shay23

shay23

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Nov 2, 2020
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I honestly do not know or have any memories where at the time I was happy.
 
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liluglibih

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Jul 14, 2020
55
The first time I tried shrooms around this time last year. For about 2 months I felt the best I had felt since I was a kid.. been trying get more ever since, that stuff is so hard to find though and I have no social life so that makes it like 10x harder to come across
 
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illbeinthegarage

illbeinthegarage

funs fun but who needs it
Jun 14, 2020
316
happy? da fug is that
 
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Ghost2211

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Jan 20, 2020
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I was stoned the other day and made some spaghetti. I put some parmesan cheese on it, and it was awesome. Still had munchies so had some ice cream too. Then I came on here and joked with you guys. That was a legit happy evening.
 
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stygal

stygal

low-wage worker
Oct 29, 2020
1,732
It was around 2001-2007: I was a little girl and my mom would take me on a holiday to a farm during the summer breaks year after year. I used to know many of the other children/guests who also returned nearly every year. We spent the whole day outside. We'd play, go horse back riding, swimming in the lake or jump on a giant trampoline in one of the barns, most evenings ended with a bonfire and board games. It became kind of a magical place in my head for me which I visit whenever I'm down.
 
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woxihuanni

woxihuanni

Illuminated
Aug 19, 2019
3,299
I was happy on oct 2 when I managed to get a smoking things bag made for his birthday that was just right. Also for the other presents that was fun to choose/find/make.

I came home laden with presents, he told me he would get rid of me somehow, ate the last of the cookies I had baked and never talked to me again.

And the pot of chillies I got that day have wilted, though I watered it...
 
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Seiniar

Seiniar

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Nov 2, 2020
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Never, there was always a lot of pain in every moment of my life, even during relationships. I had a genuinely happy moment tho when I got my cat from the shelter. That was a big dream of mine since forever.
 
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Kruger

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Dec 26, 2019
482
December 2005
 
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mahakaliSS_MahaDurga

mahakaliSS_MahaDurga

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Apr 2, 2020
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I was happy from October 2nd to October 24th this year. Before that I was happy briefly last year, and before that I think in 2010.
 
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madbananas

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Apr 29, 2020
620
I've had brief happy moments but I wouldn't consider myself ever being "happy" if that makes sense. Even as a child.
 
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mahakaliSS_MahaDurga

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Apr 2, 2020
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I've had brief happy moments but I wouldn't consider myself ever being "happy" if that makes sense. Even as a child.
I envy the people who had happy childhoods.
 
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madbananas

Wizard
Apr 29, 2020
620
I envy the people who had happy childhoods.
Same here. Now I think about it, I've been doomed from the beginning. Even though I wasn't suicidal until I was 11, I reckon I was depressed and anxious from a very young age.
 
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mahakaliSS_MahaDurga

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Apr 2, 2020
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Same here. Now I think about it, I've been doomed from the beginning. Even though I wasn't suicidal until I was 11, I reckon I was depressed and anxious from a very young age.
I was anxious since a very young age too. Always withdrawn and on the sidelines.
 
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madbananas

Wizard
Apr 29, 2020
620
I was anxious since a very young age too. Always withdrawn and on the sidelines.
Hugs. I relate very much to being on the sidelines. A horrible feeling.
 
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mahakaliSS_MahaDurga

mahakaliSS_MahaDurga

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Apr 2, 2020
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Hugs. I relate very much to being on the sidelines. A horrible feeling.
Especially as you get older and you are still on the sidelines.
 
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madbananas

Wizard
Apr 29, 2020
620
Especially as you get older and you are still on the sidelines.
Yup. Never fitting in and made to live a life where we are just treated as worthless.
 
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LostSoul101

Student
Nov 7, 2020
100
I know as a fact that the last time I was happy was one day in March last year but I cannot feel those feelings. I know it was a fact but not a memory.
 
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itachi of death

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Aug 17, 2020
139
2000,when I was 6
 
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Zyntkalla

Zyntkalla

Welcome to hell on Earth
Aug 28, 2020
85
When I was about 3 years old.
 
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heliumornitrogen

Member
Oct 22, 2020
72
I don´t think I´ve ever been really happy, although it´s possible to have moments of happiness and good times, while still being ultimately unhappy and miserable. Usually those good times have always included drugs or alcohol, so not sure if that counts anyway lol
 
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Jul 31, 2020
690
2013 I miss my childhood friend and the moments we played games on the computer
 
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Aurora

Aurora

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Nov 1, 2020
73
In 2014 before my health went to shit.
 
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Studio84

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Sep 7, 2020
8,260
Truly happy eary 2000's, just about coping happy 2010-2019, totally miserable 2020!
 
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DontGiveAshiit

Student
Nov 1, 2020
135
Dont remember when was the last time I was happy, but the next time will be when I get my N
 
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Superdeterminist

Superdeterminist

Enlightened
Apr 5, 2020
1,877
Summer breaks back in highshool when I just played videogames for weeks straight. I wasn't sick with worry back then, the way I am now.
 
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AprilsBlessings

AprilsBlessings

Our tainted history is playing on repeat
Jul 26, 2020
172
It's sad that i can't remember.
 
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