What’s Behind the meaning of your username

[mathieu]

@mathieu is that Cloud in your PFP?

Yeah, it's Cloud.

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

I was pretty young when I made this username. Wanted it to be poetic in a way and include "Suicide" but add something that wouldn't make people panic.

Also, I love alliteration. :-) x

 

[Poptart]

I lived off poptarts and vodka at the height of my depression. Poptart boxes were scattered around me when I was drunk making this account.

 

[SpottedPanda]

I wrote a song about my girlfriend at the time waking up with 'panda eyes', hinting at her smudged make up and how romantic it seemed, counter intuitively, and spotted because a leopard can't change its spots. The girlfriend I was with was ten years ago, and it was the final serious love before everything started going downhill

 

[RepressedMind]

It is what I have been dealing with for a long time already. But sadly my mental issues extend beyond that.

 

[Aonewayticketplease]

When I decide to go through with it I don't want to be "saved".

 

[Hydration]

Unironically think that drinking enough water and staying hydrated is very important, maybe I might even remind someone to drink some water.

 

[Walilamdzi]

A song I love.

 

[BridgeJumper]

I jumped off a bridge

 

[MBlue]

MBlue like methylene blue IV, the atidiotum for SN, that's how my friend died :( I just dream about this beautiful blue liquid in his body, imagine 10000 times different scenarios in which he is saved, that gives me realise from grieving

 

[theSuiCiDalCupCaKe]

Mine was inspired by a 'Cyanide and Happiness' video on YT if anyone's ever watched that. Also, I will CTB at some point (hopefully soon when my SN comes) and I used to love baking.

The random capital letters represent how messed up everything is...from the world in general, all the hate and darkness I've seen through media etc, to my personal life and the relationships I've messed up.

 

[DeadD]

My nick name is D and I wish I was dead lmao

 

[MyStateKilledMe]

My username meaning is pretty literal. Back in March, my state implemented a mass quarantine, ordering everybody to stay home at all times, except for grocery shopping, medical care, walking alone outside for exercise, and essential jobs. The quarantine has no proper end date, and will continue until a Corona vaccine becomes available. This completely destroyed my will to live. I'm a very social person; before the quarantine, I had a rich, active social life, full of fun, lively outings with friends. Now, it's all been taken away from me, all because of a lousy flu virus. Multiple politicians tried to overturn my state's quarantine rulings, but they all failed. So I'd rather die from Corona, or CTB, than live under quarantine for the rest of my life.

So... if/when I CTB, my state will be responsible for my death, even if indirectly. Hence, my username.

 

[mouseteeth]

Absolutely no meaning at all. Just something random that popped into my head when registering, that I knew wouldn't be traced back to me as far as commonly used aliases go.

 

[Isittimetogonola]

I am always questioning if it is my time to go + my physical home. Mentally, I have no home.

 

[AnxietyAttack44]

I have anxiety attacks every day lately, i like the number but might be also number of anxiety attacks per day

 

[Deleted member 18655]

It's French for "broken heart." Since I was about 8 I've felt a stinging/burning in my chest that I'm pretty sure is my heart. I was born with a defect I guess.

 

[suicidebabyseal]

I used to watch a Nickelodeon's cartoon named "As Told by Ginger". It was one of my favorite shows as I was growing up. There was this chapter that was about a little seal girl that the characters used to look up since they were children. The little seal girl was sad and could not cry. I felt so identify and heartwarmed that i completely fell for this fictional character. Now I decided to be a little seal girl too. But a suicidal one.

 

[Made4TV]

When people hear what's happened to me in life, they invariably say something like, "oh my god, it's like a made for TV movie!"

 

[JustHeckinKillMe]

What it says

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

I'm a recent member, but I chose my name because I really feel that there isn't any way out of my constant pain other than death

 

[catmom13]

I have two cats that I love dearly, and I was born on a Friday the 13th so I'm rather attached to that number.

 

[Gladtogo]

Mine's just a reference to Asleep by the Smiths- "deep in the cell of my heart, i will feel so glad to go". It's true.

 

[bokete]

I didn't want to be tracked with my usual usernames so I put something funny that was on my mind that day.

ぼける (bokeru) on て form is ぼけて (bokete), and "boquete" is bl*w j*b in Portuguese XD.

 

[whitelacedress]

I wanna die in a beautiful white lace dress, I alredy have it, its perfect

 

[Darksektori]

Interesting question, it reflects my personality I suppose

 

[dysfunctional]

The way my mental illness makes me and why I can't stand life this way.

 

[NorthernStar]

I am best friends with a very sunny cheery person. He helps keep me positive and conversely, I guide him through "the darkness" when he is in it. He has a northern star that represents me tattooed on his leg. He is the main reason why I haven't CTB'd yet.

 

[catmom13]

I am best friends with a very sunny cheery person. He helps keep me positive and conversely, I guide him through "the darkness" when he is in it. He has a northern star that represents me tattooed on his leg. He is the main reason why I haven't CTB'd yet.

That's a beautiful relationship! ❤ I am glad that you are there for each other.

 

[Mr2005]

My problems should have been over in 2005 after only a year instead of dragging on for another fifteen