What’s Behind the meaning of your username

[Bigpink]

Thanks' for sharing ! I'm listening to the album right now !

Aaahh that's so cool, hope you're enjoying it

 

[Mentalmick]

My name's Michael, and I'm mental.

 

[LaminarFlow]

Aaahh that's so cool, hope you're enjoying it

I love it ! You put some tunes in my head and I needed it. Thanks !

Making a difference in someone's day it can be as simple as that....

 

[HopelessCookie]

I feel hopeless and I like cookies. Haha

 

[DocNo]

DocNo is a reference to the villain "doctor no" of the first bond movie.

the "no" also symbolizes some kind of "leave me alone / don't even start talking to me / the answer will be no" mentality which i have when i feel bad.

 

[Neowise]

In summer 2020 you could see the comet C/2020 F3 - also called Neowise - in the sky with your eyes. You didn't even need binoculars, though they obviously helped getting a closer look.
I found that quite impressive, it was the first astronomical event I have watched and it has stuck with me. Also because this comet will come back to the earth only in 6.700 years again after we are all long gone.

On top of that I didn't want to use my gaming name here to avoid people recognizing me. That's why I picked a new and neutral name.

 

[Amumu]

I used to play LOL when I was a teen. A character came to my mind.

 

[aneurysm]

Dengeki Daisy. My first ever manga. Discovered it in my teen years, it's the story of a girl who has a secret protector and his name is Daisy. His identity is anonymous but she messages him when she feels lonely or is in trouble, I remember feeling deeply envious of her... warm feelings remember my anime/manga years. almost nostalgic

 

[Flawed Emotion]

I think it speaks for itself.

 

[olieolieoxenfree]

Olie olie oxen free sounds cool

 

[notreallynow]

Alan Garner's novel Red Shift

'In 1966, four months after hearing about the Spanish slaves on Mow Cop, I was reading graffiti in the waiting room at Alderley Edge Station. One, done in chalk, was: "Janet Heathcoat = Alan Flask. It is true." Somebody had added, in silver lipstick, without punctuation or a capital letter: "not really now not any more". And the sky fell on me.'

A 1975 lecture by Garner entitled "Inner Time" is concerned with engrams, experiences which remain in our subconscious and continue to affect us. Garner mentions repeatedly recounting a trauma to his psychiatrist to "release" it. The repetition of events over time is one of the main themes of Red Shift. Garner goes on to explain how memories form their own sequence, independent of chronology (hence "inner time"): "any two intensely remembered experiences[...] will be emotionally contemporaneous, even though we know that the calendar separates them by years."

The story is dead simple - kid is unhappy, has experiences, jumps off an old tower and dies ( probably). I read it years ago and the phrase stuck with. All those bits of heartbreak everywhere - the girl crying in the toilets at the club, angry scrawls of graffiti, the drunk dude who called me an evil rat when I was walking back from the co-op this evening ( who did I remind you of?) All the pity for people who can't do anything with your pity. Wishing you knew what to do with love : how to use it, how to mend other with it, anything besides leaving to rot in its cellar. To become annihilated, along with your nasty thoughts, your petty bitchiness and your sordid fantasies. All of a one nothing. It stuck with me cause it's kind of like a shrug - not really - the way people just accept things. The way my mother accepted that she wouldn't live to see her grandchild go to school, the way my father saw his friends die from mines and now marks papers and fixes cabinets. I am blown away always, by how strong most people are, the things they can put up with, the way they can wear unhappiness as casually and lightly as an old jumper.

But of course the protagonist of the book isn't like that. Becomes overwhelmed, literally by the grief of people who died thousands of years ago, throws away potential, a middle class future, university, learning, curiosity, experience, possibility, sex, and goes splat off a tower. It's always nice when you can relate to something.

