Kikoo Loool
Enlightened
- Feb 25, 2019
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As long as I remember I've always hated myself and wanted to die, but never was enough courageous for it.
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Yeah. Describes me exactly. Sorry dude. We were just really unlucky in this life.I considered myself as very intellectual in my childhood. I thought because I was smart, my future would be straight and narrow. Get the straight A, graduate at top school, have the perfect career that makes everyone envy. Never would I imagine things to turn out like this! Severely depressed, stuck in unhappy circumstances, be the target of shaming from all family, and feeling suicidal on daily basis.
I feel even more depressed after writing this. I wish all of these are just a dream. A really bad one. I want to wake up and face different reality, anything!
I think it could be my case also. At that age my parents got separated. It could be the start. But I didn't know the existence of suicide. I tried to harm myself without eating a day or two. But I still didn't know how to do it. As a kid and a teen, I didn't have internet (it wasn't available in the 90's ... yes bbs)My chronic depression started at age of 10 I believe, but of course in that age I probably didn't know what is suicide etc.