Who will find your body ?

[madwoman]

I'm also doing SN and considered a hotel, but I really want to do it in the comfort of my home on my bed. I live alone in an apartment building. I think what would happen is my work would be the first to notice I am not clocked in and they'd have to reach out to my emergency contacts - my sister who's across the country and my ex who could be out of state or in my state bc of his job. He'd be more likely to be able to travel to me and he has the extra keys to my apartment so I'm really afraid it'll be him. Possibility he would call me and he might have access to find my phone or laptop (I don't know if it's set up it used to be when together) so maybe he'd call the cops to check the apartment out. Or I was thinking of taping a note on my door or slipping a piece if paper out - my landlords have taped notes to our door for messages to us so maybe my neighbors would think it's that and not touch it and most mind their business anyway. And the note would say I passed and please call the cops - so I feel bad that they would find me but they do deal with crisis everyday. And yeah we are all gonna die and be found by someone. But I just really don't want it to be a loved one. Might be apartment maintenance people.

 

[DeadSouls]

Someone working for the rental company, I guess. No one would notice or think about me aside from when my rent is late.

 

[playalistic]

Hi, do you know who will find your body after ctb ? I'd like the cops because i'd like to avoid trauma for my family (with SN the corpse will be blue i think, so even more traumatic). i live alone and i'd like to ctb at home around midnight. only have a cat but he won't give alert... i don't want to go to the hotel. people who work there will be traumatised and it's not their business. just wish i had a deadly illness or a painless accident. so fucking tired. i plan to ctb with SN in september or october if I don't go crazy before

First responders if anything, i would never give my family the trauma of kms in a way where they would discover my body. In general i wish for my death to cause the least amount of pain to anyone as possible (although i know its inevitable and we dont live in a perfect ideal world where that can happen)

If i wanted to really kms in the middle of an unknown forest in a desolate location where my body would never be found i could but im sure my family wants my ashes/corpse

Double edged sword, either give first responders PTSD/grief or your family never being able to bury you. Damn typing this out i wish suicide wasnt such a moral clusterfuck

 

[Shiksa]

Somewhere far away from family and friends. I have no clue who will to be honest.

 

[unluckysadness]

I have maybe an idea : my cat is often outdoor at nights and she comes in the morning in front of my apartment while meowing. So my neighbours will see I won't open, and if I put a note under my door telling them just to call the police, it could solve this problem. A little bit strange, i agree, but I'm a strange guy...

 

[hmnow]

a non family member in a hotel or in the woods

 

[voyager_9999]

my dad. i dont really care for anyone in my family, im not interested in how this would affect them.

 

[unluckysadness]

Just wanted to boost this thread. This question bothers me a lot.

 

[Zardoz]

Hopefully the Police.

Still deciding on either at home or a hotel room.

Re using a hotel:
Someone mentioned on a post about renting a hotel suite instead of just a single room, so there is an internal bedroom door you can shut. Puts the cost of renting the hotel room up obviously.
And then put a 'Do not enter. Police only' note on that door for the hotel staff to see, who will be the first to enter your room after you don't check out.
Or I suppose this might work too?: rent the room for a few days after and send a delayed email to someone to say please contact this hotel and tell them to call the police or manager to go to my room, and possibly say why so there is no nasty surprise for them. Maybe send the email to the hotel itself, or both?

Or at home and sending a delayed email to someone, or a few people, to say please call the police and tell them to go to my apartment.
I live alone. I won't be missed so otherwise no-one will notice until the stink becomes an issue and is reported or the maggots start falling down into the apartment below me. I'd like to avoid this scenario if possible.
Also doing it at home would probably traumatise my neighbours a bit, which they don't deserve (I live in a fairly compact block with a shared entrance/stairs/gardens etc., we know each other). And it may devalue my apartment property sale value, which would affect the beneficiaries I have left it to.

So to answer the original question, hopefully the police in either case.
I'm not wanting to traumatise any innocent people by them finding my body, nobody deserves to have that experience.

I quite like the idea of going in the comfort of my own home though.
I think the pressure of booking a hotel room so the clock is set and counting down might add to the pressure. I'm not sure I could be so at peace with myself and going through with it that this wouldn't be an issue. I guess I won't know until I try for real.

 

[Shadows From Hell]

Hopefully nobody, at least not for 10 years when I'm mostly decomposed, and nearly all bones.

 

[Upon a hanging Body]

At this point it would be the roll of the dice . I honestly hope it's not my brother .

