Whats the best substance 2 kill oneself with

[Dot]

Which is where? Seems it has been taken down.

Yep, this is my plan. Can't get it pure so I'm overcompensating with the dose.

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[wanttogetonthebus]

Which is where? Seems it has been taken down.

Yep, this is my plan. Can't get it pure so I'm overcompensating with the dose.

Only liquid vet N is listed for online sale in the PPH. If you search this forum, you can find the PPH reposted a few times. There's also a recent thread with a link or something to powdered N which became available again on the dark web if you search the forum. Purity I read was 50% at the lowest in the past. There is no powder N providers listed in the PPH however.

 

[wanttogetonthebus]

Which is where? Seems it has been taken down.

Yep, this is my plan. Can't get it pure so I'm overcompensating with the dose.

It hasn't been. If you read the chapter about N word for word, you'll find it.

 

[Istanbulite]

Im thinking in terms off how pain full it is and how easy it is to aquire

are you fighting for Russia?

 

[Forever Sleep]

Oh wow I never considered that possibility of one's metabolism breaking the N down too fast That sounds terrible. Hopefully, you're right about a high enough overdose being enough to counteract that possibility. That's the scary kind of failure that makes me consider a secondary back-up to the N such as drowning after losing consciousness. Ideally, I'd like to purchase and down 4 bottles of N, way more than enough to kill a single person.

I'd hope my SI wouldn't kick in though after drinking it since I will have had more than enough time to reconsider my options to CBT and the N itself would have a sedating effect which I'd hope would actually lower my SI rapidly after it's effects begin to take hold. I don't plan on fighting it, that's for sure. After I drink, I want the whole process to be over with as quick and painlessly as possible. I'd like to flood my brain with as many comforts as possible without thinking about death in my final moments before lights out. I imagine if I'm still conscious after chugging, I'll put on a Youtube video I like to distract myself and drift off while keeping my mind distracted on the video.

Do you have any experience going under full anesthesia before? Personally, I haven't, but I wish I had something like that for reference. I just have to trust the words of others who have went under the knife and came back to tell the tale untraumatized.

I've been under general anaesthetic to have my gallbladder out via keyhole surgery. It was weird but not unpleasant. They gave me 1 codeine beforehand and administered the anaesthetic via a cannula in my hand (not sure what it was- maybe propofol?) It was just a bizarre tingly rush feeling in my temples. I told them I was feeling dizzy- because I didn't know how else to describe it and because I wanted them to know I was still conscious- so not to start! They just said- yes, that's normal- closed my eyes and that was it- when I opened them, the ceiling was moving as they were wheeling me back into the recovery ward.

Had absolutely no idea of how much time had passed or what had happened. I asked why my throat hurt and they said- it would have been the pipe they pushed down my throat to keep me breathing. Felt nothing at all during the surgery and even the recovery was hundreds of times less painful than a gallstone attack. I think it would be a lovely way to go. I'm even jealous of people on death row!

 

[Seeking_Peace]

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