feel like if someone knew the whole version of you they won't accept it. Been struggling with it myself. I know it's cliche, but it doesn't say anything about your worth. Maybe those were the wrong people. The true ones stay