When’s the last time you felt good? But like really good, not just ok

[Nlis2244]

The last time i felt consistently, genuinely happy for an long period of time was in elementary school, 8 years ago. I had friends and was carefree. I then moved to another town and every year i had less and less friends until around 3 years ago i had none. In these 8 years i have been happy various times, but it was always tainted by loneliness and sense of inadequacy to life.

 

[Orbitc]

The last time I was really happy was ages ago, I don't even know why or when I was happy, I'm not even ok, I just exist in all of this chaos. I have to physically force myself to laugh or smile, everyone keeps telling me to smile more and be happy. I can't, I just can't force it anymore.

this is the crappiest part of life - when they ask you how you are doing and you with smile pretend that everything is fine

 

[Meaningless_guy]

The last time I felt really good was in 2019 when the girl I loved (it was not reciprocated) left me her jacket because I was cold and feeling bad, I knew she didn't like me because she had already told me, but for me that moment was very happy and sad at the same time, like a bittersweet taste , after that moment my heart rotted due to my daily suffering due to that same girl and betrayals from important friends, all of this together made me die inside, I am no longer capable of being happy, I can only feel sadness, anger, bitterness or just nothing.
Today I can't talk to that girl anymore because I'm retarded and I passed my problems on to her, which made her feel guilty for my suffering and ended up not spending time with me anymore, which only made it worse, I never told anyone about my suffering which I think made it even worse.

 

[azo]

August 2019. One day my mental state was honestly pretty okay— in fact, I remember feeling intensely happy and motivated that day— and the next, it felt like my entire world had been replaced with something different, something darker. Like my consciousness had been muted, or like I'd gotten stuck inside a bad dream.

I know the feeling with the veil

A veil is exactly how I described it in my journal when it happened. And it descended so quickly and without warning. But now I can hardly remember what life was like without it. I've just gotten used to it, I guess. I guess a lot of us have.

 

[venin]

this is the crappiest part of life - when they ask you how you are doing and you with smile pretend that everything is fine

 

[Starry✧･ﾟDaze]

i would have to say when I was in the military. I always had a rough time around people and my job was perfect to spend time by myself for long periods of time.

I was a cook on a submarine making 150 meals a day everyday. The cooks kitchen also was only big enough for them and that's it. I either worked 7 am- 7 pm or visa versa. I loved doing it because I had to cook great meals.

My best times is when I've spent a lot of work and someone comes and tells me my cooking was awesome. For example 1 person told me my cookies were just like his grandma made. I was proud of myself for putting in so much work and also be successful at it. Those were my good times

Those times were usually ruined when other people got involved…

The cookie story is so wholesome and touching somehow ♡

In fact, all stories in this thread are.

 

[Orbitc]

I can imagine that this is only hypothetical. I never had happy moments - my head is full of thoughts about how much I hate my job all the time. But I have no opportunity to find an equally well-paid job in another field. I try to distract myself by reading some shit on twitter or watching movies, but everything makes me sick.

 

[venin]

August 2019. One day my mental state was honestly pretty okay— in fact, I remember feeling intensely happy and motivated that day— and the next, it felt like my entire world had been replaced with something different, something darker. Like my consciousness had been muted, or like I'd gotten stuck inside a bad dream.

A veil is exactly how I described it in my journal when it happened. And it descended so quickly and without warning. But now I can hardly remember what life was like without it. I've just gotten used to it, I guess. I guess a lot of us have.

I've had a similar experience. It wasn't from one day to the other but almost like that. Like something broke inside of me and spilled everything with shades of black and grey.

Hope we get to see things without the veil once again

I can imagine that this is only hypothetical. I never had happy moments - my head is full of thoughts about how much I hate my job all the time. But I have no opportunity to find an equally well-paid job in another field. I try to distract myself by reading some shit on twitter or watching movies, but everything makes me sick.

Not even before the job?

 

[BlazingBob]

Probably back in the 90s when I was in my 20s

 

[USER80709]

I don't remember, but it was this year.

 

[𖣂𖣂𖣂.]

Don't remember honestly.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I remember feeling REALLY good about maybe 15 years ago. I went out for a meal with my God parents and everything just felt calm and happy and I suppose I just felt really loved. I miss them.

 

[Shatteredhearts824]

The last time I felt really good was with my ex 1 month ago, and it was on the last time we saw each other before she dumped me.

 

[Takamagahara]

The last time it felt like my ex wanted to be around me, whenever that was. A few years ago at least.

 

[eashanm]

I think the last time would have been the end of 2017, start of 2018

 

[tora]

I honestly can't remember :( some good things still happen in my life, like I go to a fun concert or enjoy a walk with my dog, but the feeling it gives me is so temporary and not enough to make me want to keep living.