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I know it's weird to say! To clarify, I am not religious whatsoever. I am an atheist, and believe in nothing after death, and I like it that way! I'm not scared of death one bit. The part that scares me is not being with my beloved one anymore.

I know I wouldn't miss anyone when I would be nothing, but I can't help but feel scared about that anyway. I don't want to lose someone I adore so much. Sometimes I wish there was an afterlife solely so that we could be together again, even though I WANT to be nothing.

They're very against me looking at this site, even though I never told them the name itself. They hate the idea of it, and I don't blame them. But sometimes, I think about how much I must be disappointing them for bringing my feelings here. They get so sad when I talk to them about it, obviously, and I don't want to hurt them more than I already am.

Feelings SUCK! The one thing about death I'm sad about is not being with them anymore. That's all, really
 
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