Who here feels content with the life they've lived

[rozeske]

How many of you here feel like you have done everything you want and seen every thing your life has to offer and is content with ctbing.
I feel like I haven't done even half the things I envisioned in this life. What about you?

 

[mortuarymary]

How many of you here feel like you have done everything you want and seen every thing your life has to offer and is content with ctbing.
I feel like I haven't done even half the things I envisioned in this life. What about you?

Im 50 and I still haven't. Still places to visit etc. Done well career wise being an APT. Just want to travel.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yeah, I'm done I think. It's not that I don't still enjoy things in life. There are still a few places I'd like to see. But ultimately- would it be the end of the world if I didn't? No- I have some nice memories. Most of the people I made those nice memories with are dead now though.

Plus- I don't believe you can regret things after you die. I don't think I'll be feeling uptight that I didn't try that flavour of ice cream or visit that place or work on that project. Most of life is just kind of getting by as best I can really with a few fun moments sprinkled on the top. Doesn't seem worth carrying on for really.

 

[DesperateOne]

How many of you here feel like you have done everything you want and seen every thing your life has to offer and is content with ctbing.
I feel like I haven't done even half the things I envisioned in this life. What about you?

I didn't even get the chance...

 

[Tears in Rain]

I feel like I haven't done even half the things I envisioned in this life. What about you?

I'm in the same boat. Any time I set about trying to do what I envisioned in life, the Universe whacked me in the face with a shovel.... and then shat on me. So, I have definitely lived an unfulfilled life.

 

[hikikomorizombie]

1 of the main reasons i need to die is bc i haven't & never will. so kms is the only logical option now i thought that'd make it easier w the SI, but unfortunately not.

if u could make 1 of those things u envisioned for urself come true, what would u choose??

 

[rozeske]

1 of the main reasons i need to die is bc i haven't & never will. so kms is the only logical option now i thought that'd make it easier w the SI, but unfortunately not.

if u could make 1 of those things u envisioned for urself come true, what would u choose??

It's tough to choose just one, but having kids to give them all the love I never received and tell them how much they are wanted as much as I was told that I wasn't. Maybe it's a good thing I never got around to it, they say no matter how much you hated your childhood there is a good chance you would become your parents so.....

 

[hikikomorizombie]

It's tough to choose just one, but having kids to give them all the love I never received and tell them how much they are wanted as much as I was told that I wasn't. Maybe it's a good thing I never got around to it, they say no matter how much you hated your childhood there is a good chance you would become your parents so.....

oh wow! that's a rare one round these parts, haha :) i can totally understand ur wanting for that though, & i think it's beautiful when breaking the cycle's properly achieved. but yeah, unfortunately it seems like it rarely is :// my mom is adamant she broke the abusive, narcissistic, closed off matriarch cycle w me just bc she didn't physically beat me like her mother did to her growing up. it's a weird thing, huh. how pain & trauma can be inadvertently passed down like that.

do u think suffering/pain can be genetic??

 

[carac]

I don't know I'm in the middle, I'm 46 and there is so much I haven't done and achieved because of ill health. I'm am kind of happy with my life though, I think I've been a good person for the most part and I've had lots of experiences. Health wise I am better now so there are things I could try, I just don't know whether I really want to or not.

 

[rozeske]

do u think suffering/pain can be genetic??

I believe in generational truma if that is what you mean. I believe it can be passed down from generation to generation be it intentionally or unintentionally until some one manages to break the cycle.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

What 's the point of wanting to do anything? Anything I could do I will forget after I die . After death I'll cease to exist forever.

I got my N from d 2 years ago . I was thinking was it 1 year or 2? Couldn't even tell for a minute. The last year , 2 years, , 4 Years passed like a blink of an eye.

1 year 2 years is such a fleeting crap what could possibly matter that u do in something that passes so quickly.

I don't have any sources for n. They got D 2 years ago

The older people will see decades also are fleeting . Life is a scam

 

[rozeske]

What 's the point of wanting to do anything? Anything I could do I will forget after I die . After death I'll cease to exist forever.

I got my n from d 2 years ago . I was thinking was it 1 year or 2? Couldn't even tell for a minute. The last year , 2 years, , 4 Years passed like a blink of an eye.

I don't have any sources for n. They got D 2 years ago

Lucky you, looks like you have the holy grail of ctb.

 

[Silenos]

Not at all content with the shitty life I've had, however, I've had enough interesting experiences that I can say I wouldn't really be missing out on anything if I died right now.

I should still go skydiving though.

 

[outrider567]

How many of you here feel like you have done everything you want and seen every thing your life has to offer and is content with ctbing.
I feel like I haven't done even half the things I envisioned in this life. What about you?

I did everthing I wanted to in my life, accomplished all my dreams.....until she died and then everything came crashing down

 

[Slow_Farewell]

Interesting question..
There are things I haven't done, but would like to do. I don't know if it will result in fulfilment, though.
Basically, I guess im just at that age where things are..predictable, i guess?
Like.. one thing most people would like to do is travel, it's on a lot of people's list, right? And i'm not shitting on anyone's list, it's just an example.
For me right now, if someone were to say: Ok, you get to go somewhere for a day or two, i'd be like:packing is a pain, then the actual travelling there, etc.
I guess if I can't do things the way I want, i dont want to do them at all. So yeah, im old and grumpy.

 

[Tears in Rain]

What 's the point of wanting to do anything? Anything I could do I will forget after I die . After death I'll cease to exist forever.

I got my N from d 2 years ago . I was thinking was it 1 year or 2? Couldn't even tell for a minute. The last year , 2 years, , 4 Years passed like a blink of an eye.

1 year 2 years is such a fleeting crap what could possibly matter that u do in something that passes so quickly.

