What's keeping you alive?

[Miles Morales]

In as many or as few words as you want, what is keeping you alive?
for me, it's entertainment, especially games, books, movies, music and tv shows

 

[StarFaded]

Sounds stupid but it's video games for me, my distraction from the real world.

 

[Miles Morales]

Sounds stupid but it's video games for me, my distraction from the real world.

doesnt sound stupid at all they are amazing

 

[Praestat_Mori]

The fear of becoming a veggie, my mum (who wouldn't survive me CTB), my wife, the SaSu community, maybe some early forms of SI, still some hope left that things might change to the better. Many things although I wish for CTB so much and better yesterday than tomorrow.

 

[Knbmt]

Seriously cute cat and little fear

 

[Miles Morales]

cats are more than enough reason

Seriously cute cat and little fear

 

[dreaming_of_pearl]

In as many or as few words as you want, what is keeping you alive?
for me, it's entertainment, especially games, books, movies, music and tv shows

Tbh my hedgehog pearl, and the dream of getting better

 

[kindalone]

Lots of Kratom and my sister saying she would die without me.

 

[LikeAPendulum]

In as many or as few words as you want, what is keeping you alive?
for me, it's entertainment, especially games, books, movies, music and tv shows

Hedonistic distractions, but also constant disruptions that reset the necessary routine for SN.

I recall how down and ready I was back in April, all prepared and alone to do it, but the SN got delayed in delivery.

It's always been like that; I've hesitated or just procrastinated my death to another date. It's a terrible habit that I hope to break soon.

 

[NoReasonToLive2023]

My sons.

The chance I may not actually be convicted of what I've been accused of and being allowed to be a dad again is the only reason I've not already jumped.

 

[Dainhla]

Writing, music, painting and reading. So, basically things that evade my reality; things that create fake scenarios where I'm successful and happy.

 

[sanction]

Simply because CTB is difficult to move forward with. Otherwise I would have been gone some years ago already

 

[The anhedonic one]

Erm... nothing.
I'm just saving enough money to go to Mexico.
My final destination.

 

[kionu09]

Sliver of hope about future

 

[imissmykitten]

family and pets

 

[deleted442]

Leaving behind a mess that friends and family would have to deal with.
At the same time there will always be something so, Im thinking to myself, just go ahead and do it.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I don't want to upset my Dad. Plus- can't deny- I'm scared of actually doing it.

 

[leftdreaming]

Unavailablity, unmotivated.

 

[blacktulip44]

my pets and sister. it used to be my partner too but im not so sure about it anymore. as for distractions, videogames and tv shows

 

[Johan]

My children. If I kill myselfe they will feel abandoned by their parent and that might f-up them in the future. I can't take that risk.
i feel horrible having children that I love but still can't stop feeling that all I want to do is kill myselfe. Even when I'm with them.
If I didn't have any kids I would kill myselfe in an instant. It would be so easy

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm only still trapped here because of the fact that suicide really is so unnecessarily difficult in this world, the problem lies in how we are cruelly denied the option of an accessible, peaceful, straightforward and reliable way to finally die, it's horrible how suicide attempts can fail and just lead to more suffering. So therefore the fact is that if one doesn't find a way to ctb they have no choice but to continue existing here just waiting around to die. It's really absurd to make suicide purposely so inaccessible when we are all just destined to die anyway, death is the most normal thing ever.

 

[kaleidoscopedreams]

The empathy I have for those in my life that would feel hurt & betrayed. I have a lil sister who I've watched grow up & practically raised, I just think about her a lot.

 

[jonghyun]

lots of music to listen to, things to watch and games to play. parents and siblings would have their lives destroyed. that and i'm a little scared... and i don't really want to (or am able to by my method of choice) ctb at home so i have to wait until i live by myself. plus, i know that failing any attempt would not be able to be kept a secret and it would make my life infinitely worse: parents would keep me under constant watch and psych might just put me in the ward for a bit. the risks outweigh the benefits currently

 

[Busridin'26]

Not having the "right" nethod. Like I need something that is a bit easy to execute and painless enough.

It's just the lack/struggle of available method. Nothing about life & living is keeping me here anymore.

 

[almondmilk]

my bf which i suspect on cheating on me with his ex =((

 

[sillycatforever]

My cat. i just cant leave him alone

 

[suicidalloser]

Definitely not these same repetitive questions. If you gonna keep doing it, at least let us get paid for it.
Always a new user doing it, clear data gatherer for more worthless statistic purposes.

 

[S u i c i d e]

Nothing.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Nothing. I was going to go on a trip this weekend, which would have delayed my CTB a bit but now i am unable to go so there is no longer any incentive for me to delay my CTB. I may even CTB this weekend. Idk yet.

 

[Fi-Fe]

In as many or as few words as you want, what is keeping you alive?
for me, it's entertainment, especially games, books, movies, music and tv shows

Idk, I'm thinking about it more than ever now. Im in a lot of legal trouble right now because of my alcoholism...
I drank one beer and got pulled over with a fire arm... Im probably going to try the night night method here soon..
I also have a daughter but yeah.. I'm about done living
To be honest it's just not worth the suffering. The anger....
The negativity of life
..
My depravity, my inability to find love...
I'm getting old and I'm getting tired.
I'll die at 29 and be