Discussion "Where do you see yourself in 10 years?"

[VIBRITANNIA]

preferably dead. but a few years back i said i couldn't imagine living for another three years and yet here i am, so i'll probably be just as miserable as i am now.

 

[alexit]

Has anyone ever been asked a question like this, or even about something in the not-too-distant future, such as the upcoming semester of classes and asking what your plans are and what you see yourself doing a few years from now. I would imagine questions like this are difficult for most of us, because I know I don't see myself still breathing in 10 years, let alone 1 year.

I just chuckle when they ask me this.

 

[XYZ]

I literally don't know if I will be alive tomorrow. It all depends on my my partner's owner's decision. When they pull the strings of the puppet to hurry up, puppet tells me to stop delaying my death, and I die.


Will you be given a funeral?

I suppose they will discard my remains somehow, but my partner wouldn't be allowed to give me a funeral. Their owner doesn't like anything that shows I existed.

Can I just say this is one of the most heartbreaking things I have read on this forum? I mean most of us at least exercise agency over our actions. Forgive me for my intrusion, but when you say "owner" it makes me think of a sect. Is that the case? If yes... then... oh boy :(

I'd love to be dead in 10 years, but will I ever be brave enough to ctb? Maybe I'll still be posting on this site.

You took the words right out of my mouth. I am finding it harder and harder to fight SI. It's the darndest thing. The more my health deteriorates, the more I lose the strength to fight SI. I am living in a vegetative state, going through the motions, too depressed to take any kind of action, even end my own suffering.

 

[TAW122]

Most likely dead. I don't see myself lasting very long if things continue to suck in the coming year or so. I have my method and when the time and circumstance is right, I will CTB. I also don't plan on living until old age, no interest in doing so with declining health as well as loss of physical and mental capacity.

 

[BPD Barbie]

I hate this question because when you give an honest answer about where you see yourself, especially when suicidal, it's laughed at and dismissed as being dramatic.

 

[Infinite Conscious]

In see myself in a kindergarten, in a new incarnation cycle, not remembering any of this...

Unfortunately.

I would much rather not exist at all, in the void of infinite nothingness.

 

[soundsofsilence]

I see myself long gone.
My ashes helping the plants to grow.
Completely forgotten.

 

[woxihuanni]

Can I just say this is one of the most heartbreaking things I have read on this forum? I mean most of us at least exercise agency over our actions. Forgive me for my intrusion, but when you say "owner" it makes me think of a sect. Is that the case? If yes... then... oh boy :(


You took the words right out of my mouth. I am finding it harder and harder to fight SI. It's the darndest thing. The more my health deteriorates, the more I lose the strength to fight SI. I am living in a vegetative state, going through the motions, too depressed to take any kind of action, even end my own suffering.

Thank you for saying this, it is like this situation is so bad that even here it is too awkward to tell or acknowledge. So I appreciate you recognising it.

It is not a religious sect but how these people function is very similar, so I don't know what to call it other than owner. Whatever this person says, my partner does.

 

[Numbtopain97]

I see myself dead.

 

[Incorrigible77777]

I literally don't know if I will be alive tomorrow. It all depends on my my partner's owner's decision. When they pull the strings of the puppet to hurry up, puppet tells me to stop delaying my death, and I die.


Will you be given a funeral?

I suppose they will discard my remains somehow, but my partner wouldn't be allowed to give me a funeral. Their owner doesn't like anything that shows I existed.

Yes. And I even went to Yishan Funeral House in Minhang District on Monday, where I believe my funeral will be held and I'll be cremated.

 

[woxihuanni]

Yes. And I even went to Yishan Funeral House in Minhang District on Monday, where I believe my funeral will be held and I'll be cremated.
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It must be extremely nice to know you will have a funeral. I'm not allowed a funeral.

 

[Incorrigible77777]

It must be extremely nice to know you will have a funeral. I'm not allowed a funeral.

Why not? Because of pandemic? We also have limits due to pandemic in Shanghai. But it's about number of people attending. Only up to 10 (or probably 20?) people are allowed to enter.

 

[almost_dead]

Has anyone ever been asked a question like this, or even about something in the not-too-distant future, such as the upcoming semester of classes and asking what your plans are and what you see yourself doing a few years from now. I would imagine questions like this are difficult for most of us, because I know I don't see myself still breathing in 10 years, let alone 1 year.

same . I would prolly meet yall in void

 

[woxihuanni]

Why not? Because of pandemic? We also have limits due to pandemic in Shanghai. But it's about number of people attending. Only up to 10 (or probably 20?) people are allowed to enter.

Not the pandemic. My partner's owner decides when I die, as well as things like if I get a funeral. In a nutshell, I don't get anything.

 

[I screwed up]

Gone and forgotten

 

[BehindTheWall]

To be honest, I think I'Il be dead. I know it's easy to say but that's what I think.

 

[Blueman]

I suspect I'll be dead am 55 now. After a pretty good life I've found myself for the first time long term unemployed, with real money problems, depressed, not socializing, not exercising.
Unsure if I can/want to CTB but can really feel my body and mind rapidly weakening its quite scary

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

In 10 years I'll be dead 10 years and the world will have forgotten me, if it ever noticed my presence at all

 

[Help_Me]

In a grave

 

[FallingFree]

Dead

 

[Ksab]

In a graveyard maybe??

 

[Spitfire]

If I had been asked something along this line of question about three years ago, I would have (did) know the answer back then, and it clashes for me to the current reality taking place as of today. I am not sure why?

I honestly feel as though for some strange reason I will still actually be alive here in ten years. I do not care either way, wether or not I am alive vs gone from here by death, in five, ten, or one more years.. no matter.

I thought it interesting, how the realities of the moment we are all present in together, even if momentarily only just for now.. it is 100% in a stark contrast to the reality of three years ago, for me.

I think I will be alive though, if this is what you are asking? I have to head out to work right now at this moment, so I did not get to spend time reading the replies from other people on this thread yet, but I will when I get some time later on in the day today.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

If not dead, then I had better be married to the love of my life and in stable enough conditions to start a family.

 

[InevitablePattern91]

In the cemetery.

 

[Homecoming]

Inside a small porcelain urn

 

[Incorrigible77777]

Not the pandemic. My partner's owner decides when I die, as well as things like if I get a funeral. In a nutshell, I don't get anything.

Partner's owner? What's that? Parent? Spouse? I didn't get it.

 

[NoneMoreNegative]

Yea, got this one asked quite a few times.
There is a high probability that i will end up as plant food.

 

[AnnonyBox]

Being nutrients for a tree, hopefully. I'd like to be planted in a bios urn, so at least I'll have done something good for once. Haven't decided on the kind of tree I'd like to feed, if I'm given a choice.

 

[woxihuanni]

Partner's owner? What's that? Parent? Spouse? I didn't get it.

Search me, this is an 'ex' partner who is married to somebody else, and providing their sexual services to that somebody else. Still, they completely own and control my partner. Hence 'owner'.

 

[LenkaX]

Definitely and utterly dead.