Why are Human Beings so Evil?

[moralfag]

Apologies for not posting in a while. Things have gotten a lot worse for me since my last post.

I thought things were going to get better, I really did. I was satisfied with where I was in life, and although things weren't perfect, I managed to live with it. I think if I was left alone for the rest of my life I would be okay. I could spend an eternity alone.
Why are human beings so evil? Why is it that so many of my classmates, teachers, coworkers, all find it entertaining to watch me suffer? I wish somebody would tell me what I have done to deserve this. I want to be able to fix it.
A few weeks ago I decided to open up to my best friend. I had been advised by others (parents, coworkers, therapist) to explain to her how I felt, because she was my best friend and she would never do something wrong…I knew this was a bad idea, and I still did it. I don't know why, but when someone suggests something of me I feel compelled to do it. Even if I know it's wrong.
I didn't give her many details and kept it as brief as I could, just explained to her that I was having a hard time. That some support from her would be nice. I don't know why I asked for this. I have done everything by myself and I should have continued to do so. Mixing up with other human beings is just a recipe for disaster.
I had asked her if it was okay for me to talk about something serious, since I would never want to just drop a bombshell on someone, and she had agreed that it was an okay time, yet when I had explained to her some of my feelings all she did was tell me to take it up with someone else because I was being annoying. I wasn't really upset with this, I know from personal experience that dealing with others' problems can be annoying, and I don't fault her at all for wanting to keep her peace. However, it didn't just end there. I wish it had.
The next weekend she invited me to hangout with her, and I agreed because I thought for a moment that someone actually wanted to spend time with me. That maybe I was capable of having friends and functioning in society.
All she did was take me razor shopping and flaunt different blades in my face in an indirect way to encourage me to just ctb. At first I thought that maybe I had misunderstood something, maybe I was just being sensitive and there was another reason for her shopping for only razors while along with me. Yet, when we finally quit shopping and went to her place, she tried her hardest to trigger my ptsd. Everything I had told her that I disliked she started to do, ignoring me when I asked her to please stop. I even found out she snuck blades in my bag to take home with me when I left.
I tried my best to be friends with her. I paid for all her dinners when we went out, I paid for her to get her nails done, I even listened to her issues and made sure to never do something she would disapprove of. I don't know why she did this, and she refuses to talk to me now.
I had spent a few months in hospitalization and met some alright people, so being the stupid human being I am, I thought that maybe there truly were people out there that weren't completely evil. Now I come back to getting stabbed with pencils in school and getting beat by guys my age. I hate everyone. I want to just be alone forever.
I hope you are having a better day than I am, much love to all of you..

 

[whywere]

My heart broke reading this, it really did.

I am the same, as why are some humans so darn mean and evil? The best that I can say, is after almost 7 decades on this planet, I have witnessed folks who were downright terrible and BANG! they got it back and then some.

I have always wondered if we will EVER evolve past being so darn nasty, not in my lifetime nor in a few hundred lifetimes, but someday, maybe just maybe.

What you had to go through and put up with is just the worst of the worst in a human. Trust someone and then have that person twist a knife into your back, but she WILL get her own someday, I firmly believe that folks who are so nasty get their own personal hell someday

You are a wonderfully kind, caring and loving soul and try not having jerks like her matter.

You are family here and you have a home here always.

Walter

 

[moralfag]

My heart broke reading this, it really did.

I am the same, as why are some humans so darn mean and evil? The best that I can say, is after almost 7 decades on this planet, I have witnessed folks who were downright terrible and BANG! they got it back and then some.

I have always wondered if we will EVER evolve past being so darn nasty, not in my lifetime nor in a few hundred lifetimes, but someday, maybe just maybe.

What you had to go through and put up with is just the worst of the worst in a human. Trust someone and then have that person twist a knife into your back, but she WILL get her own someday, I firmly believe that folks who are so nasty get their own personal hell someday

You are a wonderfully kind, caring and loving soul and try not having jerks like her matter.

You are family here and you have a home here always.

