What’s stopping you from recovery?

[jonward55]

Lack of money.

 

[SpiderLink]

I've tried everything, every treatment under the sun. I have a LOT of meds prescribed but its just not enough. It reduces my number of suicidal crisis but they're still very present. I don't know why it's not working. I've been in therapy for so long, so many years, yet i can't seem to fix or heal anything. I'm stuck in this health state. I've tried so many things.

Same here

 

[yellowroses]

I'm sure this has been asked, but so has everything else so oh well.

For me, I think it's a personality problem. I can't put away my self sabotaging mindset long enough to really get better. Maybe for a moment but it's never enough to make the change.

Also it's so gradual, it never feels like I'm actually improving and I give up.

I have a nasty combination of mental illnesses which only get more severe as you age. I already have extreme paranoid thoughts and delusions, occasionally hallucinations, I can't imagine living with this only getting worse for another 5 years, nevermind the rest of my natural lifespan. After my last attempt I'm trying for recovery again, but there isn't really any way to stop the progression of what I have, so unless there's some miracle in store for me I'll probably end up CTB sooner or later.

 

[Hollowman]

Lack of science in psychiatry.

 

[Terrible00]

I've recovered a few times only to realize I've lied to myself. And I won't fall for those lies anymore.

 

[LittleJem]

personally, I think it's a patronising myth. Like for me right now I am a little more functional thanks to current medication which means I can get out of bed, do food shopping and start an exercise routine. Do I have a life worth living: no. Am I still miserable all day: yes. I hate being a 'service user'. I try to come to terms with the reality of living with chronic mental illness. I don't call that 'recovery'. It just sucks. I know that any functionality I have is entirely dependent on medication and I don't know how long any medication will give me or how much relief it will offer.

 

[Bigsmoke777]

Too retarded

 

[LivingANDDying26]

Honestly?? Life it's self I think..just reading this thread I realized I put in A LOT of effort towards my recovery. Weekly meetings with workers. Weekly therapy..seeing my doctor very often. Peer support groups. Hobby groups...

But I have too many health issues, live below the poverty line and have limited resources bc of all of that. I think life is just too much to handle. To go towards recovery I'd needa accept that a lower living standard than I want to/can actually live with... I dunno too many variables. It's overwhelming and makes me shut down.

 

[Strawberries]

Nothing's stopping me, I've tried every option there is for about 14 years now. Nothing's worked. I'm like someone else above already said out of options. I'm just really tired after all these years..

 

[Ambivalent1]

Liberals

 

[jemetire]

I have no one and the stress from school is making me even more suicidal.

 

[Forever Sleep]

'Recovery' for me would be to earn sufficient money from the job I love to be able to live comfortably. There are several issues with this:

- I'm not quite good enough and no matter how hard I try- I likely won't ever be. Although- I COULD just scrape by with this alone...

- Most jobs require working as part of a team and my confidence shatters around other people. I have neither the courage nor the will to deal with my social anxiety/ confidence issues.

- Most of the jobs in my industry are freelance, badly paid and all over the country. I tried learning to drive but was a complete mennace! I also made the mistake of settling somewhere and it can get ridiculously expensive paying two sets of bills if you have to take on short term rents to work.

- The freelance life doesn't actually suit my catastrophizing nature but permanent jobs in my industry usually mean middle management roles- which end up being really stressful and less creative (in my experience.)

- I've already tried a lot of things to 'help' me. I've started again in life a few times, I've tried exercise, a healthy diet, walking in nature. I can't deny those things help- yes but- they're simply not enough and they require abstinence of things I enjoy- like eating and not exercising!

I suppose I just don't have the energy now. Plus- I'm not even sure the best case scenario result would be worth it anymore. There's something comfortable about feeling melancholy. Telling yourself you're not going to pressure yourself into doing things you find terrifying. Just treading water as best you can in the hopes you'll be in the position to take permanent leave soon.

 

[lawlietsph]

I tried. Went to therapy, took my meds, did sports, etc... Some worked for a while, some are not. I always end up being in a horrible place mentally. And no matter how hard I try, I will never be able to heal my inner child. I was unloved and the feeling just never goes away. I am not wanted here.
This world is horrible, people are horrible and I can't change it. So what's the point?

 

[stermc]

I am tired of trying.

 

[absolomonisgone]

I can't recover. I decided I'd die at 40. I actually was ready, then life happened. Not going past 50, no matter what. That will be in less than 4 months' time