What's keeping you alive?

[m1v]

What is still keeping you alive today? We surely must all have at least one reason. I think most of the people's reasons are slowly fading away and even disappearing. Which is why they happen to be there.

I had 2 reasons, one of them is almost completely gone. I'm basically holding onto a thread.

 

[isthisit?]

I'm waiting for my salary to get some sn. Then I'll also have to wait the shipping time

 

[delusionalgirl]

That my end is near. Honestly I'm just finishing the plans. Well alternating since I had a surprise visit. But I'm "living" but trying to have reckless fun.

 

[nico_wren]

Now, it's just the fear of nothing after death. If I believed in God, I wouldn't be here

 

[ExitLight]

Guilt and self preservation instincts.

What would my suicide do to my mother and my partner? Imagining it makes me feel even more like garbage. I will probably wait until my mother passes before I really make plans. Even then, I can't seem to work past my body's programming to live at all costs.

I really wish I could go to therapy just to do the mental work it takes to commit suicide.

 

[yellowtin42]

literally lack of access to ctb tools. i'm not particularly afraid of the unknown of what happens after death. if there is a a god, i think i've lived a decent enough life, and been decent enough to others that i will be ok in the afterlife.

 

[born2di3]

What is still keeping you alive today? We surely must all have at least one reason. I think most of the people's reasons are slowly fading away and even disappearing. Which is why they happen to be there.

I had 2 reasons, one of them is almost completely gone. I'm basically holding onto a thread.

im fostering my friends kitten and i have my own cat but other than those two and my mother i cant do it anymore

 

[Stargazing:<]

My cats, friends and hope in my personal projects

 

[Extreme Hell]

I live in Iran and as you know there is a very bad situation here that makes an even normal people ill. I'm a highly sensitive person and imagine what I'm going through. Everyday I wake up with news about people being executed and strangled to death by the islamic republic and it's made me very sick beside my personal life issues. What's keeping me alive is first of all my cockatiels and second my father because I can't imagine him going through grief because of me. I like life in general but it's so hard and sometimes I get disappointed with everything.

 

[ChaiTea]

no clue tbh. i have no one in my life that genuinely can tolerate me, let alone like me. i have sn at home and have no fear of cbt by sh. if i had to guess itd be my cats snowflake whos getting old (10yo) and rusty (6-8yo?)

 

[Kundalini Guy]

The internet

 

[Aries]

The fact that I still don't have an effective method

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Family and SaSu

 

[Misfit72]

The fact that I still don't have an effective method

Same here.

I no longer see death as something getting in the way of my plans for life, I see life as getting in the way of my plans for death.

 

[S u i c i d e]

Nothing.

 

[Brew]

Understanding a certain bipolarity to my wishes. Like the feeling CTB is inevitable is seasonal, it comes and goes. After a while, I remember everything I want and can do, and plan accordingly...
Only to feel like I'm just wasting time.

 

[DeIetedUser4739]

Scared of death

 

[BoneWeary57]

My animals. I worry about what would happen to them.

 

[AdamOndiAhman]

time

 

[sdansht]

I have been forced to live because I was suicidal since a long time and access to suicide methods is restricted. So my reason for being alive is that I failed to ctb, that's probably due to my strong survival instinct and the hope that things might change somehow.

 

[tvwowacct]

The USPS taking forever with my package and the rain.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I can't access a painless method and the only methods that I can access are risky, painful and have chances of me failing the attempt and ending up worse than I currently am right now. If I could access a painless method or if I had the courage to gamble with a risky method, I wouldn't be here

 

[TapeMachine]

Guilt regarding my parents.

One of my brothers killed himself in 2023, right as I'd been gathering my supplies for my own suicide. (Neither of us had been aware of the other's intentions.)

And now I feel stuck, because my poor parents don't deserve so much pain... So I just cope as best I can for as long as possible. But some day, my current coping mechanisms will cease being effective, and I suppose that is when I will finally lie down for the long sleep.

 

[Suicidal_manlet]

SI

 

[abchia]

I made a list last night. Two people to stay, and 5 reasons each with part a), b), c) and d) to leave

 

[everythingoes]

interview with the vampire season 2

 

[eatantz]

Money, saving up for SN

 

[pollux]

Have a date already

 

[WantingOut2]

No painless and guaranteed method available to me. I can't stand waking up; I think maybe I take too much pleasure in sleep as the horrible day always follows, I wish it would just STOP

 

[LostinTime24]

I have a small chance to recover financially and still have irrational hope somehow recover my lost friends and last gf. I'll have to make a decision here shortly though 1-3 months max.

 

[Rocinante]

@sserafim