Venting Why am I broken

[dendronize]

I can't handle being emotionless.
I can't handle having emotions.

why can I feel amazing but moments later shit.
why do I have such a need for connection when I'm socially stupid and anxious.
why can't I be content with the few connections I have.
why can't I be happy with what I have.
why can't I express myself.
why am I trapped in my own body.
why do I feel so deeply what I think others feel, and am so off the mark.
why do I care.
why can't I stick to something.
why can't I control myself.
why can't I be honest.
why am I so self-centered.
why don't I have self respect.
why do I need validation.
why am I easily hurt.
why do I put up a facade.
why do I think I can help.
why can't I break the cycle.
why don't I know who I am.
why am I broken.

what am I so afraid of?
someone kill me

 

[Sulyya]

This post is probably a good blueprint for a lot of our minds.

My personal big ones from your whys list:

why can I feel amazing but moments later shit.
why can't I express myself.
why can't I stick to something.
why don't I have self respect.
why do I put up a facade.
why do I think I can help.
why don't I know who I am.
what am I so afraid of?

 

[CellarBoy]

I think we're all broken in our own ways. There isn't always a reason for it, and there isn't always an answer, we're all just screwed from the beginning.

 

[FuneralCry]

Life really is so unnecessarily cruel after all, I just think the reality is that there is no true peace and relief from suffering in this world. But anyway it must be tiring being trapped in that situation but I wish you the best.

 

[WorthlessCoward]

I am cooly broken I am like that character in the movie who is a mess but you still like him and wins by the end, except I didn't win by the end so I guess I am not like that character at all

 

[GoForDeath]

Some people can be content with life, while others can't.. I don't think I'm broken, but I'm mellowed..

 

[Rockman]

You are broken because of trauma. Sombody injured your brain. Sometimes it could be fixed, sometimes not.

 

[SilentSadness]

I am not broken, honestly wanting to ctb is proof that I can think rationally. That said I still hate life, and life itself and my circumstances are very, very broken.