 

[valoristic]

Hi, do you know who will find your body after ctb ? I'd like the cops because i'd like to avoid trauma for my family (with SN the corpse will be blue i think, so even more traumatic). i live alone and i'd like to ctb at home around midnight. only have a cat but he won't give alert... i don't want to go to the hotel. people who work there will be traumatised and it's not their business. just wish i had a deadly illness or a painless accident. so fucking tired. i plan to ctb with SN in september or october if I don't go crazy before

I think my cats would first. Which is unbearable to me, my babies finding me, not understanding, putting their heads to my hand to pet them, lying at my feet to fall asleep with me.
Then my boyfriend would. Can't imagine how that'd affect him. I wouldn't want that for him but, I wouldn't want anyone else to alerted so I wouldn't tell anyone else. Write my notes and CTB tucked into bed, comfy and ready to go.

 

[nowherelilies]

i booked a hotel so probably the person who'll clean the apartment during my assigned checkout time. they'll probably call the security guards on the ground floor for help.

 

[jenson]

Kinda a tough one. I dont want to be found but that's even more difficult than the ctb part. If I did it in my apartment its tough to tell. My coworkers would probably notice first and they would probably come to my apartment and possibly call a wellness check. If I choose to lock the door, then probably the cops. If I didnt, then probably either my coworkers or friends.

 

[KinderEgg]

The police, for sure. Luckily I live very far away from anyone I care about but Ill put a note on the door just in case. Wouldn't want burglars to be traumatised lol.

 

[Fish-Holder]

Depends on location. Relatives if done in home, shocked landlord if done on rented home, fisherman or passerby if done in beach, crows or wolves if done in deep steppes.

 

[unluckysadness]

This question bothers me a lot. My SN method is ready but I live alone and it can takes days before someone finds my body. I fear the smell of my corpse too. If anyone has ideas.

 

[greygoosechoose]

It will probably be my family. I don't want to have them wonder where I am and the method I choose would not appear violent. Hopefully like passing in my sleep.

Theres only so much you can control, but maybe a scheduled email/message to someone that can alert authorities after you've passed?

 

[-nobodyknows-]

If I do ctb, I just hope I am not found by someone who knows me. That really worries me a lot, and is a big part of why I put it off.

 

[unluckysadness]

If I do ctb, I just hope I am not found by someone who knows me. That really worries me a lot, and is a big part of why I put it off.

Yes it's a difficult question. What bothers me the most is the blue / grey colour of the body after SN ingestion. I saw pics of cyanosis and I don't want my family to see it. If only I could access to nembutal of propofol... These substances seem to have less consequences on the corpse

 

[jakerjays]

I plan to go to some open exposed train tracks by a creek. They're pretty publicly accessible if you walk a little down a beach connected to the main path but I don't usually see people there besides fishermen looking for oysters at low tide.
A random passerby COULD find me, but it's not likely.
Whether cops or my parents find me is another thing. I'm connected to my parents life360, so they'd know where I was. Unfortunately, I do think they're likely to try and drive to my location before reporting me missing late at night. So likelihood is my stepdad will find me.

 

[PI3.14]

The police

 

[Daxter777]

Either my roommate will kr the more likely case my mother. Since she comes to my residence to work she will get curious as to why I haven't greeted her and in turn imagine the worst and then find tbe worst. Honestly it saddens me deeply that I might one day expose her to so much pain.

 

[thesighofleaves]

Most likely the police. I plan to ctb in my apartment and have an auto-timed email go out after.

 

[Irisse]

I currently live far from my parents and my method is SN, and I plan to do it in my apartment. They will worry but it will be either the landlord or the police. I am deeply disturbed by the sadness this will cause to my parents but things are getting unbearable and I'm rotting and deteriorating anyway.

 

[Unknown21]

One of my family members.

 

[unluckysadness]

I currently live far from my parents and my method is SN, and I plan to do it in my apartment. They will worry but it will be either the landlord or the police. I am deeply disturbed by the sadness this will cause to my parents but things are getting unbearable and I'm rotting and deteriorating anyway.

Same :-(

Most likely the police. I plan to ctb in my apartment and have an auto-timed email go out after.

I'd like to do the same but I'm afraid of a computer bug which could send the email immediately... I've never been lucky and I'm paranoid so it's fucking hard to find a solution. I really don't want to do it at the hotel. Should I do it and let my door open at nights ? But I'll puke and make noise, and I don't want to be found by my neighbour. He's a nice guy and doesn't deserve to be traumatized. Otherwise, buy a very noisy alarm and set off it at the right time ? I don't know. I'm lost with all this shit.

 

[Andarna]

This whole thing is bothering me too. I don't want to traumatize anyone, but it's unavoidable. I can't do it at home, so I'll probably do it outside. In the "forest" or something. Maybe a search party will be organized and they'll find me (I'd rather things didn't get this far...) or some unlucky passerby...