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Lolapeeps

Member
Oct 2, 2019
17
I gambled away over a million £. Ruined my life.
 
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killedbypsychiatry

killedbypsychiatry

drugging kids is abuse
Jan 27, 2021
797
Listening to psychiatrist and a therapist (I was forced to see them)
 
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Lady black

Lady black

35 male, central Europe, German speaking
Oct 22, 2018
1,192
Being still alive
 
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Brink

Brink

Exhausted. RadHomo.
Feb 11, 2020
625
Using the fact that there are so many stupid and exploitative things about the world as an excuse to not focus on my shitty conduct and personal failings. I've done this throughout my early/mid-20s, and now it's too late.
 
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SuicidalCurryBoy

Member
Aug 22, 2020
27
Letting my mother talk to my crush
 
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hfdepression30

hfdepression30

Experienced
Mar 30, 2021
236
Even though it's not a singular "f*ck up moment', I think just not having the confidence to raise my hand, ask questions, stick up for myself and not give into anxiety and insecurity would've made a big impact on how I grew up. Perhaps then I would've been more passionate, more cultured, and less ashamed. I grew up with no real hobbies, dreams, ambitions or anything. Since age 13, 17 years, I've just been consumed by dark thoughts, depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts. It's just the way I'm conditioned at this point.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
19,822
Not being fast enough.
 
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GenesAndEnvironment

GenesAndEnvironment

Autistic loser
Jan 26, 2021
5,743
Not being strong enough.
 
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orlandom

orlandom

Mage
Mar 4, 2021
514
I didn't want to know what it means to be betrayed in love
 
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Bat 17

Bat 17

Bat 17
Mar 30, 2021
307
Botched marriage
 
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WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,165
Having gained 65 pounds in 5 years.
 
Bat 17

Bat 17

Bat 17
Mar 30, 2021
307
Not really but now it could be!
I guess the main problem was a sedentary life and terrible diet. I can be really lazy lol.
Right! It's just I've put about that amount of weight on in the last year, mainly due to olanzapine !
 
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demuic

demuic

Life was a mistake
Sep 12, 2020
1,384
Even though it's not a singular "f*ck up moment', I think just not having the confidence to raise my hand, ask questions, stick up for myself and not give into anxiety and insecurity would've made a big impact on how I grew up. Perhaps then I would've been more passionate, more cultured, and less ashamed. I grew up with no real hobbies, dreams, ambitions or anything. Since age 13, 17 years, I've just been consumed by dark thoughts, depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts. It's just the way I'm conditioned at this point.
I feel this way as well. But I don't know how things could have been different.
 
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Trisolaris

Trisolaris

Arcanist
Dec 11, 2018
447
Trying to get back on antidepressants after I had a hard time getting off them. Had a bad reaction that didn't go away. That was more than a year ago.
 
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PeaceSeeker786

Member
Jan 30, 2021
9
Without going into detail , being an ungrateful git who didn't realise how good things are and now facing a very bleak future . Unfortunately time machines don't work.
 
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Phoenix

Student
Feb 27, 2021
153
Failing multiple suicide attempts resulting in still being alive.... or being born
 
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lofticries

lofticries

obedear
Feb 27, 2021
1,471
I regret not getting into a hobby/talent at a young age. Something that I can take pride in and give me relevance in life. Not to be dramatic but I envy those people who will literally die for their craft/art/whatever while shunning the outside world. Basically I want something to obsess over rather than my stupid mental illnesses.
 
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sadbadpsychogirl

sadbadpsychogirl

sonofabitch
May 29, 2020
725
selling myself short/ amphetamine addiction
 
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EmptyManForever

My wings were cut and now I can fly no more!
Oct 3, 2020
141
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insanedoomer

insanedoomer

Zé"HaZarD
Jan 10, 2021
244
being born
 
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Beachedwhale

Mage
Mar 3, 2021
526
Playing by the rules too much.

Not taking care of my body

For years missing a golden opportunity for happiness and success that most people dream of

Not processing my past pain

Taking an antidepressant pill
 
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Lucien

Lucien

A Nameless Monster
Mar 7, 2021
130
For me it's not ending it a couple of years back. To add insult to injury I probably missed out on some convenient methods. Now I'm stuck with drowning as my go-to since at least it's highly lethal. Don't trust I'll get over the SI barrier for carotid severing to work as intended. I have some personal issues with the other popular methods, like for example becoming too obsessed with the details of a hanging setup and entirely forgetting the point is to actually ctb. Pretty sure it will have to be something 'impulsive' for me since it comes down to cheating survival instinct. Waiting for it to diminish naturally or through philosophy seems like a fantasy.
 
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Makko

Makko

Iä!
Jan 17, 2021
2,430
I've been looking for an answer to this question all my adult life and I haven't found anything. No matter how critically I look at myself, there's really nothing that I could have done better or differently in any way that mattered, and in any way that was in my power. I don't have any visible reason or excuse for holding life in contempt the way I do.
 
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Superdeterminist

Superdeterminist

Enlightened
Apr 5, 2020
1,837
When I threw my SN away.
 
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Canon1

Student
Dec 2, 2019
184
Doing drugs in puberty.
 
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Bedrock48

Bedrock48

Dreadful damage, dreadful destiny
Feb 1, 2021
539
Not finding a way to move out for college
 
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voyager

voyager

Don't you dare go hollow...
Nov 25, 2019
965
Taking drugs at 16. Didn't take too well to it. Have had mental impairments ever since. Got my mhi, became a recluse, barely ate, didn't take care of myself and let my physical health issues go untreated. When I reemerged five years later the damage had been done and I was set for life.
 
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Toptock

Experienced
Jun 6, 2020
292
Didn't take finances seriously enough and ended up tanking my credit, it's rippled out so much i can't rent an apartment or buy a home. I can fix it with time, but i am self aware enough to know this drive will fade quickly, and it wont matter as my timeline prevents me from finding a place in time. It's better for everyone if i just check out. I have routinely made bad calls, from my degree choice to who i dated. I fully accept that it was all my doing, but it hurts
 
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