 

[botanormal]

It's just the words 'Botan' and 'normal' put together. 'Botan' because she's the character in my pfp - my favourite character from the first anime I ever watched. The word 'normal' because I have often been told I'm weird, which I've always been bothered by, because usually it's due to something I cannot control well & already makes me insecure. Over the years I've desperately tried to appear as normal as I possibly can, but when I made my account, I had just been told I was weird by someone again, so I wrote it out of frustration. If you say something enough, it might help manifest it into happening, so I thought having it in my username would realise that. I guess I am 'normal' on this site though, because everybody on here goes through their own struggles that may be seen as 'abnormal' in a different setting.

 

[WaitForSleep]

It's the name of a song from one of my favorite bands, Dream Theater. Pretty much relate to every line of the lyrics in that song. Essentially, it's about being stuck on a single page of life (like, a sad scene).

 

[AnnonyBox]

I really like the idea of vanishing, not just from life, but from memory, rather than just dying. The profile fits the theme of anonymity.

 

[NodusTollens]

The word 'normal' because I have often been told I'm weird, which I've always been bothered by, because usually it's due to something I cannot control well & already makes me insecure.

I felt this on a personal level. I just want to give you the biggest HUG.
People often say things in passing they don't realize will have a massive effect on another person.

 

[botanormal]

I felt this on a personal level. I just want to give you the biggest HUG.

I'm so sorry you can also relate to this, but I more than appreciate your understanding. I'm sending the warmest hug to you too!

People often say things in passing they don't realize will have a massive effect on another person.

This! Sometimes, it's the smallest things people say that have the biggest impact. I try not to let myself get too worked up over these things, but at the same time, you'll hear the same thing over & over again so many times, that it just builds up. It's hard not to be effected, even if the person who said it had no bad intentions.

 

[Fehler]

I was looking for one that would define me, before I used another one that I had on other social networks (because I didn't plan to spend a lot of time) but I changed it when I left the forum open when I had the family at home (not very clever).

 

[Blue Rose]

Mine is the name of a flower.

Naturally, blue rose can't be in the nature, so it used to mean the impossible or the unreachable. But some scientists made it artificially, new meanings were added.
The miracle and Never giving up. I like all these meaning of that.

 

[us_1999]

My name is su. If I inverted myself I would split into two (us), me and my imaginary friend. And I'd like to become many. 1999 was the year when my imaginary friend first showed up.

 

[Ashley_1988]

Ashley is actually my name. My parents (Germans) thought it is progressive to give me an English name. ^^ And I was 31 when I got joined ss. jup nothing particular profound or interesting. sorry

 

[who doesn't matter]

Well, my chosen name explains my perspective on myself.

 

[Wheredidmysanitygo]

Pretty self explanatory. I've been loosing my mind for quite some time now. Not sure if there's anything left of it by now.

 

[Sadgirl4040]

Mine is because I'm always sad...

 

[fresca]

i have anorexia and the drink that I love and is zero calories is Fresca

 

[FreeMe]

Just want to be free of me.

 

[muffin222]

I like muffins
And, 222 is my lucky number

 

[FarAcrossTheWater]

Random enough to the point no one can trace me. I've been hospitalized before. I'm not about to be hospitalized again.

 

[In2TheVoid]

I allowed my relationship with the cryptocurrency Ethereum to essentially ruin a previously perfect life

 

[WaitingForTheBusInTh]

So theres a character cap on usernames but mine was supposed to be waitingforthebusintherain. Theres a song in a podcast called Welcome to Nightvale in one of the episodes called Waiting for the Bus in the Rain. When I found out that ctb means catch the bus, I thought it would be kinda funny

 

[feast or famine]

It's from a song. The full lyric is, "it's feast or famine, I honestly kinda hate both." That line resonates with me because in a lot of ways, I sometimes think in black or white terms or have an "all or nothing" kind of outlook.

Both of those ways of thinking either leaves me with too much of something or not enough of it and I hardly ever find that nice, happy medium. Figuratively speaking, I'm either too full or too hungry which is a driving force behind the vast majority of my problems in this life because I often feel dissatisfied and unfulfilled which makes me cope in various unhealthy ways.