
StrangeAndDeath
Exhausted Human
- Oct 12, 2022
- 118
I no longer have energy to pursue any goals. 2 years ago, I was still suicidal but I was religious so I had a bit more delusional motivation. That motivation helped me to write the national university admission exam. I came out among the top 0.1%. but I still didn't enjoy the success. Fast forward two years, because of covid and lecturer strikes, I'm still in the first year semester.
But I have changed a lot. I'm no longer Christian or interested in staying alive any longer. I'm just tired. And now, exams are coming closer and I cannot will myself to read. I scrape the bottom of my guts to find the guts to even attend class, when I bother to attend at all.
Undoubtedly, there are people here who find it difficult to do things like me and they, like me, are not disabled. I just want to hear you
But I have changed a lot. I'm no longer Christian or interested in staying alive any longer. I'm just tired. And now, exams are coming closer and I cannot will myself to read. I scrape the bottom of my guts to find the guts to even attend class, when I bother to attend at all.
Undoubtedly, there are people here who find it difficult to do things like me and they, like me, are not disabled. I just want to hear you