Anyone else embarrassed by their life?

[deadanddecomposing]

Whenever people ask about my life, even minor things, I'm just filled with shame. I feel like I'm desperately trying to perform being a person and everyone's laughing at how badly I'm doing it. I feel like the embodiment of every cringe compilation and every friendless weirdo. I don't want to be a doomer online who makes their own misery and I don't think I'm that, but describing my life sure makes me feel that way. I don't have any friends at work and I'm not important to the friends I do have.

 

[lastappleonearth]

Whenever people ask about my life, even minor things, I'm just filled with shame. I feel like I'm desperately trying to perform being a person and everyone's laughing at how badly I'm doing it. I feel like the embodiment of every cringe compilation and every friendless weirdo. I don't want to be a doomer online who makes their own misery and I don't think I'm that, but describing my life sure makes me feel that way. I don't have any friends at work and I'm not important to the friends I do have.

Yes I relate to that a lot, i dread when relatives ask me sth abt my life. Usually i have absolutely nothing to say, bcs literally nothings happening. I don't know how i ended up like that

 

[deadanddecomposing]

Yes I relate to that a lot, i dread when relatives ask me sth abt my life. Usually i have absolutely nothing to say, bcs literally nothings happening. I don't know how i ended up like that

Exactly! Being asked about your life by relatives is the worst. I'll be feeling good about myself and then it all comes crashing down. My grandparents are pretty disappointed in my siblings and me for how we turned out. We're not ivy league students or doctors. My brother works at a pizza shop and I'm barely passing college, dragging my feet towards a teaching degree.

 

[MrMegalomaniac]

I feel embarrassed that I was ever worried about any of the things that ate me up.
Other than that I don't feel shame, regret or deep embarrassment.

 

[thelostautistic]

I really relate to how you're feeling. I'm sorry you're dealing with the same thing. I feel so embarrassed about my life especially before being diagnosed with Autism. Those 23 years felt like a humiliation ritual

 

[lastappleonearth]

Exactly! Being asked about your life by relatives is the worst. I'll be feeling good about myself and then it all comes crashing down. My grandparents are pretty disappointed in my siblings and me for how we turned out. We're not ivy league students or doctors. My brother works at a pizza shop and I'm barely passing college, dragging my feet towards a teaching degree.

Yes it's the worst. I mean I kinda get it, but often it just feels like they try to make u feel even worse abt yourself for some reason. Idk, ig one has to be lucky to have kind relatives

 

[gonnaAbstract]

Whenever people ask about my life, even minor things, I'm just filled with shame. I feel like I'm desperately trying to perform being a person and everyone's laughing at how badly I'm doing it. I feel like the embodiment of every cringe compilation and every friendless weirdo. I don't want to be a doomer online who makes their own misery and I don't think I'm that, but describing my life sure makes me feel that way. I don't have any friends at work and I'm not important to the friends I do have.

Absolutely. I have lolcow traits, my life is falling apart, I wish I was someone else, I cannot escape myself.

 

[Oblivionetc]

I'm not important to the friends I do have.

feel the same way. I thought I had friends, but after a separation they all ghosted me

 

[Spite]

I sure am. I look back on my past blunders and social failures and feel like a colossol fuck-up. I also feel like in some ways my life could be better but I foolishly squandered the chances that I had when I was younger.

Half of me feels like I deserve my shitty life because I'm stupid and I've made stupid decisions in the past, the other half of me feels like I don't deserve it because I never chose to live with various mental illnesses, I never chose to be autistic, I never chose to be predisposed towards being very shy and introverted.

It's conflicting.

 

[hurts2b]

I'm about to be homeless. You bet your ass I'm embarrassed by my life. Unending failure. That's what I am. Unending failure.

 

[x9x99988]

Yes I relate to that a lot, i dread when relatives ask me sth abt my life. Usually i have absolutely nothing to say, bcs literally nothings happening. I don't know how i ended up like that

Same

 

[limenlux]

My background is eclectic to the point that people often don't believe I've pursued the things I have until I present them with proof, at which point it becomes terribly embarrassing to stand before them having miserably failed to achieve even a modicum of success at anything.

After becoming disabled, the bitter sting of disappointment has worn off to a certain extent, and I often joke that it's perfectly acceptable to be in such a wretched state because I have a doctor's note.

 

[valar_morghulis21]

I just lie about tired from working most of the time. Don't even have a job, but it provides a justification to why I look depressed and tired. Also most people lead an insignificant life so who are they to judge? I figure out after years of being a people pleaser is that no one likes a suicidal person. My facade of having it together and don't give a fuck about anything actually works in my favor. So I'll just keep doing it until my ctb plan is finalized. It is a lonely life for sure, but it was worse when I surrounded myself with the wrong crowd.

 

[TwistedNightmares]

When people ask me about my life, it definitely makes me feel uncomfortable, and also I feel shame and embarrassment, so I suppose I feel similar. I do nothing for a living, and I don't have a social life either. I usually lie to strangers about what I do so they don't question further.