Anyone else embarrassed by their life?

[deadanddecomposing]

Whenever people ask about my life, even minor things, I'm just filled with shame. I feel like I'm desperately trying to perform being a person and everyone's laughing at how badly I'm doing it. I feel like the embodiment of every cringe compilation and every friendless weirdo. I don't want to be a doomer online who makes their own misery and I don't think I'm that, but describing my life sure makes me feel that way. I don't have any friends at work and I'm not important to the friends I do have.

 

[lastappleonearth]

Whenever people ask about my life, even minor things, I'm just filled with shame. I feel like I'm desperately trying to perform being a person and everyone's laughing at how badly I'm doing it. I feel like the embodiment of every cringe compilation and every friendless weirdo. I don't want to be a doomer online who makes their own misery and I don't think I'm that, but describing my life sure makes me feel that way. I don't have any friends at work and I'm not important to the friends I do have.

Yes I relate to that a lot, i dread when relatives ask me sth abt my life. Usually i have absolutely nothing to say, bcs literally nothings happening. I don't know how i ended up like that

 

[deadanddecomposing]

Yes I relate to that a lot, i dread when relatives ask me sth abt my life. Usually i have absolutely nothing to say, bcs literally nothings happening. I don't know how i ended up like that

Exactly! Being asked about your life by relatives is the worst. I'll be feeling good about myself and then it all comes crashing down. My grandparents are pretty disappointed in my siblings and me for how we turned out. We're not ivy league students or doctors. My brother works at a pizza shop and I'm barely passing college, dragging my feet towards a teaching degree.

 

[MrMegalomaniac]

I feel embarrassed that I was ever worried about any of the things that ate me up.
Other than that I don't feel shame, regret or deep embarrassment.

 

[thelostautistic]

I really relate to how you're feeling. I'm sorry you're dealing with the same thing. I feel so embarrassed about my life especially before being diagnosed with Autism. Those 23 years felt like a humiliation ritual

 

[lastappleonearth]

Exactly! Being asked about your life by relatives is the worst. I'll be feeling good about myself and then it all comes crashing down. My grandparents are pretty disappointed in my siblings and me for how we turned out. We're not ivy league students or doctors. My brother works at a pizza shop and I'm barely passing college, dragging my feet towards a teaching degree.

Yes it's the worst. I mean I kinda get it, but often it just feels like they try to make u feel even worse abt yourself for some reason. Idk, ig one has to be lucky to have kind relatives

 

[gonnaAbstract]

Whenever people ask about my life, even minor things, I'm just filled with shame. I feel like I'm desperately trying to perform being a person and everyone's laughing at how badly I'm doing it. I feel like the embodiment of every cringe compilation and every friendless weirdo. I don't want to be a doomer online who makes their own misery and I don't think I'm that, but describing my life sure makes me feel that way. I don't have any friends at work and I'm not important to the friends I do have.

Absolutely. I have lolcow traits, my life is falling apart, I wish I was someone else, I cannot escape myself.

 

[Oblivionetc]

I'm not important to the friends I do have.

feel the same way. I thought I had friends, but after a separation they all ghosted me

 

[Spite]

I sure am. I look back on my past blunders and social failures and feel like a colossol fuck-up. I also feel like in some ways my life could be better but I foolishly squandered the chances that I had when I was younger.

Half of me feels like I deserve my shitty life because I'm stupid and I've made stupid decisions in the past, the other half of me feels like I don't deserve it because I never chose to live with various mental illnesses, I never chose to be autistic, I never chose to be predisposed towards being very shy and introverted.

It's conflicting.

 

[hurts2b]

I'm about to be homeless. You bet your ass I'm embarrassed by my life. Unending failure. That's what I am. Unending failure.

 

[x9x99988]

Yes I relate to that a lot, i dread when relatives ask me sth abt my life. Usually i have absolutely nothing to say, bcs literally nothings happening. I don't know how i ended up like that

Same

 

[limenlux]

My background is eclectic to the point that people often don't believe I've pursued the things I have until I present them with proof, at which point it becomes terribly embarrassing to stand before them having miserably failed to achieve even a modicum of success at anything.

