when you think about taking your own life, how do you feel?

[LonelyPrince]

this thought was heavy on my mind this morning. when i think about my suicide, i start thinking about how everyone around me would feel, the funeral, autopsy, everything. i feel relief, but i also can't help feeling a little bit of sadness and fear for what's after this.

disappointment but also relief

 

[snow leopard]

When i think about being dead i feel relieved. This planet is cursed and i want just to leave, but can't while my mom is alive. It would probably suck for my sister but we are not really that close, she comes home for holidays but works in different country, have a boyfriend and a job so complete opposite of me. She don't understand how i feel but i think she would get over it.

 

[interna]

guilty because i will ruin my loved ones' lives. relieved because it'll be over.

 

[silenthill3]

Mixed bag of emotions but comfort for sure.

 

[VoidBlessed]

Scared but excited. Since I learned what death was all I've ever truly wanted was to know what's on the other side.

 

[kitkat9234]

Mostly scared. Scared of failing, scared of the dying process with SN, scared about what happens if I'm sucessful, where will I go?

Worried about my daughter even though she wants nothing to do with me and is better off without me. Feeling shitty about leaving my affairs for my mom to settle out.

I wish I could just turn my brain off and just do it already. Or get to the point where I no longer care.

 

[kuroshimi]

I have very mixed feelings. Of course, it fascinates me in some way, because I won't have to worry about anything in file anymore. But at the same time I feel scared and guilty for my family and friends. The main things that really bothers me is that life will continue, just not for me. And I guess because of it my pain will pass to my family and friends and they will have to deal with it.

 

[metfan647]

Relief. It'd make me a bit sad years back but I think that was just the bit of delusional ego left in me which had some vain hope I could amount to something.

 

[amor.dor]

I feel good because I know I won't have any more wear and tear in my life, no worries about the future, the economy, violence... and I will go in peace, because my method is to drink and die quickly.

My family will miss me, but their lives won't stop because I die — that's what I hope. Since it's been a year since I moved and I only respond on weekends, I think it will take a while for them to realize I'm dead. I was never very close to my family anyway. The only person I truly loved very much is already gone.
Every day I look at my method, until I stop feeling any anxiety.