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ikiruNObungaku

ikiruNObungaku

I'm literary nonsense.
Jan 3, 2026
65
More than anything, I would like to die using SN. I think it would be the best way to go for me. However, I think it is impossible to get it in the states, and more impossible to get in Japan once I return there.

So what is the next best thing for me? I would prefer a method like it than other ones. I once heard of a person who used phencyclidine as their get-out method, but I believe that is even harder to get than SN. For a last resort, I would resort to hanging but I would like to keep that as a last resort if nothing else words. Sorry, I do not enjoy pain. One reason I am doing this is to escape pain, so although I am somewhat tolerant, I would not like to go through a very painful method if possible.

Any suggestions?
 
cowlover1252

cowlover1252

Member
Aug 21, 2026
50
More than anything, I would like to die using SN. I think it would be the best way to go for me. However, I think it is impossible to get it in the states, and more impossible to get in Japan once I return there.

So what is the next best thing for me? I would prefer a method like it than other ones. I once heard of a person who used phencyclidine as their get-out method, but I believe that is even harder to get than SN. For a last resort, I would resort to hanging but I would like to keep that as a last resort if nothing else words. Sorry, I do not enjoy pain. One reason I am doing this is to escape pain, so although I am somewhat tolerant, I would not like to go through a very painful method if possible.

Any suggestions?
Many people in the U.S (not sure about japan) have had success ordering SN off of MiC.

As long as they agree to mislabel it to get it through customs, you can get it pretty easily. You just might end up contacting a lot of sellers until you find one.
 
ikiruNObungaku

ikiruNObungaku

I'm literary nonsense.
Jan 3, 2026
65
Many people in the U.S (not sure about japan) have had success ordering SN off of MiC.

As long as they agree to mislabel it to get it through customs, you can get it pretty easily. You just might end up contacting a lot of sellers until you find one.
I am sorry, but I do not know what MiC is. For obvious reasons I am sure you cannot tell me. Hopefully in the future I will discover it.
 
cowlover1252

cowlover1252

Member
Aug 21, 2026
50
I am sorry, but I do not know what MiC is. For obvious reasons I am sure you cannot tell me. Hopefully in the future I will discover it.
Once you get onto the website and start contacting sellers it's a lot easier than you would think. If SN sounds appealing to you, MiC is definitely something to look into.

Something to notice is how people always made the "i" lower case when spelling it 🤔
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
1,220
Based on some of the posts, I think nitrous oxide will be the next best way out.. as it can be used for asphyxiation and is allegedly easily available
I am sorry, but I do not know what MiC is. For obvious reasons I am sure you cannot tell me. Hopefully in the future I will discover it.
To give you a closer hint..almost all your electronics have the full form written on them
 
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ikiruNObungaku

ikiruNObungaku

I'm literary nonsense.
Jan 3, 2026
65
Based on some of the posts, I think nitrous oxide will be the next best way out.. as it can be used for asphyxiation and is allegedly easily available
Nitrous oxide? I never thought about using that before in such a manner. It is surprising since I am so familiar with it back when I wanted to be a chemist. That is interesting! I will look more into it.

Something to notice is how people always made the "i" lower case when spelling it
To give you a closer hint..almost all your electronics have the full form written on them
Ahhh, I see! That helped me figure it out, thank you! I'll take a look around the options provided on the site.
 
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