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Phoenix

Student
Feb 27, 2021
153
She's the only reason I'm still here. In a way she's my emotional support cat. She senses when im struggling even when she's at the other side of the house. I know once she goes that will be the end of me but she's 7 and probably has so much life left in her I'm not sure how i can live that long. She would be well looked after by my family but she hates everybody but me. Part of me thinks it would kill her if i killed myself. She's almost always with me and if she's nor she genuinely comes back and forth checking on me. Does anyone else have a strong bond with their pet like this?
 
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the_final_countdown

Specialist
Dec 29, 2020
337
I moved my dogs bed to the living room when I was having my breakdown from health issues.

It was such a source of comfort for me, having something warm and breathing near me.

It didn't take away my anxiety or suffering. Didn't lessen it. But I felt like I wasn't alone.
 
Manaaja

Manaaja

euROPE
Sep 10, 2018
1,382
I had a dog, but my narcissistic mom stole her from me. It was my idea to get a dog. I bought her with my own money. I thought that I'd not be lonely if I had my dog with me when the day came when I had to move to out of parents's house to an apartment.

When I moved out of parents's house to my own apartment, I didn't take the dog with me (many reasons), but after sometime I finally told my mom that I want my dog to come and live with me because I was lonely, having the dog with me would help me with my loneliness. It would also help my mental state by calming me and make me active by forcing me to go out and walk her. It'd give a daily schedule, something I lacked but severely needed.

Mom refused to give her back to me. My dog's now 10 years old, never lived even one day with me, despite, like I said, being my dog. A few times I have stolen her back, but it always ends with my mom breaking into my apartment and stealing her away from me once again.

Now my dog loves her, and only sees me as a friend who comes to see her sometimes. I love my dog, but I also hate her. She's my dog, I even have the legal papers. She should be living with me, comforting me when I'm lonely and thinking of roping because no one cares about me. She should be here comforting me when I get a panic attack from all this loneliness. Instead she just worships my mom.

I have the only non-loyal dog in the world.

Meanwhile my cousin bought a dog with her ex-gf, and after pumping and dumping her, let the dog live in his parents house while he parties with new girls every every week. Yet his dog always goes absolutely crazy when she sees him, despite seeing him very rarely. I wish my dog was as loyal to me as his is to him.

So in short, I don't live for my pet.
 
strangeceleste

strangeceleste

Don’t believe everything you think
Mar 2, 2021
84
I love my cat so much, but I don't think I live for him. He does make my life considerably better - also feels like an emotional support animal. He is more attached to me than anyone else, but gets on well with my family and friends. He's such a sweetheart that anyone would be lucky to have him when I'm gone.
 
Imaginos

Imaginos

Full-time layabout
Apr 7, 2018
638
I once used to think/strongly believe that I'd kill myself when our last cat died. Well, unfortunately for me, that didn't happen. In my case, I just accepted the fact that he must not have meant as much to me as I thought he did. Not to mention that, since my survival instinct was always, and still is, the main problem here, the presence or absence of our cat never had any bearing on suicide, since it was/is my otherwise significant lack of nerve preventing me from actually doing the deed. Maybe when my mother dies I'll finally kill myself, but even that's no guarantee. I really am completely hopeless.
 
Red

Red

Warlock
Apr 10, 2019
744
I love my cat so much, he's sat with me through many a sleepless night and always seems to know when I'm struggling - he just plonks himself next to me with his hella loud purr and brings me some degree of comfort.

I think he'd be well looked after if I went, for he's such a lovely cat that he's hard not to love and pamper. I'm not sure how he'd take my absence as we've barely been away from each other since we met.

He's a big factor in me wanting to be around, genuinely the only living being that I think actually loves me, or has ever really loved me.
 
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justagirl

Member
Mar 14, 2021
23
My cat is a huge source of strength for me. I am in a long-distance marriage due to unfortunate circumstances, and I made my spouse promise to take my baby boy if I can't get through this because I don't trust my family to do right by him.

My boy is so soothing. He will curl up against me or on top of me, purring and giving me occasional licks and rubs. He even pets my face when I've got my blankets pulled up over my hands/under my chin when I'm crying. He runs to the door to greet me after work, meowing in his way that sounds like "maaaaaahm?" and it makes my heart so happy. I give him options of what flavor of canned food he wants each night, and tell him to meow after I say the flavor he wants, or to rub his face on the can he wants. He likes my spouse and somewhat tolerates others when I'm not around, but he firmly is my cat. The best mornings are when I wake up to find him curled up against my chest and my arms wrapped around him. He is truly a gem and a lifesaver. I wouldn't be here without him.
 
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AE2021

Experienced
Sep 21, 2020
216
I very much live for my dog. He is a rescue and my very best friend. He knows when I am not doing well and gets very attentive and affectionate when I need it. Similar to justagirl and her cat, I love it when I wake up and find him snuggled up against me. It is very comforting. He really has saved my life. I will stick around as long as he is alive, no doubt about that. Would not want to leave his well being up to chance.
 
Echo

Echo

Easily Forgotten
Oct 28, 2020
559
I am only alive because my elderly rescue dog is. I made him a promise- i owe him to take care of him his whole life.
We are bonded, we have an "unusual bond" according to the vet. If i die before he does, i am worried about how he'd handle it.
When he passes away, then i am free to ctb.
 
Meditation guide

Meditation guide

Always was, is, and always shall be.
Jun 22, 2020
6,089
All my pets have been like you described, totally bonded to me and me to them. It's a love like none other, a bond as strong as it gets.
 

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