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uta

uta

Member
Feb 21, 2025
20
Always 8.5
I have my method ready to go, with backup options, but I'm delaying indeterminately because I have family who'd be devastated and haven't overcome that concern
 
Homulily

Homulily

Witch of the Mortal World
Jun 1, 2023
78
I really like this scale for trying to place my emotions and level of distress.

Where are you guys today?

edit: a couple of people are saying 10, keep in mind this means that you're literally trying to kill yourself right now

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8.
Panic spiral and self loathing spiral. Self harmed a lot. I feel awful and want a hug but I know I'm not good enough to reach out to anyone right now so instead of bothering anyone I cut a lot and punched myself. My heart is racing and I just want to hear my partners voice but I don't think I'm good enough for that and she's probably busy and I should punish myself more for thinking of bothering her. I need to be punished and I've been punishing myself lots tonight but it's not enough. I want to make myself vomit to get the food in my stomach out of me so I can be skinny but I don't want to ruin my teeth. I just want to hear her voice but I shouldn't call her since she's probably asleep or busy and I don't want to bother her. So I'll be good and I'll be quiet and just think about her.
I don't want to be overwhelming.
 
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iamanavalanche

iamanavalanche

fast words, deliverance
May 20, 2024
95
5 at the moment but can go to 8 depending on how my day goes
 
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supremacyofdeath

Member
Apr 16, 2025
26
Today has been a 6. Not too bad. But I wish it could be better.
 
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notrllycherub

notrllycherub

Apr 18, 2025
12
Usually I'm at a 4-5, a few days ago I was at an 8 and right now I'm at a 6
 
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SoulWhisperer

SoulWhisperer

Severe Medical Phobia « MtF »
Nov 13, 2023
470
I would say probably 6 or 7. (Little did I realise this post was from 2020, welp 😭)
 
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arelia

Tired
Aug 18, 2019
124
8.
Panic spiral and self loathing spiral. Self harmed a lot. I feel awful and want a hug but I know I'm not good enough to reach out to anyone right now so instead of bothering anyone I cut a lot and punched myself. My heart is racing and I just want to hear my partners voice but I don't think I'm good enough for that and she's probably busy and I should punish myself more for thinking of bothering her. I need to be punished and I've been punishing myself lots tonight but it's not enough. I want to make myself vomit to get the food in my stomach out of me so I can be skinny but I don't want to ruin my teeth. I just want to hear her voice but I shouldn't call her since she's probably asleep or busy and I don't want to bother her. So I'll be good and I'll be quiet and just think about her.
I don't want to be overwhelming.
fwiw, you are never not good enough for a hug (is that even in english? but hopefully you'll get what I mean), so I'm sending you one through the ethernet.
(and to anyone else who needs one right now, I'm send you a hug too. My secret sauce is giving hugs on request.)
 
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wasted0906

wasted0906

I'll try to make the sky prettier
Feb 17, 2025
10
rn 8.
i like that scale it represents so well every stage ill save it for sure
 
Chaosire

Chaosire

Literally insane, legally speaking
Sep 23, 2024
134
I'm generally between 8 and 10. Maybe on a good day, I can get down to a 7 or even a 6, but it's rare.
Though, don't really know how to grade myself. I'm planning to end it and working towards it, but it's via the right channels to do it legally via euthanasia.
 
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toanachreoninhell

Member
Feb 22, 2025
12
9. I've said my goodbyes today. I hoping to overdose with my head in a noose to try and mitigate the SI.
 
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x3la

x3la

Member
Feb 8, 2025
26
Between 6 and 7 for as long as i can remember. Self-harmed for the first (but probably not the last) time yesterday.
 
3FailedAttemptss

3FailedAttemptss

trans girl (`・ω・´)
Jan 22, 2025
92
7/8, I think I'd jump from 8 to 10 whenever the time comes.

I don't think I can ever be a 9, I just can't make plans- I'm too fucked in the head
 
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