Venting when did it go wrong?

[defrauder9000]

i don't know when did it go wrong. it just wasn't there one time, then it was. it always comes back. and external suffering always comes back. maybe i'm just stupid. idk. i want to kill myself. the ups always make me feel good, but they pale in comparison to the pain. fuck this bullshit.

 

[fedup1982]

Yeah I'm a negative utilitarian too. Worse times overcome the good times. A lion gets some joy eating, but its prey suffers far far more. That pretty sums up life for me