Walter

Thank you so much for your kind reply, I really appreciate it. I also like to believe that someday, even if it is a hundred lifetimes from now, humanity may evolve past being so awful. Thinking of a society where pain and suffering don't have to exist is really comforting.
I'm sorry people were also so rude to you, you deserve so much better. Thank you again for your kind words, I am glad to have found a place where I can belong...I hope wherever life takes you that you are able to find peace

 

[Uncounted1846]

I sincerely hope this is an ex friend. You don't deserve anyone who is aware that you have trauma and uses it against you. For what reason other than to be a total dick! I'm so sorry. I hope you find some peace.

 

[betternever2havbeen]

Your friend is a terrible person! Who would do that to someone? She sounds like a user and someone who has picked up on you being vulnerable and has exploited you. I genuinely believe most people are just trying their best and make mistakes along the way but your "friend" is something else! She did you a massive favour not speaking to you anymore. Most people will be pretty useless with support for mental health because they're not professionals and most of them haven't had the same struggles, but I have to believe the vast majority wouldn't use it against someone like this person has done. That's just evil. And friends don't make you pay for everything! You are so much better off without her in your life.

 

[Oreki]

I am completely enraged. Some people seem to take pleasure in making others suffer for twisted reasons or for something darker.

Never cover a friend's nails or dinners unless in a relationship or taking them out. Even occasionally paying for a close friend is fine, but she wasn't that kind of friend. She is not worth spending money on, and she does not deserve your attention, your kindness or your trust. Friends like that are worse than enemies.

Respect is the foundation of any friendship or relationship. Her behavior was reckless, cowardly, and cruelly manipulative. Ignoring you when you asked her to stop shows that she does not take you seriously as a person. Please take yourself seriously, cut her out of your life, and don't give her a second thought. People like her know exactly what they're doing. She's utterly disgusting.

 

[Realog11]

Apologies for not posting in a while. Things have gotten a lot worse for me since my last post.

I thought things were going to get better, I really did. I was satisfied with where I was in life, and although things weren't perfect, I managed to live with it. I think if I was left alone for the rest of my life I would be okay. I could spend an eternity alone.
Why are human beings so evil? Why is it that so many of my classmates, teachers, coworkers, all find it entertaining to watch me suffer? I wish somebody would tell me what I have done to deserve this. I want to be able to fix it.
A few weeks ago I decided to open up to my best friend. I had been advised by others (parents, coworkers, therapist) to explain to her how I felt, because she was my best friend and she would never do something wrong…I knew this was a bad idea, and I still did it. I don't know why, but when someone suggests something of me I feel compelled to do it. Even if I know it's wrong.
I didn't give her many details and kept it as brief as I could, just explained to her that I was having a hard time. That some support from her would be nice. I don't know why I asked for this. I have done everything by myself and I should have continued to do so. Mixing up with other human beings is just a recipe for disaster.
I had asked her if it was okay for me to talk about something serious, since I would never want to just drop a bombshell on someone, and she had agreed that it was an okay time, yet when I had explained to her some of my feelings all she did was tell me to take it up with someone else because I was being annoying. I wasn't really upset with this, I know from personal experience that dealing with others' problems can be annoying, and I don't fault her at all for wanting to keep her peace. However, it didn't just end there. I wish it had.
The next weekend she invited me to hangout with her, and I agreed because I thought for a moment that someone actually wanted to spend time with me. That maybe I was capable of having friends and functioning in society.
All she did was take me razor shopping and flaunt different blades in my face in an indirect way to encourage me to just ctb. At first I thought that maybe I had misunderstood something, maybe I was just being sensitive and there was another reason for her shopping for only razors while along with me. Yet, when we finally quit shopping and went to her place, she tried her hardest to trigger my ptsd. Everything I had told her that I disliked she started to do, ignoring me when I asked her to please stop. I even found out she snuck blades in my bag to take home with me when I left.
I tried my best to be friends with her. I paid for all her dinners when we went out, I paid for her to get her nails done, I even listened to her issues and made sure to never do something she would disapprove of. I don't know why she did this, and she refuses to talk to me now.
I had spent a few months in hospitalization and met some alright people, so being the stupid human being I am, I thought that maybe there truly were people out there that weren't completely evil. Now I come back to getting stabbed with pencils in school and getting beat by guys my age. I hate everyone. I want to just be alone forever.
I hope you are having a better day than I am, much love to all of you..

My sister is so evil I'm glad I'm ctb today