whats keeping you sane for now

[Versailles]

Nothing, literally i`m near the mental collapse

 

[Csmith8827]

Music (spotify premium is great and inexpensive), good/solid headphones, hopes that I'm gonna resolve all this shortly.

 

[Ultracheese]

The kind people on SS, music, and unrealistic fantasies about college and my crush

 

[Notforlong]

Today was my birthday, I'm in my mid 30s. I spent all day lying on the couch thinking about how fucked I am because of my mental health. I've isolated myself, haven't talked to my friends in over a year but they still reach out for some reason. I sometimes don't leave my house for weeks because I'm just overwhelmed with anxiety and depression. What hurts the most right now is that I went back to school and just finished recently, spent the last 2 years of my life busting my ass because college and ADHD is tough and now I'm too depressed and anxious to work. I initially had a long term plan to ctb, but I didn't think my birthday would mess me up like it has. I'm strongly considering making it happen right now, which means it's not going to be pretty. I can't even sleep it off because I won't be able to sleep at all.

 

[WhiteRabbit]

Sugar, lol. I recently took up baking and I'm really enjoying it. It's relaxing.

 

[jamie_]

nothing. i dissociate and distract myself from realising i exist. i wish i could do solo night walks that sounds like such a beautiful thing. but that would remind me too much of memories i have of walking at night back when i was actually living.

 

[ChocoholicSawako]

This.

Cannot describe it better, althought I'm not really sure I'm sane.

Same!!!

 

[eisnotverysure]

honestly, ketamine and fentanyl

 

[TapeMachine]

Today was my birthday, I'm in my mid 30s. I spent all day lying on the couch thinking about how fucked I am because of my mental health. I've isolated myself, haven't talked to my friends in over a year but they still reach out for some reason. I sometimes don't leave my house for weeks because I'm just overwhelmed with anxiety and depression. What hurts the most right now is that I went back to school and just finished recently, spent the last 2 years of my life busting my ass because college and ADHD is tough and now I'm too depressed and anxious to work. I initially had a long term plan to ctb, but I didn't think my birthday would mess me up like it has. I'm strongly considering making it happen right now, which means it's not going to be pretty. I can't even sleep it off because I won't be able to sleep at all.

My birthday is at the end of this week, also 30s with adhd, isolating and all. It really isn't very fun...

Happy birthday even though it hasn't been all that great. :( My heart goes out to you. If you ever wanna vent about adhd or life in general, feel free to message me.

Oh, and I forgot to answer the question:

I'm not sure anything is keeping me sane atm..maybe my medication, atleast a little?

 

[EternalOblivion]

I run or walk on a treadmill when I have the energy to do so—doesn't happen very often, though. I also picked up knitting this past year; it's been somewhat helpful to have myself focus on something creative. If I'm feeling particularly low, it's alcohol and excessive amounts of sleep.

 

[Sadgirldaisy]

Moving in with a friend in a month. I might CTB before then though.

 

[time2fly]

Nothing I have lost my fucking marbles. This is pointless. I'm CTB soon. Goodbye.

 

[stermc]

I feel like I am going to lose it soon. I am trying really hard to focus on other things, but I am losing it.

 

[AerialBoundaries]

For a while, it was drinking alcohol every waking moment, but the withdrawals are brutal and they get worse every time you go through them. I decided it wasn't worth it to suffer physically, as well as mentally.

My music has kept me relatively stable this past week or so. There's just something about being awake in the middle of night and playing around on the guitar that comforts me. It gives me a small respite from life.

 

[trucker247]

I just keep watching my comfort shows, also rewatching anime i love. I drive for work but i won't be home until a few weeks. SN is already at the crib, just basically counting the days atp

 

[byebyered]

Weed

 

[MitakaAsa]

weed and, more importantly, my significant other. he's the only reason I haven't ctb yet.

 

[LunaXCBN]

video games and video editing

if im not doing either one of those things im either suicidal as shit or having a panic attack, or both

 

[OutOfTheVoid]

holding on to solo night walks and cigarettes before ctb.

ive never really been "sane", tho i usually tried to pretend to be for a while, but i got tired of pretending. tf even is "sanity"? tf is "insanity"? just made up words. if i am insane, so what? whats wrong with being insane?

 

[Lost in a Dream]

Weed is the main thing that helps. Other than that, it's just PC games, music, and junk food, but they just barely help. Sometimes none of those things work and that's when I lose it.

if i am insane, so what? whats wrong with being insane?

As long as you're not turning into The Joker, then being insane probably isn't such a bad thing, so please don't turn into a DC villain. If you do, there won't be a Batman to save us.

 

[Faejin]

I just try to find anything to look forward to. I just got a new computer and I want to get to use it at least a bit before I CTB. After that? No idea, we'll see then.

 

[LastFlowers]

The promise of death.

 

[downndone2]

My dogs are it and I don't thinkbthey like me like this at all. I hate existing like this it is truly awful!

 

[Adamsnolife]

This site

 

[wait.what]

This site

Yeah, me too. You're the only people I can talk to right now. Honestly, if it weren't for SaSu, I'd probably be back trying to drink myself to death again.

 

[Darkover]

nothing here keeps me sane how could i be sane knowing i face oblivion for all time

 

[missingpeace]

Chatting to people online.. I'm so numb to anything else

 

[Bardo]

Morphine, antidepressants, burgers and computing. Paradoxically my 'healthy obsession' with computers and programming is keeping me sane.

Love the insert of "burgers". Haha. I'm a burgermeister, too.

Masturbating to forget about my miserable life for 10-15 minutes.

Oh yes. Hitting the pleasure button, stimulating the dopamine. Yep, My rod of delight is on overtime.

 

[Bardo]

nothing. i dissociate and distract myself from realising i exist. i wish i could do solo night walks that sounds like such a beautiful thing. but that would remind me too much of memories i have of walking at night back when i was actually living.

I found a couple of books online abt astral projection, as I'd like to travel as far away from the gross material as possible--or at least as far from being a corporeal being while travelling to other dimensions possible. Reading PARALLEL WORLDS by Michio Kaku, the physicist, as well.
This site and the camaraderie of people who are affected deeply by life, seeing past the false veneer of glitter and bullshit.

 

[sadDaysAhead]

Knowing that I have so many options to CTB and I'm not limited also knowing I could avoid hurting myself or H if I follow steps right .This world is evil and I've been alone in this battle for a long time knowing I have control and I can exit when I'm ready keeps me sane.