Discussion What's your 13 reasons why? Just type, don't overthink it

[LRkin]

1) I hate myself enough to wish I was dead
2) I hate people enough, so I don't want to see them again
3) I hate my life choices, and I can't do shit about it
4) Our timeline is cursed, and it bothers me
5) Despite #2, I feel lonely
6) I see no reason to move on. Solving problems causes more problems. They won't stop coming. What's the point?
7) There's no hope that things will get any better
8) Some people are just destined to catch the bus, and it feels like I won that ticket
9) I feel no joy
10) My life is insignificant
11) We'll all die at some point. At least I am the one who decides how I'll die
12) I just want it to stop
13) I don't want to die old and frail

 

[misfit toy]

Just one. I inherited mental illness. Without that I would probably in a position to overcome life's challenges. With it, I am anxious and in my own head every day. It is a terrible way to live.

 

[TAW122]

I have many reasons, but ultimately whether I have 1, 13, or however many (or less) reasons, my decision to CTB is still at the end mine based on my circumstances and whether or not I'm willing to accept continued sentience or an earlier foreclosure on existence itself. So here they are:

1. Lost and failed dreams, fantasies, desires (unfulfilled ones).

2. Bad childhood upbringing and damage was already done, cannot (fully) fix, just damage control and cope.

3. Born as an minority in the US (I'm East Asian), not to say that my life would have been 'easier' or better in other countries, sometimes I wished I wasn't born in the US.

4. Developmental disorder such as Aspergers and other complications, social interactions more challenging.

5. Declining health in various ways, maybe neurological and some more challenges, maybe aging faster.

6. Don't really fit anywhere or really truly accepted (maybe tolerated). Lack of friends or so and outside of family, nobody really talks to me. SaSu is my 2nd home where I feel I 'belong' in a sense.

8. The lack of acceptance of right to die around the world, even in 2026 having to sneak around to plan my CTB.

9. The ignorance of people in society and I'm long tired of 'fighting' their ignorance (pertaining to right to die, but other issues too)

10. Pretty lonely overall and have little relations, then again most people are 'superficial' and I'm tired of it. I can't change this world the way it is, but I can choose to not participate in it 'literally'.

11. Bad family relations and also failed as an adult in many metrics (not just comparing to the most successful people), but even for most ordinary average adults in the US; having one's own place, being able to make ends meet, and more. Still live under parents' roof, which also compounds existing issues.

12. Adult life (barring winning the lottery, financial independence, or just inheriting massive wealth to never work or having to worry about financial stability) just sucks and I am not built for it.

13. After having been sentient for more than 35 years and will soon get to 36 and beyond, I have decided the cost and risks of sentience itself without any kind of fallback (again no voluntary euthanasia and CTB is stigmatized and even punished (can be locked up against one's will) for attempting, failing, or even suspected of having CTB ideation, at least life becomes hard).

There may be more/less reasons, but in the end, doesn't matter because my decision to CTB is still mine and mine alone.

 

[idfwlnh]

isolation
being judged by society
trust issues
anti-social
past
future
anxiety
myself
a burden and disgrace to my family
like non-existence state
hate masking myself 24/7
finance
no goal

 

[sixthgun]

1. I massively fucked up and might not be getting into university which was my one and only reason for living.
2. Chronic pain - I will never be cured, and it will only get worse with age. (I see I'm not alone with this one.)
3. I haven't achieved a single thing that could make me happy - I'm still over my ugw because I won't stop binging (can no longer purge due to fucking up my teeth), I don't have the best grades, I have no money, I'm not particularly skilled at anything.
4. I live in a country that is full of racist, sexist, ableist, lgbtphobic, miserable geezers who want everyone else to be as miserable as they are and, unfortunately, they have succeeded.
5. The economy is fucked and even if I manage to find a job, the chances of me being able to actually survive on that income are low.
6. I'm not attractive and I can't afford cosmetic surgery.
7. Transgender and stuck on the same island as J.K. Rowling.
8. Frequently let down by friends. I recently found out that one of my friends is a racist.
9. I don't feel that I belong in this world. It's probably a childish view of life but I don't feel that I belong here. I love reading webcomics and manga, and it feels so weird that there are all of these amazing worlds with these amazing people, yet this is the one I was born into. I spend much of my day daydreaming.
10. Generally mentally ill, have dealt with depression and BED-turned-bulimia for years.
11. Autistic. I feel like a skinwalker trying to fit in with humans.
12. I will never feel comfortable getting into a relationship or getting married due to 2, 6, 7, 9, 10, and 11. I don't see the point in living if I'm forced to be alone.
13. I'm untalented in everything I care about or attempt.