After becoming disabled, the bitter sting of disappointment has worn off to a certain extent, and I often joke that it's perfectly acceptable to be in such a wretched state because I have a doctor's note.

 

[valar_morghulis21]

I just lie about tired from working most of the time. Don't even have a job, but it provides a justification to why I look depressed and tired. Also most people lead an insignificant life so who are they to judge? I figure out after years of being a people pleaser is that no one likes a suicidal person. My facade of having it together and don't give a fuck about anything actually works in my favor. So I'll just keep doing it until my ctb plan is finalized. It is a lonely life for sure, but it was worse when I surrounded myself with the wrong crowd.

 

[TwistedNightmares]

When people ask me about my life, it definitely makes me feel uncomfortable, and also I feel shame and embarrassment, so I suppose I feel similar. I do nothing for a living, and I don't have a social life either. I usually lie to strangers about what I do so they don't question further.

 

[crashinout]

Whenever people ask about my life, even minor things, I'm just filled with shame. I feel like I'm desperately trying to perform being a person and everyone's laughing at how badly I'm doing it. I feel like the embodiment of every cringe compilation and every friendless weirdo. I don't want to be a doomer online who makes their own misery and I don't think I'm that, but describing my life sure makes me feel that way. I don't have any friends at work and I'm not important to the friends I do have.

alllllllll the time, im considering if i want to do it or not

 

[Pluto]

 

[suncide10]

I don't like talking about my life because there's nothing positive in it. Sure I can remember a couple of good moments but it's like 1% of my whole life. I don't wanna tell people about the bad things in my life and bring the mood down.

 

[SoLowHollow48]

Yes I relate to that a lot, i dread when relatives ask me sth abt my life. Usually i have absolutely nothing to say, bcs literally nothings happening. I don't know how i ended up like that

Same. I'm more embarrassed about not being embarrassed for something that I should be embarrassed about if that makes sense. I feel like I should worry more about never having gone abroad, winning competitions, losing weight. and pursuing a master's degree or whatnot. But I'm just... okay being stagnant. I'm not anxious about not doing and thinking big things. I just can't give a fuck anymore and I'm ashamed that although I am fighting on, going forward, I'm fighting on for nothing because there's no savoir vivre, no passion. Just me going through the motions.

 

[WirelessConnections]

I tend to lie or just brush off the question whenever people ask me about my hobbies or interests. I always feel like my answer would make me look like an idiot and ruin whatever impression I've made with the person. I rarely meet people irl that I have much in common with anyway.

 

[lastappleonearth]

Same. I'm more embarrassed about not being embarrassed for something that I should be embarrassed about if that makes sense. I feel like I should worry more about never having gone abroad, winning competitions, losing weight. and pursuing a master's degree or whatnot. But I'm just... okay being stagnant. I'm not anxious about not doing and thinking big things. I just can't give a fuck anymore and I'm ashamed that although I am fighting on, going forward, I'm fighting on for nothing because there's no savoir vivre, no passion. Just me going through the motions.

I think that makes sense, you explained it perfectly imo. I kinda feel the same, ig I should be embarrassed and I am when sb asks me abt it, but for myself I'm not really embarrassed abt it, I just lost the ability to care. I've also lost all the passion and ambition I once had. I hope that things get better for u tho

 

[StarsAbove]

Whenever people ask about my life, even minor things, I'm just filled with shame. I feel like I'm desperately trying to perform being a person and everyone's laughing at how badly I'm doing it. I feel like the embodiment of every cringe compilation and every friendless weirdo. I don't want to be a doomer online who makes their own misery and I don't think I'm that, but describing my life sure makes me feel that way. I don't have any friends at work and I'm not important to the friends I do have.

I can relate a little too much. I seem to feel awkward and uncomfortable most of the time and cant help but look at every experience I have had that way. I try to put myself out there anyway and be cheery when I dont feel like it, and I think it maybe comes off disingenuous or annoying, but it's either that or bum everyone out.

 

[Necessary Evil]

hey so this is how i feel right now. ive been used my entire life. i feel like i was born to suffer. i never tell anyone my problems because i feel so embarassed of being so useless and miserable. it also makes me feel so ashamed to think about all the times i let people walk all over me just because i was afraid of being alone and sad.