Help What would you do if you were me?

[YourLocalEdgelord]

I feel like a failure having to ask this, but I can't fucking take this anymore.

I currently work in retail, three hours a week. It pays almost nothing (~180€) and is easily replaceable. In fact, I've replaced it several times already and found a new one within a month or less. My parents also financially support me, or I'd already be homeless.

I work beyond my capabilities. I'm actually too traumatized and depressed to work at all, causing my mind to think about next work week and CTB 24/7. I can't enjoy anything anymore because of that. It's torture.

I'm approaching my 30s and need to find a permanent solution which is clearly to CTB find a proper source of income.

I'm just not meant to live in capitalism, man, fuck this.

Disclaimers:
-My energy is VERY limited and obtaining new education is impossible for me.
-Meds and therapy harmed me and are no longer an option
-Trying to go on sick leave made two separate doctors threaten me
-I've considered freelance work, even if it doesn't pay much. I'm an artist and a writer. If you know anything about it, please let me know
-I live in germany
-my resume is already fucked, so no need to worry about that lol

 

[never mind me]

What about getting laid off and applying for welfare? If you are too sick to work (and doctors support you) the authorities will have a hard time pressuring you into another job. The only downside is having to deal with bureaucracy and having to subsist on very little money. And just go doctor hopping till you find a doctor who gives you sick leave, so you can eventually be laid off.

 

[Hashe20]

Probably live on welfare checks, and just write.

Or moving to a conutry like thailand and living on bare minimum