 

[YourLocalEdgelord]

1. I'm poor
2. Work is mordern slavery
3. Loneliness
4. No energy left
5. Politics
6. Heatwaves
7. Everything is a lie
8. The only person who cares about me will die of old age long before I do
9. Misogyny
10. Psychiatry is not only a scam, it's prison 2.0
11. Doctors don't take me seriously
12. Nobody wants to commit to relationships/friendships anymore
13. Victim blaming

 

[PeaceSeeker83]

1. Life really is pointless.
2. Distractions/interests have a limit.
3. Never asked to be born.
4. Do not want to get old/frail.
5. Unable to be a fake person.
6.The world is not for me.
7. I am not meant for this world.
8. The world is a horrible place.
9. I have severe mental health conditions.
10. Been through too much suffering.
11. Do not want further suffering.
12. The world is getting worse.
13. Humanity should go extinct.

 

[Passenger4224]

1. I hate breathing
2. Autism
3. Dyspraxia
4. OCD
5. Generalized anxiety
6. Auditory processing issues
7. I'm supposed to be a woman not a man
8. People suck (and I'm even worse)
9. I am a loser by popular definition
10. I hate responsibilities
11. Probably several undiagnosed disabilities I'm not aware of
12. I don't want to work for a living
13. Everything listed above is why I will never get married which is the only thing that brings me true joy in life

Would you like 13 more?

 

[ScaredPossum]

1. Immense Anxiety: almost everything pushes me to a near panic, and I hate it.

2. Apathy: my life has felt empty and pointless for awhile. I try to find productive meanings to adhere to, but all of them dont come close to trumping the emptiness I feel

3. Loneliness: I'm surrounded by friends, but a part of me believes I waste space, fill space, and don't matter at all. After everything I've gone through, a part of me deeply believes I don't matter.

4. I feel trapped in my living, financial situation and I just want to be able to stand on my two feet and be free. My parents can be a handful, and we're growing sick of each other.

5. I don't think I've gotten over the SA just yet. The shame and degradation haunts me still. And, I just wanna stop thinking about it. I have a therapist, and a couple of my friends know what happened to me, but getting raped messed me up a little, and I worry they'll come a point I'll get left behind by everyone when ppl expect me to have already move on.

6. I think things will crash and burn later, so I might as well end my life while I still have a roof over my head, a neutral reputation, and a nice haircut :'D

7. Gender dysphoria: the constant mental weight I have to lift to keep the dysphoria from swallowing me whole is immense, and I'm tired of living life feeling ugly and ridiculed.

8. Hehe I'm broke, and I have terrible luck finding and holding a job. Most times it's schedule conflicts, but sometimes it's having a panic attack in a hazmat inside some cramped production line. Thankfully, I still have options to fall back on, and I'm still in uni, but I feel like one day I'll fall to the bottom of the plinko of opportunities and I'll truly be screwed then. I'm not very good at modern living, and I'm impatient to reach a point when I am.

9. ngl, I often get extra suicidal from my hrt-induced pms symptoms. Things hurt, I feel crappy, I get more emotional, and my head hurts like crazy. I also eat sporadically and then feel bloated after the fact. I'm just a little off when that time of the month hits me again q~q

10. Loneliness pt 2: I feel like a freak and socially awkward dumpster fire, and it can feel like I'm damned if I do or dont when meeting new people. People from all walks of my social circle say I might have autism, but I witness so much stigma around having autism, and I don't want ppl to discriminate me MORE (though, if I am autistic, it's probably happening already lol).

11. I'm unremarkable, below average, and kind of a loser. Life is meaningless and I wanna check out any day now ;P

12. Why am I always so tired? Why does my emotional battery crash so quickly? It's like my body forgets to plug the charger every dam night

13. Idk.. mosquitos. they piss me off. There is no god when those things exist.