I don't have any sources for n. They got D 2 years ago

The older people will see decades also are fleeting . Life is a scam

You have N? From previous posts you made it sounded like you were desperate to get out of here, but were without a peaceful method.
Out of interest is it S.I., or the fact that you have remaining business to attend to, that's stopping you ctb?
I'm just curious, based on your previous posts that were almost FuneralCry-level of hate for life.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I'm not content with my life nor do I want to be. I only wish to be dead as I'll forever be non existent and free from any suffering. There's nothing that I want from life other than an easy pathway for death

What 's the point of wanting to do anything? Anything I could do I will forget after I die . After death I'll cease to exist forever.

I got my N from d 2 years ago . I was thinking was it 1 year or 2? Couldn't even tell for a minute. The last year , 2 years, , 4 Years passed like a blink of an eye.

1 year 2 years is such a fleeting crap what could possibly matter that u do in something that passes so quickly.

I don't have any sources for n. They got D 2 years ago

The older people will see decades also are fleeting . Life is a scam

Wait what, you had N all this time? I'm in utter shock. I'm not condoning suicide of course but I heard the shelf life for N is 3 years. You can do whatever it is you want to but just know that you'll most likely never get this opportunity again once it expires. Whether you continue to live or enter permanent, blissful non existence forever, I wish you find peace

 

[LostInTheWoods]

I didn't do almost anything of what i would have loved to do, but i'm still content because I did what i could with what life gave me, and i know that in another circumanstances i would have done better. My experiment is over. I suffer because it seems that i have to live after this experiment that people call life. If i'd die now, i would instantly satisfied. Despite many problems i was able to have some good relationships, platonic but i dont care because i'm asexual, i studied, i had some passions like concerts, i lived in a foreign country....sadly now i should really die because i'm failing everything, that's the problem, i should really live this planet

 

[Q_Hayley]

My short opinion is that I've had some good times in my life, and I'm satisfied with that. I know I could go on and maybe have good times again but I'm content with not doing that and just going with some dignity on my own terms

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I'm not content with my life nor do I want to be. I only wish to be dead as I'll forever be non existent and free from any suffering. There's nothing that I want from life other than an easy pathway for death

Wait what, you had N all this time? I'm in utter shock. I'm not condoning suicide of course but I heard the shelf life for N is 3 years. You can do whatever it is you want to but just know that you'll most likely never get this opportunity again once it expires. Whether you continue to live or enter permanent, blissful non existence forever, I wish you find peace

many reasons why i haven't done it yet. but i hope to soon cause can't let the opportunity go away. 1 is i've seen so many people here so sure they were going to ctb and then call the Hospital, si . so trying to work that out . i can't fail . been trying to find a remote location difficult with very low funds. There's many more reasons. fear of failure. i have very bad mental and physical health problems which limit me and a lot of other details but i have to find a way to overcome all unimaginable nobody would understand or believe obstacles to ctb

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

Never have, ever will be.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

many reasons why i haven't done it yet. but i hope to soon cause can't let the opportunity go away. 1 is i've seen so many people here so sure they were going to ctb and then call the Hospital, si . so trying to work that out . i can't fail . been trying to find a remote location difficult with very low funds. There's many more reasons. fear of failure. i have very bad mental and physical health problems which limit me and a lot of other details but i have to find a way to overcome all unimaginable nobody would understand or believe obstacles to ctb

I understand now. Even when one has N, there can still be obstacles in the way. I honestly thought that, if I were to get access to N, I'd use it instantly but your post has made me consider that I may not use it instantly because SI and people still exist. Either way, I still believe that you'll get your peace before it expires. I wish you the best of luck

 

[penguinl0v3s]

I'm ready to die. I feel elderly, in a good way. Like I've completed everything that I wanted from life, found myself, and have someone waiting for me in the afterlife. If I died tomorrow, I'd have no regrets.

 

[ScubaCTB]

LOL! My life is, has been, and will be when I CTB an absolute disaster of a fiasco. Can't wait to die.

 

[Adûnâi]

This is a really good question! My issue is that I don't have much to live for; my ideal life would include ether politics or a relationship. At this point, I'm hoping for an AI to sate my need in either field. In a few years, any game world or any waifu imaginable will be possible to create for me to cope in peace. So fingers crossed the progress isn't slow.

Other than that, I'm not exactly interested in anything else in life. I could read books, or learn languages (or "travel" ugh), but I never started... and it never began.

 

[Aloneandinpain]

I feel like I never really got started at life. At least not adult or even teen life.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I had a good life, I would say I lived my life, I could have l lived it even better than I did. What I've not done yet in my life is out of reach and it's almost impossible to achieve those things after I failed in life a few years ago. The life I had is hard to top for me - from that point of view I've given up.

So, yes, I wouldn't mind if I died naturally tomorrow, I wouldn't miss out on anything. But I don't really want to die (only the circumstances may require CTB), life's not good but not bad enough, there's SI, fear of failure, family.

 

[Manfrotto99]

I missed out on everything most people look forward to in lifevand take for granted. Too late now. Only compensation I have is at least I tried my hardest, but then again that means I was a total failure.

 

[rozeske]

My short opinion is that I've had some good times in my life, and I'm satisfied with that. I know I could go on and maybe have good times again but I'm content with not doing that and just going with some dignity on my own terms

Looks like she accomplished her hearts desire. RIP 🕊

 

[Darkover]

It seems like everywhere I look, people around me are striving to figure out how to get more money. The guy living with his parents wants more money so he can move out. The guy with his own house wants a better house. The guy with the better house wants a house and a boat. It never ends

And a lack of money makes you feel like garbage. I feel like people's problems just change given the amount of money that they have.