What's your biggest fu## up in life?

[Lolapeeps]

I gambled away over a million £. Ruined my life.

 

[killedbypsychiatry]

Listening to psychiatrist and a therapist (I was forced to see them)

 

[Lady black]

Being still alive

 

[Brink]

Using the fact that there are so many stupid and exploitative things about the world as an excuse to not focus on my shitty conduct and personal failings. I've done this throughout my early/mid-20s, and now it's too late.

 

[SuicidalCurryBoy]

Letting my mother talk to my crush

 

[hfdepression30]

Even though it's not a singular "f*ck up moment', I think just not having the confidence to raise my hand, ask questions, stick up for myself and not give into anxiety and insecurity would've made a big impact on how I grew up. Perhaps then I would've been more passionate, more cultured, and less ashamed. I grew up with no real hobbies, dreams, ambitions or anything. Since age 13, 17 years, I've just been consumed by dark thoughts, depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts. It's just the way I'm conditioned at this point.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Not being fast enough.

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

Not being strong enough.

 

[orlandom]

I didn't want to know what it means to be betrayed in love

 

[Bat 17]

Botched marriage

 

[WornOutLife]

Having gained 65 pounds in 5 years.

 

[Bat 17]

Having gained 65 pounds in 5 years.

Medication ?

 

[WornOutLife]

Medication ?

Not really but now it could be!
I guess the main problem was a sedentary life and terrible diet. I can be really lazy lol.

 

[Bat 17]

Not really but now it could be!
I guess the main problem was a sedentary life and terrible diet. I can be really lazy lol.

Right! It's just I've put about that amount of weight on in the last year, mainly due to olanzapine !

 

[demuic]

Even though it's not a singular "f*ck up moment', I think just not having the confidence to raise my hand, ask questions, stick up for myself and not give into anxiety and insecurity would've made a big impact on how I grew up. Perhaps then I would've been more passionate, more cultured, and less ashamed. I grew up with no real hobbies, dreams, ambitions or anything. Since age 13, 17 years, I've just been consumed by dark thoughts, depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts. It's just the way I'm conditioned at this point.

I feel this way as well. But I don't know how things could have been different.

 

[Trisolaris]

Trying to get back on antidepressants after I had a hard time getting off them. Had a bad reaction that didn't go away. That was more than a year ago.

 

[PeaceSeeker786]

Without going into detail , being an ungrateful git who didn't realise how good things are and now facing a very bleak future . Unfortunately time machines don't work.

 

[Phoenix]

Failing multiple suicide attempts resulting in still being alive.... or being born

 

[lofticries]

I regret not getting into a hobby/talent at a young age. Something that I can take pride in and give me relevance in life. Not to be dramatic but I envy those people who will literally die for their craft/art/whatever while shunning the outside world. Basically I want something to obsess over rather than my stupid mental illnesses.

 

[sadbadpsychogirl]

selling myself short/ amphetamine addiction

 

[EmptyManForever]

Listening to psychiatrist

Same here and taking those psych meds was probably the biggest thing that f*d me up

 

[insanedoomer]

being born

 

[Beachedwhale]

Playing by the rules too much.

Not taking care of my body

For years missing a golden opportunity for happiness and success that most people dream of

Not processing my past pain

Taking an antidepressant pill

 

[Lucien]

For me it's not ending it a couple of years back. To add insult to injury I probably missed out on some convenient methods. Now I'm stuck with drowning as my go-to since at least it's highly lethal. Don't trust I'll get over the SI barrier for carotid severing to work as intended. I have some personal issues with the other popular methods, like for example becoming too obsessed with the details of a hanging setup and entirely forgetting the point is to actually ctb. Pretty sure it will have to be something 'impulsive' for me since it comes down to cheating survival instinct. Waiting for it to diminish naturally or through philosophy seems like a fantasy.

 

[Makko]

I've been looking for an answer to this question all my adult life and I haven't found anything. No matter how critically I look at myself, there's really nothing that I could have done better or differently in any way that mattered, and in any way that was in my power. I don't have any visible reason or excuse for holding life in contempt the way I do.

 

[Superdeterminist]

When I threw my SN away.

 

[Canon1]

Doing drugs in puberty.

 

[Bedrock48]

Not finding a way to move out for college

 

[voyager]

Taking drugs at 16. Didn't take too well to it. Have had mental impairments ever since. Got my mhi, became a recluse, barely ate, didn't take care of myself and let my physical health issues go untreated. When I reemerged five years later the damage had been done and I was set for life.

 

[Toptock]

Didn't take finances seriously enough and ended up tanking my credit, it's rippled out so much i can't rent an apartment or buy a home. I can fix it with time, but i am self aware enough to know this drive will fade quickly, and it wont matter as my timeline prevents me from finding a place in time. It's better for everyone if i just check out. I have routinely made bad calls, from my degree choice to who i dated. I fully accept that it was all my doing, but it hurts